[jlanuz]

Hey Maverick,

Well, Am still alive but my life really is a living hell. i stopped gambling but to tell you the truth, your problems are just starting even you stopped.unlike me, you still have a chance. yes, you used the Company’s money, you are about to closed shop, well,end it there & start over because i wished i’ve done the same. when my Company was getting in trouble due to gambling, i’ve taken loans & debts, even shark loans, i bid on projects with almost no income just to feed my addiction. in the end, it got the better of me. most of my problems comes from court cases, hiding in fear from shark loan thugs. as i said, i was a good person but gambling made me live like a crook. always in hiding, fear of being recognized, had to grow facial hairs & kept my hair long , afraid to go out & can’t find a good paying job. i’m working as a driver bodyguard for a friend right now, this is how i’m starting. my advise is don’t be neck deep in debt, it will be easier for you t start over. its easier to accept the fact you’ve thrown away your money in gambling, but throwing away other people’s money in gambling, they will not let you get away that easy. your problems are just starting but you still have the chance to get out now. hope this helps….

[jlanuz]

Thank you all for the concerns and giving me a new sense of direction. So far, i havnt been back to the casinos but I am still wasting good money on lottery hoping to hit the jackpot. I feel its my only ticket to have a life. I manged to stay hidden from those who are hunting me andvlawsuits from the debts i have incurred because of my gambling problems but i cant live and go on like this. Money is so hard to come by. Am now in my 40s and its hard to get a job. I fear everynight about what my future if i go on like this and still regretting my past. Pls help me. Still contemplating on suicide or robbing a bank and suicide through cops. Last night i put a loaded gun in my head, all i need is to pull the trigger. I just cant do it. Im still hopingmto get a second chance.

Last week i was prayed over by my Christian cousin over skype. He asked god to lighten my load. I started watching christian preachings over the net Hoping it will lighten my load. Yes. For a moment. But reality sticks in when bills comes in, then you ask god where he is. Then you realize your still alone and feels god also abandoned you. Then you forget god. So how does one mobes on after losing his life to gambling?

[jlanuz]

Thank you all for the concerns and giving me a new sense of direction. So far, i havnt been back to the casinos but I am still wasting good money on lottery hoping to hit the jackpot. I feel its my only ticket to have a life. I manged to stay hidden from those who are hunting me andvlawsuits from the debts i have incurred because of my gambling problems but i cant live and go on like this. Money is so hard to come by. Am now in my 40s and its hard to get a job. I fear everynight about what my future if i go on like this and still regretting my past. Pls help me. Still contemplating on suicide or robbing a bank and suicide through cops. Last night i put a loaded gun in my head, all i need is to pull the trigger. I just cant do it. Im still hopingmto get a second chance.

Last week i was prayed over by my Christian cousin over skype. He asked god to lighten my load. I started watching christian preachings over the net Hoping it will lighten my load. Yes. For a moment. But reality sticks in when bills comes in, then you ask god where he is. Then you realize your still alone and feels god also abandoned you. Then you forget god. So how does one mobes on after losing his life to gambling?

[jlanuz]

thank you all for your advice. A lot of good people here. No discrimination, no one to judge me here.

Ive been a good person all my life. Made a name for myself, even supported foundations and Charitable institutes. Helped a lot of people. But gambling. Changed all that. I lied, cheat and stole money and now am being judged as a low life good for nothing sob.friends & relatives wants nothing to do with me. Those i helped, i wish i dindnt helped them at all. I think There is no cure for CG exept when u ran out of resources to feed your addiction. But in the end, its already too late and your life is turned. Now i live a day at a time waiting to die. I pray every night to god to have a peaceful death. That one day i will not wake up & not knowing i died already. I feel its the only escape plan i have in dealing with the everyday cruelties of the person that ive become.. I cant even remember how to be normal. Am always afraid of my surrounding, afraid to be recognized and seen by then people i owe money.
ihavent been gambling for weeks now bec inhave said, thenonly way you can stop is if you have nothing left.

Let this be a lesson to gamblers who want to stop And still have a chance to walk away, dont be like me. Walk away. Stop.

[jlanuz]

i have hit rock bottom.I loaned money from very bad people who finances players in the casino. am now being threatened . I know they are out to get me now and i might be dead soon. no one can help me now. i want to commit suicide to spare the agony but i want to make a statement in doing it.

i want to do it inside the casino i will take them all with me to the grave. i will also hunt down the owners and operators of that god damn casino..they are to be blamed for ruining the life of so many including mine

but to be honest, these are just thoughts going thru my mind and i still hope there’s still a way out of this mess. help!

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