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Hope your weekend of walking in the hills was a success. Not gambling for one entire month is a great accomplishment. Haven’t heard from you in a while. Hoping all is going well. Would love to hear from you.
I have no answers for you, Pumkin. Just want you to know I am thinking of you and sending you prayers. Lizbeth has good advice…keep posting. She is a good example of…no matter how hard life gets..sharing with others who care can help lighten the load. Hugs. We care, Pumkin.
Thanks, Ready2change. I have read your thread. I am glad you are continuing to post and the days are beginning to add up. You’re right about my daughter..of course, as her mother, I might be a little biase. I had this feeling after I talked to her..(well she did all the talking, I mean screaming)…that if she could regroup and calm down she would get the job. She really is a very smart, talented, creative young woman. I wish I had as much confidence in myself as I do in my children. Heck, I wish I were my children! lol
My daughter is still sleeping. I am enjoying her visit. We are going to a movie later today. Yesterday on facebook, a friend of mine whose daughter is also home on college break, posted a picture of the two of them at the casino. I have to admit, I was a little jeolous of the fact that this is something they can do together, wihout it being a problem. I even thought, "Why didn’t they invite us?" In the past, I have suggested we go, but my daughter was never interested. It is not something she cares about, so I will try not to think about it and focus on other things we can do together. Money better spent. I remember the days when I knew we had a casino down the street, but wasn’t interested in going either! Oh well, now I am what I am, and that’s what I am. No use in wishing otherwise.Hi I won, I am glad you had a nice weekend with your son. I am enjoying this week with my daughter. No matter how old they are, the time spent with our children is precious. I wanted to thank you for a statement that you made on one of your posts saying that since joining GT you had lost $1,500. It really made me think, as I have lost a lot more than that since I have joined GT. Since joining GT, I have focussed on recovery. Looking at the progress I have made. I am grateful for that, but I still need to look at the facts…at the money lost. I need to look at the truth. I cannot keep spending and expect our lives to get better just because I am trying to change. This unnecesary spending must stop now!As usual, ODAAT…fueled with an awareness of money lost and a desire not to give away our hard earned money any more…not one penny!
Hi Crushedsoul, I am sorry you are in so much pain. We all have been there. We have all, like you, wanted the pain of gambling to go away, but not the gambling. You continue this parade of destruction, but in the meantime, the parade of life is passing you by. You say that these last 2 years have been the worst of your life, but during that time you had your best friend with you. Gambling is the problem. it is what is standing between you and a healthy relationship. Please, for your sake, reach somewhere deep within yourself and find the desire to quit this terrible disease. First find the desire to help yourself. then you will do what it takes to find a doctor. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, but you have to want to see it. I am saying this to you because I posted for a long time before I had any desire to change. I only wanted the pain to stop from the poor decisions I was making, instead of trying to stop making the poor decisions that were causing me pain. Please give recovery a try.
My daughter showed up one hour late for her interview. She came home and gave me a big hug and said she was sorry. They offered her the job! We had a nice dinner and talked all about her interview and the opportunity if she decides to take the job. We will see how things turn out. I always thought she would be the one who would take a job in a big city far from home…maybe not.
OMG, What a morning! My daughter is home from college this week. She has a job interview about an hour from here this morning. At the last minute, she is trying to print out her resume. She had trouble with her computer and then our printer. I am thinking…shouldn’t you have left by now! She hadn’t even printed out the directions yet. My mind is saying all the mom things like..You couldn’t have done this last night while you were sitting on the couch watching TV. Instead, I scraped and heated her car, paced around the kitchen, and prayed. She did get out the door just in time with everything she needed printed, but now she doesn’t even have one minute to spare. She has a terrible sense of direction, and now I am praying that she finds the place and that she gets there on time…in other words, I am praying for a miracle!
Well, she just called me hysterical. She had the directions, but I told her they took her a little out of her way, and she needed to get on ***. So, she didn’t look at the directions and took yyy..totally the wrong way! This is, of course, all MY fault. I have to go.
Congratulations, readt2change on day 9. Sherry is right…We can make the life we want, as long as we are willing to let go of what we don’t want.
(((Sherry))), My prayers are with you and your family. You are doing everything you possibly can under the circumstances.
Hi P, I am feeling restless, too. Like I just can’t seem to fit into my own life. We can do this, P. Hold on!
Thanks, P and Maverick. I am feeling a little better, and I have been enjoying a nice weekend with my husband. I am ready to get back to that happiness project. February was a pretty depressing month. My hopes are higher for March. I have learned that no matter what I do to change or improve my life, it dosen’t work if I gamble, even for one day. I am not sure about happiness. Some say it is a decision, some say it’s a skill, and some say it takes discipline. Right now, it is enough not to gamble.
Hi P, This is our month..The beginning of something new. Not sure what it is, but I can feel it. Sending you love and support.
No gambling for me today. Cat, I was kidding about the pressure, but I think I welcome and appreciate the extra accountability this month. I was hoping to end the year of 2012 with 3 gamble-free months, then I gambled in December. Thinking, then, that 2013 would be a new year…gambled one day in January and then one day in February. The day in February hit me hard. It has been hard to regroup and start over. I was hoping you would start a March pledge because I want to have an entire month free of gambling, and I was eager to leave February behind me. Then I saw you had started a March pledge and my name was on it. I know it is a gamble-free life we are going for, but that seems like an impossible dream to me…so I will focus on recovery and try with everything I have to keep this March monthly pact. I am glad that neva has joined in this circle of support and would love to see others join in as well.
One day of gambling makes for a horrible month…at least for me. I let February go and March on…
Cat, This is so touching and also, a lot of pressure. lol I so desperately would like March to be gamble free!…as month 1 in a long line of gamble free months to come. I take your hand and P’s and everyone else’s. Let’s make March a great gamble free month. Day 1..no gambling. 100% success rate!