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I know why I keep my journal going. But I wonder if there is a benefit anymore or if I could keep going in the right direction solo. Well see I suppose at some stage.

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Week 33 done.

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Hi Kathryn,

Thanks for your comment. I hope all is good at your end and your family all doing well. Especially the new arrival !.

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Work life gets harder, staying away from gambling gets easier. I wont ever gamble again, if i have any control whatsoever over it. But in a short space of time, you do forget how addictive and emotionally crippling gambling can be.

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Hi Vera, thanks for checking in. Yes she knows, it was a joint decision to pay off the debt. Im not saying i am any different than anyone else who has fallen into the gambling trap, but i am choosing not to gamble. It is still in the back of my mind, maybe always will be, but i will continue to choose not to gamble indefinitely.

Thanks for the wise words.

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Nearly 8 months in now. Today i paid the last of my gambling associated debt, on my credit card. No sense of relief really, but you cant have everything, can you ! At least i’m out the other side, maybe not wiser but definitely less foolish…..

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I would be lying if i said it was easy. But it is very possible. This whole time i have been in control of my own finances, i do often think about gambling when my favourite sports are on, but i never act. Easier said than done i know, especially for people who cant break the cycle.

Much like everyone who uses this site as an outlet, i am grateful to have the facility and appreciate the time and work people put in to it.

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Hi there,

Been on this site for roughly 7 months, initially i did relapse after the first week, but for the last 30 weeks i have been gamble free. You can do it, use all the tools on the website. Re-read your old posts and very quickly life will start to get better. Not sure if any of this helps, but some times its nice to know people care and are wishing you the best.

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Well done Jonny. I think we are somewhere on the same timeline in recovery. I am glad to hear you are doing so well. Like me you know you can never look back. Anyway, congrads on your progress, and i do believe things get easier every bump you pass.

Take care

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Hi Paul,

Just wanted to drop you a quick note.
Glad to hear you are on the right track. you have come a long way since i first started reading your thread. Keep it up!

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What keeps me from gambling ?

1. I am an honest person and i don’t want to lie on my thread. There is no point in gambling and lying about it ?
2. I really don’t want to deceive my Fiance into thinking im not gambling, if i am.

I wish i had never won any money gambling, when finances are low, the answer is not gambling.

Week 30 gambling free fast approaching.

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I wonder if i was more addicted to easy money more than the act of gambling itself ? Not sure.

Ha, “easy money” what a joke, all i ever got from ghambling was debt, stress, anxiety …. the list goes on.

Anyway, Another week down, another notch on the learning curve.

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Another week down. Find myself wondering if i will have to write in this journal for ever more ! Who knows but at least for now it keeps me on the straight and narrow.

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Over the 6 months mark now. Id be lying if i said it was easy or i never had a thought of gambling. But when you focus your energy on other things you have no time for gambling, funny the way that swings around !

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Thanks Vera and Jon, hope you are both doing well also. Busy life for me leaves little time for devious thoughts of gambling. Hope you are both in the same boat ! Thanks again got the support.

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