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Thanks for stopping in again IDI. Just another week down thats all.

All good over here, hope you are keeping well !

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Another one bites the dust….

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Thanks for stopping in IDI, Jappy and Johnny B, Its always nice to know others are on the journey with you.

Anyway, week 64 down. For me it was always online betting. This is good and bad in some ways, in one way it is always accessible, at the drop of a hat i have felt the need and found myself registering and signing up for new accounts, of course having closed multiple ones in disgust.

With online gambling you must take the first steps towards the “investment”. You must take out your card, fill in the online forms and make a deposit. I make this three steps before the madness begins.

So why take that first step ? Instead, think about that sick feeling you get when you hit rock bottom and ask yourself. Is it worth it to go through all that again ? The answer is a resounding NO !

Anyway, food for thought and maybe someone can use this thought process, no matter their vice.

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Interesting week last week. I had a lot of urges to gamble. I know the root of the problem though.

Stress at work makes me think how easily i could win money at times, thousands in the space of a few days. On the other hand it never enters my head that at one stage in 2014 i had 50 in my account, no social and work had just dried up. Luckly i had just paid the rent, but i never foresaw that my work would be cutting me loose. The stress, good lord its not worth it.

Similarily at home, life is good, very good in fact. But at times you do think if i had more money i would nt still be living in a one bed flat paying another mans mortgage. I know ill start gambling again, SURE WHATS THE HARM. Sure this time im going to make my millions….. FARCE.

Anyway, staying away from gambling is not easy (some of the time) but it is very possible.

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Well done IDI, i hope you can continue the trend. (and thanks for stopping in on my thread)

I remember talking to a CG who is now a Councillor a few years back, and the one point he made was that when he quit gambling he now had money to spend on himself and his family. Its a nice feeling that you can have enough money to enjoy the fruits of hard labour instead of mindlessly throwing it away. Glad to hear you are doing well, stay positive and well done !

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Thanks for stopping in again IDI, as i say, i know that all the barriers in the world wouldnt stop me if i wanted to gamble. The only person who could stop me, is me. I suppose i am lucky in some ways, while i ran down my wage every month and ran up my credit card bill, i never stole, i never missed a bill, never missed rent and always made sure i had enough money for food for the month. I like to think that gave me some control in the madness, and that is also probably why i have kept control of all my finances and am still gamble free. Thats not to say that i dont think about it, i just choose not to act.

Anyway, thanks for stopping in.

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Thanks for stopping in Semaj & laura, i hope you are both doing very well on your recovery.

Week 62 down, nothing much to report , just wishing everyone well on their journeys.

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Another week down. I am going to say something conversational now….. And you see it is only directed at me, it is not for everybody and it is not directed at anybody but myself. Anyway, i dont believe in blocks, triggers, urges or any of the mechanisms thats lead us to gamble, i only believe in the power of our own will to say no and the determination we must have to say no until the feeling has passed. I say this as a person who knows that even with every block in place i could still find a way to gamble, luckily for me i never stole or missed a bill but i was down to the wire on more than one occasion.

I just want whoever is reading to find the strenght to say no and i feel sad (and sometimes angry) when i hear people putting the blocks in place and still reverting to old habits.

Anyway, heres hoping i havnt offended anyone, just my weekly post and some thoughts running through my head.

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Hello I-did-it. Thanks for reading through, all that i would hope is that i could inspire people to quit by showing them it is possible with motivation and discipline. Easier said than done i would say. Anyway i hope you break the cycle and trust that you learn to never look back once you do.

take care, and most of all, persevere !

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Busy busy. Nothing else to report.

Thanks for stopping in last week Vera and Kathryn, hope you are both well.

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Laura, Kathryn,

Thanks for your words of wisdom and taking the time to write here., hope you are both keeping well.

Reading through some of the posts on other threads and i had a flashback to times when i was on auto pilot flinging money at my online accounts. Crazy addiction, all i can say is WOW, what madness.

Anyway i just don’t entertain those thoughts anymore, gambling doesn’t feature in my day or my thoughts most of the time. If it does it is just a passing thought that i leave slip by.

Hope the rest of you people struggling to break the cycle can just say no and ignore the urge and get your lives back on track.

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Hi Kathryn,

Thanks for checking in. Hope you are well. Yes, nice long break and very much gamble free. To be honest i don’t even think about gambling until someone brings it up in conversation or i make my weekly update.

I havnt been able to update much, not that i am that active on the website. Spent quite a lot of time on the road travelling to see different people.

I hope you too had a good break for Xmas. and wish you all the best for the new year.

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Thanks for stopping by Kathryn.. hope you are enjoying your Xmas.

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Another week down.

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Thanks Kathryn and Laura, its always nice to have people leave a note. I’m not very good at contributing, but i do appreciate it and i suppose selfishly i am only looking after my own problems for now ! I don’t want to give this addiction any more time than it has already taken from me, and to be honest it doesn’t really feature in my life anymore.

I know, alarm bells, stay aware and vigilant…. etc. etc. But the truth is i only thing about it on my weekly post. Anyway, best of luck to everyone, and stay gamble free. !

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