[JayKay82]

Hi Jonny. Glad to see you are doing so well, hard not to dwell on the stupid stuff, but i am grateful sometimes when i think about the money i lost and it serves as a good reminder to stay away from gambling. Id be lying if i said i never had a thought of gambling ever again….But i just wont gamble and that is it.

[JayKay82]

It is funny how you are obsessed with sports and results when you gamble. I still follow quite a bit of sport, but sometimes i hear results or big tournaments going on and i think to myself, wow i didnt even know that was happening. Lucky i suppose i can still be involved in following my team and not have the urge to gamble. Gambling is such an odd obsession, takes everything we love and slowly destroys it. I hope all the compulsive gamblers out there, at some point, realise how good life can be without gambling and that it is enough to keep them on the straight and narrow.

[JayKay82]

Thanks Charles.

As it happens it doesn’t give me much satisfaction to be gamble free. Not that i am ungrateful, its just that i wish i could undo all the stupid stuff i have done. I know its not the way to look at my current situation, but thats the way i feel about it. Believe me i am done with gambling, i know how the guilt, hiding and stress impacted me before, and i am grateful that i have come so far.

This sounds like a negative post, its not supposed to be. Just putting words down on paper. Very happy to be 20 weeks in no doubt.

[JayKay82]

Doing my best to update this. Thought and forgot a few times today. Being busy at work mostly to blame, then again I always was busy and managed to fit in a good amount of gambling. Anyway I am certain that it is in the past, I do believe I can never gamble again. To think anything else would be very foolish.

[JayKay82]

Hi There, Thanks for your post on my thread. I believe we have to be accountable for our actions, i also believe you can do it yourself, but most people need help. One piece of good news for you is that the longer you stay away the easier it gets. We all loved to gamble at one time or another but you must admit you are a CG and can never gamble again. Its the only way to beat it ! Best of luck, use the site when you feel like gambling. Read the posts instead of gambling. Remember how gambling makes everything worse, not better and your life will turn around for the better

[JayKay82]

Keep up the good work Jonny. Even if life is hard at times, gambling only makes it worse. Best of luck, hope your back gets better soon.

[JayKay82]

Thanks for your post FlyingDutchman. Half the reason for my journal is to keep a check on myself, or to keep myself in check. Not to loose sight of where i have come from or to where i am going. If i could only inspire one other person to quit for life. It would be worth it.

[JayKay82]

Last week was maybe a little harder than i had expected. Thought of betting circled my brain momentarily, i am grateful however that i don’t take those thoughts seriously anymore. If i have learnt anything it is that i cannot go down that road again ( i wish someone would tell my subconscious). Apart from work stresses and a few bumps on the road i am in a good place.

[JayKay82]

Week 17 and counting. Dont have much time for an update, getting twitchy with talk of betting in the office over cheltenham. But its not effected me too much. Thoughts of clearing debts enter my head, but i know ill just dig a bigger hole for myself. So no gambling today, or for the future.

[JayKay82]

Thomas thanks for your post. Im slow getting around to posts these days. Over worked and underpaid, same as the rest of the world. Anyway, i know i have said this before, but i dont even know how i managed to spend so much time throwing my money away ? Keeping busy is not a long term answer, but i have realised a while back that will power is the only way to beat this.

[JayKay82]

Good going Jonny. Keep it up, i know from my own experience i cant ever gamble again, stay alert mate and dont drop your guard, even when you think the urge is dead and buried.

[JayKay82]

Hi Kevin,

I have been on this site for many weeks now, one thing is for certain, you can quit and stay away for good. I am currently in the situation where i though i would never quit, but here i am 4months later, NOT GAMBLING. One truth and piece of advice i can give you, you have to do it yourself. There is no magic quick fix, you just have to say, no i am not gambling today. Easier said than done, give it time and effort and you will see it pays off very quickly.

PS You have to hit rock bottom to come back up, i wish you the best on your recovery.

[JayKay82]

15 weeks gamble free. Still wish i had never gone down that road. However at lease im heading in the right direction now. Thanks for the comments Charles & Vera.

[JayKay82]

Car broke down yesterday. Times like this that i am grateful im not gambling anymore. Surprise expensive costs would have sent me into a frenzy of panic a few months ago, where’s the money going to come from ? All the while throwing my wages away. Sometimes in my sober state i can hardly believe what i used to put mysefl through.

[JayKay82]

So unbelievably busy at work. I nearly forgot to post. Anyway 14 weeks gamble free. Even if i had time i have no interest. When i was in a bad way, for gambling, i consumed my every thought and action. I wonder now how i had time for life at all.

Anyway onward and upward.

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