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  • in reply to: December Pledge #27651
    icandothis
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    I have been going along pretty well lately. Then, today, I paid some bills. The damage from my September craziness still there online. The shame and guilt comes flooding back. Along with the desire to gamble. I took out of our savings. Always there to see because there is no more to take out and we never put anything back in. I wish I hadn’t done it. Can’t believe I did, even now. How long will the past haunt me?
    That is why I came on this thread. I didn’t gamble today. I have had such big urges. I have been thinking about gambling tomorrow. I can give lots of reasons why I want to. But, here I am pledging not to gamble tomorrow. For now that is all I can do.

    in reply to: My Journal: kin #14236
    icandothis
    Participant

    Sending prayers your way, kin. Good for you that you came back to post. I feel your pain. But you can begin again. Today can be the first day of the rest of your life. A life without gambling and alcohol.

    in reply to: A better life right now #27025
    icandothis
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    God works in mysterious ways, Kpat! I can so relate to what you said about wanting to keep gambling, but not wanting the consequences of losing. Like you, I feel like I really can’t handle the consequences anymore. Not just of losing, but of the whole thing. I appreciate your honesty, as I have really been struggling today.

    in reply to: A better life right now #27018
    icandothis
    Participant

    Hi Kpat, I just know you will have a wonderful day with your family finding the perfect Christmas tree for this very special holiday season.
    It’s amazing how much pain we allow ourselves to go through before we say enough is enough. I remember screaming and pounding the counters all by myself at our trailer. I couldn’t believe the sounds that were coming out of my mouth. I sounded like a wounded animal. At the time I thought, I want to remember this because it will help me to never gamble again. But I gambled again, and again, and again!
    I pray this is it for us, Kpat. I am glad you have barriers in place and are free to enjoy this blessed season with your family!

    in reply to: Feeling hopeful #16018
    icandothis
    Participant

    You handled that situation with your mom very well. Have a great trip and let us know how it went when you get back.

    icandothis
    Participant

    Sounds like a good plan for the Christmas bash! Enjoy!
    Also sounds like you are doing well. You should be very proud of yourself. Well done!

    in reply to: What I like about recovery is… #27662
    icandothis
    Participant

    I have cash in my wallet. Not too much, but some. I remember after gambling not even having any change. Completely empty. My husband and I would be out and I would be thinking, “Please don’t ask me if I have any cash!” Of course, he always would ask me. I hated saying no, especially since we both knew I had just been to the ATM before I gambled and then again during. The result…left again with no cash! If by some miracle, I had cash I would resent handing it over because it meant less cash to spend on my next trip to the casino.
    Now I don’t mind handing over cash when he asks, kind of makes me proud, although I still find it annoying that he NEVER has any cash!

    in reply to: Recovery Road… #9818
    icandothis
    Participant

    I think it is time for me to pick up my mat and walk!

    in reply to: 7 Cardinal Rules in Life #7694
    icandothis
    Participant

    Ken, I just realized that you were posting on this thread. I just want to let you know how sorry I am for your loss and all the pain you must be going through. I don’t have the time to read what you have posted at this time, but I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and sending prayers your way.
    Maybe you could start a new thread on Journal.

    in reply to: 7 кардинальных правил жизни #130923
    icandothis
    Participant

    Кен, я только что понял, что вы пишете в этой теме. Я просто хочу, чтобы вы знали, как я сожалею о вашей потере и всей боли, которую вы, должно быть, переживаете. У меня нет времени читать то, что вы опубликовали в это время, но я просто хотел сообщить вам, что я думаю о вас и отправляю молитвы в вашу сторону. Может быть, вы могли бы начать новую тему в Журнале.

    in reply to: The Last Chance #26753
    icandothis
    Participant

    Sending my thoughts and prayers along with everyone else.

    in reply to: November Pledge #27308
    icandothis
    Participant

    Last day of November, and I will not gamble today. I hope everyone enjoys your Sunday gamble free!

    in reply to: On the road to ruin #27384
    icandothis
    Participant

    Hi Jansdad, I have noticed that you haven’t posted in a while. I hope you continue to post and use this site. You don’t have to stay on the Road to Ruin. It’s never too late to make a U-turn and get on the Road to Recovery instead. I think you will find it a better route to take, and we will all be here for you each step of the way!

    in reply to: I’m addicted to losing #27585
    icandothis
    Participant

    Thinking of you today, RayJohn. I know you can get through today without gambling. Focus on today. Don’t focus on the past or worry about the future. Post as often as you need to. I know you can do this. We all can. We have to make a decision once and for all and then do whatever it takes each and every day to stick to that decision. It’s simple, but not easy…not easy at all. Today is all that matters!

    in reply to: A better life right now #26995
    icandothis
    Participant

    Happy Thanksgiving to you, too, Kpat. Oh, those, bright lights are so alluring. I have to admit. Maybe this weekend, you can decorate your house. Add a few extra strands of lights, if its in the budget. Or, find a local event that has lots of decorations. We have a Christmas light parade, lights at the Zoo, Festival of trees, even our local shopping mall has some nice decorations. We used to pick a night and wake our kids up and in their pajamas, we would drive through town looking at the decorated houses. Lots of options this time of year to get our fix of bright lights. We’ll get through this Holiday Season without gambling and with, or without all the shimmer and glimmer, we will be free to enjoy the true meaning of Christmas.

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