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Yeah! You did it IDI!! You can definitely do 41 days and just think… you will feel even better than you do now.

In case I do not get a chance before
Merry Christmas my freind! I hope you have a very Blessed New Year!!

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Doing the best we can is all we really can do, right? I am glad things are going well. I will be praying that they continue to.

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Sorry we missed each other IDI.. what you said about the with draw makes sense. Otherwise I have no reason to experience the crazy feelings , mood swings, anxiety etc.,, strange cause I have no urges (lately). Before my last relapse 35 days ago I had almost 90 (I think, I forget) and do not remember experiencing this. Oh well hopefully the craziness turns around in a day or two.

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I love your idea Vera!! Lol. You are doing Great IDI! Keep your eye on the prize….. a much better life with out the stress of gambling.

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Thanks Vera!! Not sure what is going on with me. I want to “rip heads off” the last few days. When ever I would have a gambling episode…. the days to follow would be first numb, than the tears, than determination to quit, than anger, than the fight not to gamble….. I have not gambled for over ~34 days and the last few days all the anxiety, stress and anger are overwhelming. Maybe my body is used to the cycle?? Maybe it’s the Holidays… I have no clue.. nothing stressful is going on yet I have all the symptoms, if that makes any sense at all.

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The good news is …… a New Year is right around the corner.

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Thanks Liz and IDI!! Things are better. I was in one of my “f it!” moods. I started to write about why and I stoped after writing “I am hating this day”. I forgot to come back and finish and now I can not even remember why. Lol I had lots of thoughts of gambling the past few days but I just do not want to wreck yet another Christmas/New Year. I am not worried about ruining the holidays financially because everything is bought and paid for but I want to be fully present and not just going through the motions…..

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Feel better. I have not been sick in many years. (Other than the self induced flu). Knock on wood.

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I hear ya! Unexpected bills or expenses have always been a trigger for me. Crazy how many times I lost thousands trying to get money to cover whatever it was and than when I would add, subtract, add, subtract, blah blah blah after the loss it would turn out that I only needed some of my loss back to cover everything. Uggh today I lost ~60.00 not gambling just lost it and my mind went right to “just go win it and forget about it. “. We know how well that works. In any case I hope it works out. It will, just don’t try and win to cover.

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Hating this day!!!

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Great talking to you too IDI!

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Hope today is a better day!

[jen3]

Thanks IDI! I agree “we have to do what works for us” for example GA meetings have helped several but never worked for me. They made me want to gamble. Like diets, we all have different body types . What works for one person might not work for another. … I like suggestions and advise But I absolutely hate when something works for someone and they insist that “thier way” is the only way to be successful.

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Now I must get this book. Lol. The one I was talking about is “ “Beyond Addictions by Jeff Rudd”. I wish I could send you a copy. You can find it on Amazon.

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Someone please tell me how the heck to get into group. I finally figured out the time thing…… BUT still no clue how to join.

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