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  • in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19646
    icandothis
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    Bettie,  I will be thinking about you tomorrow.  Sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23635
    icandothis
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    Hi Kathryn,  I just finished posting to Uncontrolled.  Thinking of his big splurge going to NYC.  I thought of you, too.  And now I am dreaming this morning, Kathryn.  Dreaming of being debt free…dreaming of saving money for a vacation.  Thinking of the times my husband and I have splurged on family vacations in the past without one regret.  Just dreaming of the day when we can once again take our money and splurge (kind of liking that word)  on something wonderful!
    Congratulations, Kathryn, and thank you! 

    in reply to: Day Two is Still a Day Away #21626
    icandothis
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    Hi Larry, just wanted to thank you for your thoughtful posts on my thread and also RG’s.  Closing my thread and ending it with words I don’t really believe was impulsive and not one of my shining moments.  Of course, I know my prayers and those of others, who so generously offer theirs, are not wasted.  My statement…Don’t waste your prayers..God has better things to do..came from my place of self-loathing and unworthiness.  Self-loathing is a heavy load to carry, but I intend to lighten it one gamble-free day at a time.  The prayers and support given to me on this site help to lighten the load, too. 
    Thank you, also, for the link to a guide for working the steps.  I think it will be very helpful to me, as I like to see things in writing.  Honestly, until last weekend, I hadn’t really paid much attention to the 12 steps or saw a reason to work them.  After my experience with Steps 1 and 3, I see I was wrong, and I am eager to work through the guide.  Willingness.  Although, what happened to me was a revelation.  Steps 1 and 3 occuring simultaneously, but the experience had nothing to do with reading or working the steps.  Perhaps, being in a place of hopelessness led to the realization of my own powerlessness, which led to just the right prayer..that of complete surrender.  A release followed by relief.  I was just so tired of that struggle you described in my thread.  I thought I might just try giving the whole thing up.  Let go and let God?  I think so.  Anyway, I am still processing a lot of this.  But, I kind of feel like I found the Golden Ticket, and I am eager to use it in solving all my problems!  I am so grateful to you, Larry.

    in reply to: I need prayers #11889
    icandothis
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    Thank you Carole, Neva, Vera,  Carole, My daughter came to dinner recently.  I told her that next concert, I would be more prepared.  She told me that there wouldn’t be another concert. Can’t say my heart is broken.  Maybe we can go shopping or out to lunch.  Anything but another concert!  Neva, I am not sure where to go from here on this project of mine.  I am going to try to focus more this next week and figure out where to go from here.  I did buy Omega 3 *****.  Vera, so glad to see you posting.  I am not sure where all this cleaning out and sorting is coming from.  It’s like i’m nesting, but there is no baby coming.  At least I am 99.9999 percent sure there is no baby coming! lol 

    in reply to: I need prayers #11885
    icandothis
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    Hubby grilling steaks…check
    Spinach Casserole, baked potatoes…check 
    Listening to Dixie Chicks…check
    Snow storm brewing..check
    Happiness?…I’m thinking…check!
     — 2/8/2013 12:51:51 AM: post edited by icandothis.

    in reply to: I need prayers #11884
    icandothis
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    Happiness Project Update:  January..was able to excerise at least 4 days a week and continuing it into February.  Also, seemed to be on an organization frenzie…cleaned out my ******, dresser, refrigerator, kitchen cabinets, 1/2 of the basement (still A work in progress)  February..what resolutions to make?  Thought about Love as the theme.  Ended up thinking that the most important person to love is myself….so I made this month’s theme Acts of Kindness to Myself.  Funny thing:  Haven’t followed through on one thing…

    in reply to: getting serious #15111
    icandothis
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    Hi Reds, Congratulations on your family’s new bundle of joy!  I can only imagine the stress and mixture of emotions you were experiencing during your DIL’s pregnancy.  Also, those of your son and DIL.  Blessings to all!!! 
    Modern Science???

    in reply to: I need prayers #11883
    icandothis
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    I have been struggling for some words to give so many of you who are struggling.  I love words, but I am at a loss.  Please don’t give up is all I can think of…

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19620
    icandothis
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    OMG, Larry…Great video…That kitchen floor in the youtube video looks just like mine…and those dance moves…well, I think "Little Miss Pizza Burner" stole her cooking-dance moves from me!  Bettie, Don’t be discouraged…Just keep Cookin, Good-lookin!

