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6 months in. Everybody has the ability to do it.

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Hi Justletmeripon,

Much like you i tried to stay away a good few times. Self excluding myself from websites, leaving my cards at home, so on and so forth. You are going through all the same emotions as me 6 months ago, i hated myself for how much i had set myself back in life, after-all stuff like this doesn’t happen to me .. right ? Anyway, i dont use any other support network ohter than this website and im 6 months without a bet, have a little bit of savings and next month will be debt free. There is a resolution at the end of all this, venting is good, writing down your thoughts does help. Hopefully things will get much better very quickly for you as thy have for me.

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Today marks 25 gamble free weeks. Next week will be 26, which is 6 months. Happy with that, noting is impossible, 6 months ago i thought it was impossible to get here.

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Thanks for the comment Geordie.

So i had a talk with my Fiance last night. We decided to sit down and look at finances for saving for our wedding. We decided we should clear the remainder of the credit card debt and start putting the repayments from each month into savings. It is a relief to finally be debt free, i also know it is like having a weight lifted off me, which is a dangerous time.

I know my subconcious will tell me that i am back to square one and i wont be able to do as much damage as previous, sure i can handle it and its great fun. Whats the harm in a little bet anyway, sure ill prob make even more money this time. What a load of b.s. I know what will happen, i know it is a place i never want to go back to again. Rock bottom is not an option ever again.

But i am learning and have learnt to deal with the “urges”. There is no way i am going to entertain gambling ever again. I never want to break her trust again, i never want to gamble again. I am lucky, gambling no longer defines me, it is still all around but i will not let it break me again.

Any way to end on a positive note, by the end of the month i will be debt free and heading in the right direction.

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Hi Laura, so sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. I know you know this already, but things do get a lot better very quickly when we stay away from gambling. Believe and know they will get better and you will be in a good place again.

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Still going, an i intend to keep it that way. Not to say its no problem, but when you have a bumpy week, just say no and don’t gamble. Simple as that…. in truth i know its not as simple as that, but that is what it takes. Just say no, im not gambling today. Hope that everybody who is trying to quit can find the will to stay away.

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Hi Sharins,

Just stopping in to say hope all is well and you are still on the right path !

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Hi Craic, Thanks for your comments on my thread. Seems like you are doing well. Different things work for different people, but you have to trust yourself first. i.e. trust that you can stay away. There are many many people that have left this addiction firmly behind them and never looked back. You can too !

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Hi Sharins, thanks for your comments on my thread, it means a lot. Hope u are still keeping away from the slots. Glad to hear you are on the right track now, you have made some amazing changes very quiclky already. Keep it up, and as you said the website is a great tool for knowledge and dealing with the addiction.

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23 Weeks done. I know for sure i will never go back to where i was. I had a thought during the week, oh what if i just stuck a small bet on and won a few hundred. Maybe that would take some of the debt or i could take my fiance out for dinner.

1. Cannot understand why my brain is tell me that.
2. It is the most ridiculous though i have ever heard of.

I know i cant gamble, my brain knows i cant gamble, why the hell is this stupid thought still stuck in my head ?

Suppose thats why its an addiction, we all have to realise that we cant just keep letting that thought control us. Say no and move on with your day. Easier said than done i know..

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Thanks to everybody for the support. I suppose i am guilty at time of reading other peoples threads and not posting. Selfish at times and focusing on my own recovery. Hopefully my thread would inspire someone else to quit for good !

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Thanks for the comments Micky. The reality to getting to 22 weeks, and beyond, is not gambling. No matter how much i think i can control it the “next time”, i know for certain i am only fooling myself. Debt follows me around like everybody else as a sore reminder of wrong choices, and will do for the next few years but we have to deal with it and not dwell on it !

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Thanks for the comments Vera. Out the other side of another week ! The last 2 were strangely difficult, just have to deal with it I suppose and come out the other side. What’s the alternative anyway, gambling, secrets, anxiety, pure hello. Not this time !

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Still gamble free. I have had a hard 2 weeks for some reason. But i am not gambling , been tempted but i know i cant. I think i am at the stage where my brain deceives me into thinking i can do it for fun and control it. Ha, not the case. If i can get past this i think things will get progressively better.

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Thanks for the advise Vera. Hard not to let regret have some part in our thoughts, when the debt follows us around as a reminder. Anyway bar a few tough times i am still gamble free and tomorrow is week 21.

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