[Jonny123987]

It’s strange how addicted we become to placing a bet. When thunking about it it’s just dumb. To risk money that we have or don’t have on the outcome of a sport or flip of a card. Another person on here was correct when saying the house has the edge. Even though it’s a small edge on some game they will get you eventually. It’s just math. Today is day 1 and there will be no more. The disease have taken it’s last chunk of my life from me. Later gambling.

[Jonny123987]

Today is day 1 and it’s hard. All I can do is think about gambling for some reason. I don’t have much money left. I’m in debt up to my eyeballs. The only money I have us borrowed.

[Jonny123987]

I gambled late last night and all day. Lost more money. Great success I am.

Day 1 starts now.

[Jonny123987]

I decided to tell my mom about what I’ve done. She didn’t have anything to say. She’s been there and done that. It definitely didn’t make me feel better.

[Jonny123987]

I’m a total loser for doing this to myself. I don’t know how to go on after losing everything. I have gambled for over 20 years. Then straightened my life out. Relapsed once. Saved some back and things were going well. Then I just bet. Then bet again. Then the flood gates opened up. Now I’m lost in depression and debt. I haven’t been in debt like this for many years and am having trouble accepting it. I live alone, have no wife, girlfriend, or kids. My dog looks at me like I’m a total loser too. He seems to see the best in me always even though I’m going through hell.

[Jonny123987]

I haven’t done anything accept read posts all night and realize that I am no better and worse then many people on here. I thought I had a handle on this. I thought I was getting better. This relapse is worse then anything I have ever done to myself before. I can’t believe I did this to myself. I have nothing left.

[Jonny123987]

Oh and I dropped an additional $2k after r I lost the $5700. I have lost my savings. Maxed out credit cards and am desperate at this point. One credit card let me go $5k over the limit. Not even sure how that happened.

[Jonny123987]

I will never gamble again. This weekend was the worst.

I stopped for a few days and then realized that I had fee’s build up that would allow the sportsbook to put $300 into my account. I took that $300 and turned it into $5700 by around 5am in Saturday morning. Then I started betting big thinking I could get it all back. I lost $5700 in an hour once I started being big. Today is day 1 for me. I’m done. I also have hurt my back mysteriously. I can’t push off on my right calf and it scares me too. Gees. I literally have no money or access to any to even eat today. WTF did I just do to myself in thefts 2 months?

[Jonny123987]

I know the feeling. I have been losing big. Yesterday I won 6k and blew it all in a day. My bets just got bigger and faster. I couldn’t stop even though every part of me anted too.

[Jonny123987]

Why do you see no way to overcome your addiction? Tell me more about yourself so I understand the problem more.

[Jonny123987]

I made the same mistake again. Why do I do the same thing over and over and hate myself for it. Why have I lost everything? Why do I continue to hurt myself and never learn? I’m sick.

[Jonny123987]

Good for you. I should do the same thing.

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