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You are doing great Kin!!
Let your baby be your strength. I remember being pregnant 13 years ago. Once my son was 6 months old. I was able to quit for 9 months. At that time I knew God blessed me with him to give me a “reason to stop”. Well I forgot that reason and after 9 months thought “I can do this again” well it’s been a hell of a ride ever since I started again. Gambling on and off for years. I am bound and determined to live the rest of my life g-free. A day at a time of corse. I will be praying that you do not make the same mistakes I have. You can do this. If not for yourself than from the baby you are caring.
Just finished reading your thread. Our story is very similar, as far as our age and the life time of gambling on and off. I remember back in college many years ago study for my exams at the dog track. If I lost a few hundred that was a lot. I don’t go to race tracks anymore that was decades ago. Now it’s casinos everything and anything. And boy do I wish when I loose i could walk away after a few hundred. Anyways congratts on your g-ftee time. Keep on fighting the good fight.
Not many gamblers admit there losses till they end up here. If everyone was winning the casinos would not be around. I have dug huge holes, dug out, dug holes , dug out what feels like most of my life. I made it for almost 6 months without gambling and life was good, but as usual I got complacent and the addiction told me it’s ok now. I have no intention of gambling but I put up every road block possible just Incase the ugly monster ever shows up again. (He always does but this time I will be ready). I stopped counting losses after 1.5 mil but I am sure it must be close to 2. We lost a lot more than money though. We lost time, health, ourselves, the list goes on and on. You can dig out of the hole and be happy again. You have to make a decision to be happy again. Ban yourself , give your money to someone you trust and go to meetings and or keep coming here. One day at a time and and with each passing day it will get better. (I seem to prove that to myself over and over) Not anymore.
Hey Mav. I do not write much however I am here often and I follow you. You are one really smart guy. You will find your way out of all this crap! Thinking and praying for you.
Hey Mickey! What’s project 60?? What ever happen to Sad? I can not find any of her threads.
I am the same way, I will not throw money away anywhere but a casino. It’s crazy!!!! I also know what it feels like to just want to die. I wish I had some words to ease what you are going threw. I don’t. However we gave enough of our money,time and ourselves this evil addiction. Ending your life would just be an easy way out and your pain may or may not go away but why hurt your family?? I promise there is a way out. It will just take some time and hard work. You made the first step by coming here. Read as much as you can and put up as many road blocks to keep you from gambling and slowly but surely things will improve. Hang in there. I will be praying for you.
I understand being afraid to tell your husband but if he battle the addiction himself he will understand better than anyone. You might just be surprised at his reaction if you tell him the truth. ??
Where do I start? First off I know exactly how you feel and I am very sorry you are going through this. I don’t understand why anyone has to struggle with this horrible addiction. I wIll give you a little history…. like everyone else on this thread I am am intelligent individual who got caught up horrible gambling addiction . I am 45 years old and have been gambling ever since I can remember. It started to get bad around your age. Here I am almost 20 years later still battling this addiction. I have no debt however I lost well over 1.7 mil., my time, my insanity. The longest I made it without gambling is 9 months. Every time I fail I get back up again brush off my knees and start over. Actually I am just coming out of the fog of my last screw up. A month ago I swore I would never gamble again and I did 5 days ago. Its almost comical what i did. I went to casino with only 2.00 in my pocket only to play my 120..00 “free slot play”. When the free money was gone I left with 720.00. Went back 3 days later to play another free slot play (only took 2.00) had 140.00 lost it. Went to car to get bank card, went home to get money, borrowed money the next day. I somehow managed to loose over 5,000. On tables, slots you name it. The point is we will never be in control, we will never win. We will get past this. The question is….. Do we want to put ourselves through this again???? I banned myself, I am going back to meetings, seeing a therapist and giving away control of my money. I just can not do this anymore. The good news for you. You are still young, you are smart and have a lot of things going for you. I promise you will feel better in time. PLease do not end up like me, and wasting years of your life. I would give anything to go back to your age and get this addiction under control and have those years back. I will be thinking and praying for you.
I am sorry. I know the feeling I made it just shy of 6 months and as usual the addiction made me think “I can control this” I am so sick of being sick. I am determined to get back up but still scarred because I always seem to re-live the same nightmare over and over again. On a positive note Great job on almost a year. Just look at it is a bump In the road. (Easy for me to say as I am overcome with sadness and regret)
I must have been right around your age when I lost around the same amount in a similar time frame. I wish I would of found my way out back than because I would of saved a lot of time, money and pain. I am now 44 and just shy of 5 months gambling free time. Life isn’t perfect but it’s so much better. I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like if I would of been able to stop sooner but I am learning to let go of the past and move forward. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you so please don’t end up like me, wishing you would of stopped at 26. Your on the right path now, (so was I at your age but I got complacent time and time again , I would quit, get help, think I could control it and end up worse off.. Year after year). Anyways I hope your story ends up different. I wish you nothing but success in recovery.
Bruce, Great! You made it through he day, you can make it through another one. Hold on to whatever works to stay gf, I believe the longer we are gf, the easier it gets. At least we can fight urges better with a clearer head. Thanks Amyyy