Hi, My story is similar to yours. Addicted to the rush of winning and even when I have won big its not the money that the excitement comes from.
I stopped for about 8 months, I am a business owner and have tied funds away however I need a bank account for expenses etc.. Horse racing is the killer for me and I dont bet on anything else or gamble on any casino type games.
The big meetings come around and my brain teases me, I dont know how I can get out of this, its a life wrecker, a demon in your head, would love to hear some things that might help.