[Jonny123987]

Good for you Dave. Just stay stopped. Don;t gamble mate. I’m right there with you. Today is day 47 for me after a year of relapses. We can do this together.

Jon

[Jonny123987]

Thanks JayKay! Day 47 today. Not feeling great about anything today as I have so much to work on. But things could be worse I suppose. One day at a time. I will not gamble today.

[Jonny123987]

Day 47 today. I had a horrible dream last night. I just feel like I am nothing sometimes. I want to hate myself for what I ‘ve done to myself. But I don’t see how thats going to get me anywhere. I have quit for close to 7 weeks now. That’s 7 paychecks that won’t go towards gambling. My checks got held up in transit so I still need to use them to pay off my debt. I’m still in Central America working until 3/7 then I fly back home. I’ll need to land a job quick and keep going. I’ll make sure to go to Gambling Anonymous one or two times a week. This will be my last time quitting. I’ll never gamble again. I have so much to say but have to get to work. One day at a time. I’m not going to gamble today. Had I never gambled Iwould easily have over 300,000 in the bank and have a much more secure life. Instead I’m worried about my next paycheck after 20 years of hard work.

[Jonny123987]

Stop gambling brother. Gambling leads to a life of misery as you are finding out. It’s the easiest way to insure failure.

Jon

[Jonny123987]

Day 42 Come and gone.

[Jonny123987]

Day 42. Come and gone. Still have a lot of work to do to pay off my debt. But not gambling is getting easier. One day at a time.

[Jonny123987]

Keep writing on here. Stopping is the key!

[Jonny123987]

Good job on starting day 1!

[Jonny123987]

Time heels. Coming clean was the right thing to do.

[Jonny123987]

Thanks Vera and everyone else who has been nice to me and taken the time to read and write. I’m still working my job in Belize. I suffered a major set back about a week ago with my back. I think I may have pinched the nerve again and it is finally starting to feel normal. I haven’t gambled which is good and was able to watch the SuperBowl without having any real urge to gamble. Today is the start of day 41. Still upset about my losses. Every paycheck I make for the next few months will completely go to my debt. Hopefully I can continue to get better, will continue to work, and can get myself out of this crazy red hole again and never do this again to myself.

[Jonny123987]

Thanks White Tara and everyone else who has been nice to me and taken the time to read and write. I’m still working my job in Belize. I suffered a major set back about a week ago with my back. I think I may have pinched the nerve again and it is finally starting to feel normal. I haven’t gambled which is good and was able to watch the SuperBowl without having any real urge to gamble. Today is the start of day 41. Still upset about my losses. Every paycheck I make for the next few months will completely go to my debt. Hopefully I can continue to get better, will continue to work, and can get myself out of this crazy red hole again and never do this again to myself.

[Jonny123987]

I asked because gambling stopped being fun for me after a while. I thought I enjoyed it but in fact I didn’t enjoy it or find other things in life enjoyable. All I could think about was getting my money back or the next bet. I hated myself when I gambled.

[Jonny123987]

Great work JayKay! Harder done then said. Not gambling definitely feels better then gambling.

[Jonny123987]

Hey 3Racer. Hope you are still behind me on days!

[Jonny123987]

Thanks JayKay. I have very little desire to gamble these days thank god. I obviously wish I had the money I worked so hard for back but unfortunately that will never happen. For now I take it one day at a time and keep putting one foot in front of the next. Day 36 – GAME ON!

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