I’ve been battling this for a long time. I currently have my pay cheques deposited with a family member who sends me enough money for food and gas while using the rest to pay my bills.
Because I don’t have access to many funds I will find myself pawning belongings, borrowing money, etc to fund gambling. Even though I understand the result, I guess my brain still tells me it’s a good idea.
I heard a good quote yesterday that said “show me where you spend your time and money and I’ll show you your priorities. ”
This has resonated with me because it makes plenty of sense and puts ownership and accountability back with me.
I have a really hard time having money but I also struggle not having access. I don’t know if it’s a pride thing, a power thing, or what. Anytime I get ahead I shoot myself in the foot like I’m constantly punishing myself.