    in reply to: Hello All I Am New Here #11439
    icandothis
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    Hi I won,   I like Anthony Robbins, too.  He has helped many people change their lives.  In the end.  It is up to us.  Listening and  reading Anthony Robbins is a good start and a good recovery tool.  There are many others, and we all must find our own. way.  I am glad you are beginning to work your recovery.  It is not an easy road.  I like your name…I won a new life.  I have this image of a slot machine.  You put in a coin and up comes..New Life..New Life..New Life!  WINNER!   
    You have a desire to change, and you made your way to this site.  I think that makes you a winner.  You have taken a very large step in the right direction.  You have WON the OPPORTUNITY to CREATE a new life One Day at a Time!  We all have the same opportunity, and we all can WIN!

    in reply to: Today is my 30th gamble free day #11339
    icandothis
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    Wow, SG!  Great step forward!  Good for you!  Do something nice for yourself to celebrate.  You deserve it!

    in reply to: HUGE Setback over Holiday……Support Needed! #11806
    icandothis
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    Hi Razzabelle,  Neva and I must be on the same wavelength.  I was thinking of you today also, as I hadn’t seen a recent post from you.  I hope everything is ok.  I also have thought a lot about that woman you wrote about.  I thought about some goals I set a few years ago.  We were supposed to quickly write, no matter how outlandish, things we wished for.  I wrote that I wanted to have lots and lots of money so that I could gamble and it wouldn’t be a big deal.  Neva, is right.  There isn’t enough money in the world to support this habit.  I still wish for lots and lots of money! lol  But, now, I do not want to gamble with it.  There are so many other worthwhile things to do with our money, no matter how much or how little we have.  Hope to see you posting soon.  Take care. 

    in reply to: A New Life #12060
    icandothis
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    Hi Trulyshi,  I am so glad to hear of your active social life post Barry.  You deserve to be appreciated.  From watching my girlfriend’s dating life, I am a little leary of those who profess their love quickly.  Good for you on taking things slow.  I like that you have been friends for a long time.  Listen to me.  Giving dating advice.  Something I know nothing about.  Beside that, my girlfriend’s experiences have been nothing like my own.  My husband says he fell in love with me the minute he saw me walk into one of our college classes.   We began dating, and he professed his love shortly after.  Scared me to death.  I broke up with him.  I said the usual line about still wanting to be friends.  After my rejection, he drove 4 hours from my house to his house on his motorcycle in the pouring rain.  He left me a letter saying that we could never be friends because he loved me too much. 
    I ran into him on campus a year later.  We were in the same Economics class. It bothered me that he had said we couldn’t be friends.  I set out to prove him wrong.  He set out to win me over.  He did win me over, but we did became good friends first.  A friendship that has lasted 33 years.  At the time, however, every time he began to get serious, I would say…just friends; just friends.  Finally, we went out on a date.  Two weeks later, he asked me to marry him, and I said "Yes!"  No point to this story really..just thought I’d share.
    Thought of a point..don’t underestimate a good friendship!  Have a great time tonight.  We are going to a Superbowl party.  Not a big fan of the Superbowl, but the party is a tradition.  There is always lots and lots of good food, and I enjoy the TV commercials!
     

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19606
    icandothis
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    Hi Bettie,  I wish I could say the same thing about my car problem.  My problem cost me just over $1000!  I feel blessed that it was not a dangerous situation for me or anyone else.  But I dream of the day when these unexpected costs are nothing to fret and worry about.  I wish it wasn’t a big SLIP in our Financial Recovery Program.   At least I didn’t SLIP in my GT Recovery Program and gamble.  Then I would have had a slip-slip.   A gamble SLIP would also be a slip in my Happiness Project.  A slip-slip-slip.  That’s a lot of slips!!! lol
    Just a little humor.  I realize gambling slips are very painful and many here, including myself, are still suffering from the after shocks.  But life will always have its slips, and I dream of the day when we all stop adding gambling slips into the mix.   
    I had to smile when I read "Friends without Benefits"  I guess we all have a few of those! 

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #19591
    icandothis
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    Hi Bettie,  I am glad you didn’t gamble Sunday.  I believe that 80% thing.  I have been thinking about gambling way too much!  I know in theory we have control over our thoughts.  this is something I need to work on.  the more I think about gambling; the more likely I will gamble.  I like what you said.  Just do the next right thing.  Good advice.  I am struggling today, so I am going to try to do just that.  Do the next right thing.  I think I can, I think I can, I think I can…

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