[Jonny123987]

Hi Mutley,

I was only talking about how I feel. I don’t feel any withdrawal symptoms from gambling but that doesn’t mean others don’t. For me I struggle with the loss and the feeling of boredom. I’ve gambled for over 20 years straight and have lost close to or over $250k.

I’ve had friends who were heroin addicts. When they stopped they withdrawls could have literally killed them. I was mainly comparing it to something like that.

I have felt anger towards myself for gambling for sure. I’ve felt despair, sadness, loneliness, boredom, etc., but I’m not sure I’d call those withdrawl symptoms such as stoping to drink booze. But everyone is different.

Either way I wish you the best with your recovery. I also am on day 9 of quitting smoking cigarettes. I definitely felt some withdrawals from that. 🙂

Sincerely,
Jon

[Jonny123987]

I know I do when I gamble. I don’t want to anymore. I want to be happier and will do everything in my power to stop and gain my confidence back.

[Jonny123987]

Hi Maverick,

I think I’ve felt what you are explaining a 1000 times. And I feel like it now. Life is hard. Life is a roller coaster. Life can be horrible. Or life can be great. Life is what we make of it. My family survived the holocaust and I often think about it. Some people had everything taken from them, were tortured, and enslaved. They came out of that with nothing. Everything gone. They needed to start over from scratch after that. If they could do that so can we.

We just have to start carving out that new mold of life right now. Lets not get a year older and be talking like this. Lets change now. I scored up everything majorly. I have failed over and over again. But I need to believe in myself or the world won’t. We are what we think we are. Lets first start by not gambling today. Then lets try to change our mindset to be a positive one. See yourself through the eyes of a person that loves you like your wife, kids, or mom. You will see a different person then you see with your eyes. Start to be the best you you can be. You are a good person maverick. You are worth it. Your family is worth it. The world needs you to beat this.

I think now it’s time.

Happy 2017 brother.

Jon

[Jonny123987]

Hi Maverick,

I think I’ve felt what you are explaining a 1000 times. And I feel like it now. Life is hard. Life is a roller coaster. Life can be horrible. Or life can be great. Life is what we make of it. My family survived the holocaust and I often think about it. Some people had everything taken from them, were tortured, and enslaved. They came out of that with nothing. Everything gone. They needed to start over from scratch after that. If they could do that so can we.

We just have to start carving out that new mold of life right now. Lets not get a year older and be talking like this. Lets change now. I scored up everything majorly. I have failed over and over again. But I need to believe in myself or the world won’t. We are what we think we are. Lets first start by not gambling today. Then lets try to change our mindset to be a positive one. See yourself through the eyes of a person that loves you like your wife, kids, or mom. You will see a different person then you see with your eyes. Start to be the best you you can be. You are a good person maverick. You are worth it. Your family is worth it. The world needs you to beat this.

I think now it’s time.

Happy 2017 brother.

Jon

[Jonny123987]

Hi Maverick,

I think I’ve felt what you are explaining a 1000 times. And I feel like it now. Life is hard. Life is a roller coaster. Life can be horrible. Or life can be great. Life is what we make of it. My family survived the holocaust and I often think about it. Some people had everything taken from them, were tortured, and enslaved. They came out of that with nothing. Everything gone. They needed to start over from scratch after that. If they could do that so can we.

We just have to start carving out that new mold of life right now. Lets not get a year older and be talking like this. Lets change now. I scored up everything majorly. I have failed over and over again. But I need to believe in myself or the world won’t. We are what we think we are. Lets first start by not gambling today. Then lets try to change our mindset to be a positive one. See yourself through the eyes of a person that loves you like your wife, kids, or mom. You will see a different person then you see with your eyes. Start to be the best you you can be. You are a good person maverick. You are worth it. Your family is worth it. The world needs you to beat this.

I think now it’s time.

Happy 2017 brother.

Jon

[Jonny123987]

Hey 3racer,

I’m sorry to hear you replaced too. I did the same thing. Lets start over our counts again. check this out. It made me feel a little better. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKYcowQ3-Qw

Today is day 3 for me again. This will be my 100th day 3. I don;t want there to be a 101 day 3. I have to stop and so do you.

This disease is a horrible disease. It takes from us everything and gives back nothing.

