[Jonny123987]

Hi Everyone, I hope you’re all doing well. I am still gamble free which is great. I did give a colleague a couple bucks to buy a group of us into the 400mm lottery a week or two ago. I do consider it gambling but was more for fun and a chance to win 400mm. 🙂 I was also able to watch a couple football games over the last few weeks and not have even had one feeling of wanting to gamble. I know gambling will always be there but it really doesn’t;t cross my mind much any more. I did feel like coming in here and talking after reading Taylors nice note to me and the rest of your kind notes.
Hey Taylor, Thanks for posting on my thread. You can beat this disease. It really can be done and you can have your life back. If you read my posts than you know what I think needs to be done. Please keep me posted on your progress.
Be well all. I think my last gamble day was 12/27/2016.

[Jonny123987]

Thanks Everyone. Johnny B sounds like you are doing great! Happy to report no gambling for me.

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Enough’s enough. Hey Mav, I hope you don’t mind me posting on your page. I usually upset people as I have a hard lined approach to things. At the moment I am over 1 year gamble free. It’s crazy to say it but it is actually true. I drove by a casino the other night and didn’t have a horrible urge to go in but the urge was there none the less. I think it’s important for me to realize that. I will always be a gambler. A small voice actually said could I go in and win and leave? The bigger voice of reason said sure you can go in there and lose… But when will you walk away? I thankfully just drove past the shiny lights and went to the hotel and watched a movie and passed out.
The weird thing is why I want to gamble? I have no idea really… I don’t need the money. I guess I just love the action of it. Thats the truth for me. I love the rush and action from gambling. Once I get the rush then comes the down turn. We all know the down turn…
My questions for you are…. Are you just waiting for the other shoe to drop and for your wife to leave you? Is that when you’ll quit or really kick it into high gear and gamble until suicidal?Are you wanting her to take the kids and teach them that their dad was too weak to stop doing something he knew was bad? If you saw either of your kids doing the same what would you do? Shouldn’t you do that for yourself and lead by example? If you saw your child repeatedly hitting his head on the table, you would you ask him to stop? If he didn’t stop after you asked, what would you do? I’m guessing you’d take him to get evaluated and ask why he keeps banging his head on the table after you’ve told him that doing so is a bad thing?
Are you going to lead your kids by example? Are you going to show them the righteous path in life or the path of chasing the action and the easy road? As parents and leaders we need to lead by example. You have said it a number of times Mav… Are you a good person or a bad person?? Only you can answer that question for yourself. Good and bad are only created by those that deem it relative. It’s actually really easy not to gamble. You just don’t. Then as time goes by things start to get better.
Just a thought Mav. I don’t make friends with these posts… But I do hope to make you think a little.

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Not sure what my ****** is anymore. It’s over a year. Glad my story could help you out a little.

Best

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Thanks IDI. How are you doing these days?

Best,
Jon

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Day 369 – Don’t really think about gambling much these days. Glad to have moved on with my life. I still want to keep my ***** though for some odd reason. I gambled for over 23 years. It can be done.

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Day 350 – Hope you’re all well!

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Day 343 – Hope all is well.

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Monicau,
I am an unbearable prick sometimes. I often talk to my life coach about why I’m such an unbearable prick… But being this way has also helped me in certain walks of life. As crazy as it sounds. By being an unbearable prick got me my back surgery months earlier than it was supposed to happen. It got me back in the gym and fighting hard for my life back. It allows me to known what I wanted and tell people clearly. I stand up for myself. I don’t scare easily. I don’t just allow someone to hurt me or let someone just cut in line (unless they are scary looking of course). 🙂 But it also means I can be just that… An unbearable prick. And I’m not always right either. But I have strong conviction, which can be a curse sometimes.

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Hi Laura,
I really appreciate your post. Thats the type of thing ZI need to hear. I’m so sorry that happened to you but I could really learn from that. I do worry that something major could possibly happen like a family member passing away and would I gamble again. I’d like to say I won’t but I guess whose to say. What do you do now with your finances in order to have control but also not be able to gamble if some strong trigger knocks me on my butt and I want to gamble again?

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Hi Monicau,
I just saw your email and gees this site is hard to stay away from. I just love replying to people and most likely just love the sound of my own voice…hehe. I also feel a certain kinship to you… I am so extremely sensitive sometimes and especially when it comes to gambling stuff. It took so much from me that it taking anymore in any form is just not allowed for me. It just digs right into a place that I don’t allow.
Thank you so much for this post. I really needed it. I’m definitely going overboard on this one but it just irks me so when someone says your truth is a lie to them. It’s just like…why? Why won’t this person just believe me and be empathetic. Last night I was respectful upon his request to talk personally over the hotline, we talked for a few minutes but I was busy at work. He literally belittled my gambling problem to me and my debt as if my problems weren’t enough for him and since I make this amount of money why would I even have a problem, etc. Then told me he didn’t believe what I was saying and asked me to explain my earnings to him which I did and then after that he was like thanks for explaining that helps but I still don’t believe you…Then today spouts off about this and that. I didn’t even get to finish what we were talking about because I had to finish work and got dragged away. The dude should take a chill pill on me and just let it go. Obviously I don’t like his views and don’t think I need his advise if it feels negative. I have said a number of times I would welcome his advise and thoughts, but please keep it a little shorter and be positive about my recovery and respond to my questions with answers as well and believe me when I answer.
About the stock market question you bring up. I agree that everyone has different levels of issues. What might appear a small issue to one might feel like a huge burden to another and vice versa. The truth is that most well off folks in this world do invest and diversify those investments to do it in a safe manner. Those accounts generally have set goals… some being more aggressive and some being very safe. The investor gets to choose that. In our world inflation is moving at a rate of 1-2% a year. Meaning the price of milk will be double in roughly 50 years. What cost $5 today will cost $10 then. Meaning if you have $1 now it’s worth $.50 then. If you don’t invest to offset inflation then you are not being penny smart in my eyes even if one might consider it gambling. Honestly I drive to work everyday and some might say thats a gamble. We take gambles and risks everyday. The difference for all of us is gambling on a known or an unknown. If you buy a house in a down market in a good neighborhood the likelihood is the house will go in value over the next 50 years. Is that a good or bad gamble/risk? Whose to say? I’m guessing Geordie would call that a gamble. I call it an investment and being smart with your money (penny smart). Also – When I was born there was 6billion people in the world. Now there are 7billion people. When I’m 80 there will be 8billion people in the world. It’s pretty simple math to see that the consumers are growing meaning demand will always be steadily moving up while resources will steadily moving down meaning that business is going to go well.

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In your posts you say something nice and then you backhand me across the back of the head… Do you not see that? I did it back to you to prove a point. But as I’ve pointed out. If you can’t add 2+2 and make 4 then we’ll never understand each other.

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I really believe in you but I just think your a lier. Oh you want to take a break from posting, you must be running away. Oh you have access to your money, you must not be taking your recovery seriously. Oh you want to invest… Well thats gambling no matter how you do it. I bought some clothes and feel good, well I must be a compulsive buyer now… All of it just is odd to me. I came here to stop gambling…

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