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Ok. Hopefully we can connect. In the meantime you should try still try to get approved by Amazon and or Overstock. Amazon has zero percent Intrest for 6 months. Overstock for 12. If you have never had either, it’s pretty easy to get credit with both regardless of your credit. (Otherwise do you know someone who has Amazon account that could help?) As CGs we have always managed to get out of binds. We can certainly figure out a way to get your tires. :). I know there are other things But let’s start here.
jen3ParticipantHopefully we can meet up in group and chat more.. Not sure if there is a private way to message someone here?? Do all 4 tires need to be replaced?? When it is time where do u plan to get them from?? Maybe you could finance through tire place?? Many places offer zero interest if paid with in 6-12 months. Or do you have someone to put them on for you if they were ordered on line?? That could save you money.
jen3ParticipantThat’s what this darn addiction does. I can not tell you how many times I have thought “I will just win the money to cover such and such” somedtimes I did, sometimes I did not,, all times ended in disaster because I either ended up chasing a lot or being encouraged to go back and get more. I wish I could help with the stress… Can I ask what part of the world you live in?? Any chance you live in US?? The only reason I ask I might have ideas for you.
jen3ParticipantI know the feeling, oh too well. I believe we will be on a roller coaster of emotions until we get some solid gf time behind us. Everything will work out with time. Do not worry about the future. Just get through today. Lean into your higher power. Trust that everything can and will work out.
jen3ParticipantIn case I do not run into you today, best of luck tomorrow! I feel it’s yours and will be praying for you… Remember… that no matter what happens the best is yet to come.
jen3ParticipantThe start of day one, week two. What a roller coaster. I am determined to do whatever it takes to keep myself from gambling yet it’s so hard to imagine a life without it. My brain references the few good things yet deep down inside I know thier are no good things when it comes to gambling, at least not for someone who has no control over it. Those days ended many years ago. I have to slow down take it a day at a time and not get so ahead of myself. I hate that this addiction has consumed so much of my life. I just hate it.
jen3ParticipantI am glad you got some sleep and feel a little better today. I hope you read the book. Incase you do not remember, it is Beyond Addictions by Jeff Rudd. I never read and when I picked it up I could not put it down. I read from cover to cover in a few days. It helped tremendously as I did not gamble for at least 5 months after I read. My problem is I always feel better, get complacent and get alway from what works for me. I am committed to staying active in some type of recovery. The better I feel, the more I will commit. Complacency has kicked my butt way too many times. I wish you well and I hope things work out for the best.
jen3ParticipantHey Monica! Sorry I could not say goodbye in chat yesterday. My darn phone went dead right as I was posting. Thanks for your post on my thread. It’s great to hear you are looking into CR.. it really is a great program. You would also have lot to offer with your story.. I have watched a lot of life’s change with CR. My problem is I never stay committed.. Not this time, this time when things get even better, I will work even harder.
jen3ParticipantHi Liz! Sorry you are feeling this way. It’s easy for me to say but try to focus on what’s good in your life and not what is bad. The enemy wants you to get caught up in negative thoughts so they send you “running back for cover” in adiction. (And as you know we always come back more beat up than the time before). You are doing well and he certainly does not want that. He wants you to think your higher power is not listening and does not care. He does. He loves you and wants what is best for you. Trust him. Do not give up. A better life is right around the corner. Hang in thier my freind. Things can and will get better. You’re in my prayers.
jen3ParticipantHey Nick! I understand your frustration. Years ago this site was much more active now it’s hit or miss. I guess we get out what we put in. Well, not really because I check in several times a day and give feedback and post yet I seldom get any response wether I am doing good or bad. In any case we can not rely on this site alone. Not sure do you go to any recovery groups outside of this site?? You might want to try if your not……. You were doing Great! I am sorry about your relapse! I know first hand how much they suck!! Hell this addiction sucks period… Do not let a set back cause any more pain. You can and will get back to the good place you were in. I know you can do it. Best to you.
jen3ParticipantSo glad that needing tires did not send you off to the devils den. You are doing great.. I wish you lived near by, you could watch our psycho dog while we are away. Than again he might make you never want to pet sit again. Keep fighting the good fight!
jen3ParticipantI am sorry you feel this way Sherrie. I can relate as I have felt there’s no way out several times in my life.. I hope you get the strength to tell us what’s going on and maybe we can give you some advice. In the meantime hang in there. I promise you things can and will get better.
jen3ParticipantToday wraps up a gamble free week.. Last week at this time I was suffering the good ole gambling hang over.. the racing thoughts are what I like best. NOT!! Things do tend to get better quickly. With that said, I never want to go back to that dark place. If I do… one of these times things will not get better. Gambling took enough from me… no more. I will stay committed to the plan I have in place. It works. It’s when I get complacent that I return to the same old s..t. Still very impatient and can’t wait to see what 2019 brings.. I look forward to our vacation at the end of March.. Already paid for. We booked over a month ago. I have to laugh I spendt hours and hours searching on line to save 400.00 yet I lost over 15 times with my last two relapses combined. Crap we could of went around the world several times over with the money I have blew over the years. Oh well. I am still grateful that we are able to go on our yearly trip. I am grateful to have a roof over my head, food in the fridge, a car in the driveway, a good job, a great guy , an Awsome son, recovery support, freinships, friendships from a far, (I have grown to genuily care about so many of you on this site who are on the same journey) the determaination to try to remain gamble free. Most of all I am greatful to God for everything, he continues to show up in my life even when I do not deserve it.
jen3ParticipantHi acgr!! The good news….. you are young and have your whole life ahead of you. I have been gambling my whole life. I realized I had a problem in my twenty’s. However back than I thought it was a financial problem. I am now 47. I can’t go back in time. I wish I could. I can only work in today. However I hope you do not throw your life away like I did. I have failed so many times that I feel silly giving any advice BUT try and put as much as you did into gambling into recovery. There is one thing I know for sure…… the longer we continue to gamble, the worse it gets. As I said you are young. I wish you well. You can still have an incredible gf adult life. Go for it.
jen3ParticipantIDI.. Thank you for the post on my thread. I responded and than started thinking about something. If I recall your family struggles with gambling too?? There is absolutely nothing wrong with refusing to go to casinos when you are back home. Maybe in the future when your mom and whoever sees your life improving from not gambling she/they will want the same. .. who knows, maybe that will never happen BUT either way you need to focus on you and not pleasing or fitting in with them. Always remember …Satan knows your weakness and next time you are home he will try to use your family to lure you in. Hopefully because of the memory of the last time you will be ready to say “not today” On another note I am curious about the interview?? You would think I am the one who had the interviewed and is waiting to hear back.. lol
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