[Jonny123987]

Hi Everyone,

I relapsed and dropped some pretty heavy cash. I got depressed after my back surgery and just wanted to gamble. I was so happy not gambling for those 2 weeks. I gambled for 2 days and broke down and told my mom and her husband. She flipped out at first, as expected. She then finally went and read about gambling, she hadn’t done that yet even though I recommended it so she could understand the disease better. After a couple hours she came to me and told me she was supporting me and was willing to be patient. It made me feel pretty good to have her kind of understand. It gave me strength to have her in my corner. She has control of all my finances at the moment. I paid for and installed bet filter on my computer. I have excluded from every website I’ve gambled on. Went to a GA meeting on Wednesday and will go tonight. I’m doing everything I can to beat this horrible disease. I am very mad that I’ve done this to myself. I know the only way out of this life is to stop and repair the damage.

I just had back surgery for a compressed nerve. The nerve is not better. It is compressed even after the decompression surgery. This means that I will most likely have weakness problems in my leg for the rest of my life. This sucks! What it’s made me think about is that some things are just out of our control. But that other things are. I can control gambling unlike my hurt nerve. I can work the program and get better unlike my damaged nerve. I’m so tired of talking about being a gambler to everyone. The only way to stop is to stop.

I hate to admit that I relapsed yet again. I hate myself for doing it but I don;t want to continue to hate myself. I need to let it go and focus on my new plan for today and better myself.

3racer. I also felt suicidal this week. It’s crazy how my mood will swing from one minute to the next. Listen to this and tell me if it makes you feel better. I think it worked for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKYcowQ3-Qw

Day 3 game the F back on.

[Jonny123987]

Nice poem! 🙂 Merry Christmas!

[Jonny123987]

Hi James,

I’m glad you are looking for help. That’s the first step of the process of getting your life back. The next thing you need to do is admit that you can never win because you are a compulsive gambler and can’t ever stop. Then you need to let go of all the money you’ve lost and to accept the debt you’re in. This terrible addiction costs a lot. All our figures are different but they feel the same. IT HURTS!!! Once you get those first things done you’ll need to ban yourself from all gambling options being the casinos, online sites, from your phone, and computer. You need to confide in a family member or friend that you can trust and most likely turn over all you’re money to them and have them help you recover from debt slowly.

Feeling how you feel and being down and in debt sucks man. I’m right there with you. To think of all of that all the time is debilitating. You and I need to focus on one day at a time. Just focus on getting through the day. Then get to day 2 and do the same thing. Lets do it together.

Jon

[Jonny123987]

Thanks Liz. Day 15 done. 🙂 My back is starting to feel better. My calf is still not working well.

[Jonny123987]

Hey Wayne,

Where did you go mate?

Best,
Jon

[Jonny123987]

Hey I Can Do This,

I’m really sorry to hear about your relapse and money lost. Nice that you came clean about it on here. And I’m glad to hear your back on day 4. I’m on day 15. Things are all great but I’m happy to have not gambled for a couple weeks. All I want to do is pay back my debts and start over again and put this in the past. I’m sure you’re a good gambler and have won many times before. Our problem is that we can’t ever stop gambling if we win or can’r stop chasing the money we’ve lost. We always have plan and that this time it’s going to work out.

I want to be honest with myself and try to get to know myself better to understand why I want to gamble. Why I want to make money without having to work for it. Why I want the money in the first place. When I had close to 75K in the bank I didn’t feel much different. But I felt like I had security. I guess the point Im trying to make is that having money and not having money might not be the issue. It might be that we are unhappy with ourselves and are trying to escape ourselves by gambling.

Good luck on day 4 and getting to day 5. And me on getting to day 16. 🙂

[Jonny123987]

Hey Brendan,

Glad to hear the move is going better than you thought it would. I’ll be hoping you find a good counselor in the meantime. I’m on day 15 and starting to feel a little better. I like coming onto this site and writing to you guys whenever I have urges to gamble. It seems to help. I also try to watch a funny movie or tv show if I get down. Dealing with my back is definitely a trigger to gamble. I have a bunch of triggers that make me want to gamble that I’ve realized.

It’s going to be long ride to save back money and to get my back healed up. People have said that the journey of life is the funnest part. Not the finish line. I’m going to keep going on my journey with my head up. 2016 was an amazing year for me had I not gambled away my life. I went to so many cool places and met so many new people. It’s was a great year, but gambling somehow wants me to forget that part and just focus on the money I lost and what a failure I am.

[Jonny123987]

Hey I can’t Do This,

Where did you go? You still gamble free?

Best,
Jon

[Jonny123987]

Hey Mav,

How are you doing? Are you still gamble free?

Jon

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