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Keep trying Faye. You are in my prayers. We can do this.

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I do know there are no time machines and as I said even if there were I doub’t I would of done anything different. Of course I have a lot of regrets but who doesn’t?? I think we are all on a journey and we are right where we are supposed to be. I also believe that God does not care so much about how “we ran the race” but more about how we finish. We can’t go back but we can use our past mistakes to keep us from making them again. None of us want to live through another gambling hangover. Temporary pleasures bring long term consequences. I understand that being ill is not Gods plan for us, however I asked him to intervene and I truly believe that he did by letting me get sick and I am greatful. To each it’s own. 

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Vera! It’s a good thing we don’t live together. I too am very difficult to live with. We might kill each other. No way in hell would I ever want to live with me. 🙂

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Hi Sherrie! Thanks for checking on me. I have been following your thread but too sick to post. I have not been sick in many years unless it’s self induced. (Too much to drink) Not sure what’s going on. I went out Friday and came home sick as a dog. Throwing up etc. Felt better Sunday only to feel like crap again yesterday and today. Who knows maybe it’s Gods way of helping me not want to go on a mini vacation with my girlfriend. We were supposed to leave Thur and come home Mon. I just know the drinking will turn into gambling and the gambling will turn into a miserable trip. I guess I just get mad that I can not do things like a “normal” person. It’s strange because deep down I really do not want to go BUT I keep telling myself I want to go if that makes any sense. I just want ojump in a time machine and go back 20-25 years. Than again, would I do anything diffrent??

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Thanks Liz! I am not going to. Mostley because I feel too run down to do much of anything.

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Not to mention I can go on a 5 day trip, leaving on Thursday and every bit of me wants to go. I might as well jump in an alligator filled swamp.

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I am so sorry Liz!! This addiction absolutely sucks the life out of us. I have been hanging on the ledge myself. The only thing that has stoped me is being sick and than the wether and Now I am busy with work and every bit of me wants to throw my hands up in the air and give in. Just sucks!!

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Thinking of you. I hope you are ok??

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You disappeared. I hope your ok and doing well. Please keep us posted.

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Great to hear Johnny! I remember you. I still struggle. I long to say I have a year or two gamble free behind me. Heck at this point I would be happy with several months. The only positive is I never give up giving up.

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Hi Liz! Not sure what happened in chat. I was thrown out and when I got back in you were gone. It was nice chatting. Sorry for the family drama. Remember she is an adult and you have your own struggles to deal with. I know it’s easier said than done but try to put yourself first. Work on you. I know how easy it is to just want to go gamble to relieve some stress. Try and remember that only makes things much worse. Take care. Thinking and praying for you.

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I am relieved for you….

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Good for you Sherrie! He might be pissed now but he will get over it and you will be in such a better position. Just my two sense.

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Maybe he kind of already knows??

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Years ago I had the thoughts of winning big.. Now it’s just wanting to gamble to escape. It makes me sick to pay debt everytime I get paid, beside my living expense I could be saving so much money. I just have to keep looking ahead and thinking of how it will feel to be debt free. Lord knows I have dug in and dug out enough times to make ones head spin. .. I have to keep my eye on the prize…. not sure what that is but there is only one way to find out and that is to do whatever it takes to remain gamble free…. In the end gambling makes everything just suck!!

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