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Day 33 . Went to CR last night. I actually accepted a 30 day chip. I usually never take them. I guess I always feel stupid knowing I have had several 30 day gf stretches. I took it this time in the hopes that it was the last 30 day chip I ever get. Been having a few gambling thoughts/urges the last few days. I try not to give them much ammunition by immediately thinking of all the chaos one small bet leads to. I just don’t want to put myself through it anymore. I really want to see what life has to offer with substantial g free time. I will never know if I keep reliving the same pattern. It’s so simple , we only have to do one thing “don’t gamble” at the same time so hard.
jen3ParticipantThanks Berta! Love it! “Be allergic to gambling” …… Very insightful post on Murrs thread! I always knew lost money was just a consequence of gambling just never tried to figure out why I do it. Only thing I can come up with is to self destruct but no clue why….
jen3ParticipantYeah Day 14!! I just read your thread. A longtime gambler like myself. I like the advice of “thinking like a non-gambler”. We need to crush any thoughts that have to do with gambling because we do not gamble anymore… keep going strong.
jen3ParticipantI just read your thread. You are certainly not alone. I can relate on so many levels. Like you I never want to reach out for help. I like to think I can do this on my own. You are doing a Great!! This is day 32 for me. It Maybe my 30th day 32 ,who knows… It does feel different this time, I think it’s because I am not doing it “alone” I ask God on a daily basis to help me through the day and I thank him nightly for it. We are never alone. He is always with us and will help us fight our demons. All we have to do is ask. Keep doing whatever is working.
jen3ParticipantVery true Vera. It’s amazing how quickly things get better financially when we stop gambling. On the flip side, it’s baffling how quickly we can destroy our finances while gambling. Time and time again I have been living comfortably one minute and than scraping for a few bucks the next. Hopefully not this time. I could easily give in and at times it sounds so good to belly up to a slot machine or card table but that’s just it , it sounds good until I give in i
and end up as I always do .. on the chase until I am out of money or just can’t take anymore followed by the good ole gambling hangover. .. God give us the strength to stay out of the pits of hell..4 September 2019 at 11:43 pm in reply to: Compulsive gambler , chased loss got it back then lost everything again #47670jen3ParticipantI know the thoughts all too well.. “if I would of bet more” if I would of bet less” if I would of went to a different table a different machine”. “If I left when I was only out x amount or up x amount”. When the thought should be “ I should not gamble or it will turn into a shit show” Even if we manage to win and walk away it only encourages us to try it again. It all leads to pain and misery wether that day , that week or months later. It all sucks!!! Just be done! Unfortunately We can not doing a flipping thing with what we already did BUT we can have a better today & tomorrow. Money, time… all that is gone. God does not care how we ran the race, he cares more about how we finish it. Let’s finish strong!! F gambling!!!!!
jen3ParticipantThanks Murr!! I have to remind myself daily that if I stick my toe in the water I will get sucked under.
jen3ParticipantThank you Vera! I think about you everyday as wells wether I am “feeding the monster” or fighting the good fight. I know better than anyone what an evil beast this addiction is. When you are gamble free I pray God keeps it that way and when you are not I pray he delivers you/us from this addiction. Either way I think I less of you and just want the best for all of us.
jen3ParticipantDay one of month two. Moving forward I will only update my weeks vs my days as not to annoy anyone although I post the days for myself and no one else. It does help me and we should all cling to what works for us.
4 September 2019 at 1:00 pm in reply to: Compulsive gambler , chased loss got it back then lost everything again #47668jen3ParticipantYup time does heal anything. I have been in so many situations in my life when I thought there was no way out or I would never get over it. Funny thing….. I can not even remember some of them now. Just keep focused on “not feeding the monster” vs getting money back. Lean on God to get through the early days (actually all the days) he can and will help you but only if you ask him.
jen3ParticipantWay to go!!!
3 September 2019 at 1:08 pm in reply to: Compulsive gambler , chased loss got it back then lost everything again #47652jen3ParticipantHi Murr! Sorry you are going through this. I agree with Rdy. The money is gone. Let it go! Eventually it will get better but not if you keep holding on. (Uggh… Money… the root of all evil.) I also suggest getting rid of lines of credit. They are only helping you dig deeper.
jen3ParticipantDay 30. Busy long weekend with the Harley Rally in town. It was fun but glad it’s over. Looking forward to starting my next 30 days tomorrow. I am determined to keep moving in the right direction. Life is certainly not perfect but so much easier than being stuck in the hell that gambling offers.
jen3ParticipantDay 29
jen3ParticipantThanks Taz. Actually It has been pretty easy this time around but it’s still the early days. Day 28.
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