[Joebev37]

Hey Everyone,

I know i don’t post on here very much but i just wanted to update you all on my progress. I HAVE MADE IT 12 MONTHS GAMBLE FREE!!! Admittedly this is the second time have achieved this but I’m not going to let it slip this time!

Fortunately for me (i seem) to have learnt from prior mistakes! I am sticking with my plan no matter what!

I just want everyone to know that it CAN be done! You can turn your life around when everything seems lost! Believe me I’ve been in that situation many times when you feel like you can’t get any lower! The good thing about rock bottom? Only 1 way to go, and thats UP!

My biggest tip from my recovery so far is, BE HONEST! Not only with everyone around you but mostly YOURSELF! Admit to yourself your issues and find help!
Admitting to myself how bad my addiction really was, became the turning point!

Im so proud of myself at the moment!

Have a great december everyone 🙂

[Joebev37]

It’s been a while since I last posted on here, so thought I should put everything down in writing to remind myself of all the progress that i have made if ever times get tough again (i truly hope they wont).
I am now a little over 3 months gamble free and I feel great!

I have been to see a psychologist to try to help me understand my addiction. I have been about 5 times now. I really did find it very helpful and insightful. It was also quite hard to open up but i am so glad that i did!

My family life has become so much better and I AM HAPPY AGAIN! I am proud to be me for the first time in a very long time!

The best thing of all….

I am now honest about EVERYTHING, it makes everything so so much better and I cant hurt anyone with my lies.

Finally if anyone is reading this please take note that being gamble free is POSSIBLE! Don’t believe everything you read! You CAN DO IT!

Now all i have to do is stay focused and keep enjoying life!

Keep going everyone!

[Joebev37]

I did indeed!!

thank you steev

[Joebev37]

Today I went to my first ever GA Meeting.

I was so so nervous heading in to the meeting and sat down outside the hall trying to talk myself out of it. Trying to make myself think i don’t need this.
Thankfully I plucked up the courage to get off my butt and get into that meeting.
After I said down the lady sat down and spotted me and instantly made me feel comfortable and introduced me to some of the ore regular goers and made me feel at home.
They all had their bit to say and it actually made me feel relief that i am not the only one with a problem and some of them had real good success stories.
It was also really good to get off my chest my problems to others who understand.

I would encourage anyone reading this who is nervous or scared about going to a meeting too 100% DO IT! i feel much better today about everything after talking and getting others perspective!

Today is a Good day!

p.s 10 days gamble free!

[Joebev37]

Thanks steev,

yes online on a device with no blocks on it. Don’t know why I didn’t block it on the device! 

I feel sick to my stomach like never before. It’s just so ridiculous and painful

[Joebev37]

It’s been a long time since I’ve been on here.
It’s all my fault, so much gamble free time, fighting every urge I ever got until 2 weeks ago. I have thrown all my progress away! I have tried everything and done so well. But now it’s all gone.
My girlfriend is gone for good this time and who can blame her through the lies and false promises. And for what, a stupid idea in my head trying to win a few measley pounds! Why do I need that, I had EVERYTHING I ever dreamed of and it’s all pretty much gone,
I don’t know what to do from here to be honest, obviously I need to get back on the wagon again and try my best.
I just don’t understand why I am so stupid. What drove me to go back!

[Joebev37]

Hi everyone,

Still somehow gamble free after a tough couple of weeks! Proud of myself for pulling through unscathed but the thought does worry me!
Keeping it a day at a time and keeping away from computers as much as possible!
Must keep strong!!!

[Joebev37]

hi all,

reached a new landmark! 3 months gamble free and really hoping I can stay way this time FOREVER!
Starting to feel stronger and more in control but must not get lazy!
Hoping my girlfriend begins to trust me again as it is a strain on us (i understand why she doesn’t) but we have a plan and it seems to be working.
Next stop 6 months!!!

[Joebev37]

Thank you for the support Kathryn 🙂

[Joebev37]

Since my last post things have continued to be on an upwards curve! I have managed to start saving money again for christmas and hoping to buy my girlfriend something very special with money that I have saved! After everything she deserves it!!
I have also since started to use an app called gamban which for those who don’t know blocks all gambling sites on your devices!
its brilliant and extremely helpful to help curve the temptations!
other than that nothing much has happened.
I am still gamble free and looking forward to the next milestone!

thanks for all the positive comments!

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