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What will I do with tomorrow?

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On shaky ground, but hanging in there. 11 days into November. One day at a time. I keep thinking that I can’t make it. But I just need to keep focusing on today. What will I do with this day?

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Hi Sirena , I just love reading your posts. I would like to join your How-a-CG-Got-Her-Groove-Back Program! I’m trying to find my groove, but I am not sure I ever had it. I, too, need to get to the gym. I will start (as I start/don’t start everything) on Monday! So many things to try that could help us get our groove on, if we just allow ourselves to do so. We might even begin to enjoy ourselves! I agree with your counselor that it is all about doing things that feel good. I know that I can never gamble again and feel good about it, no matter what the outcome might be. When urges come, I try to fast forward to how I know I will feel afterward. Not just bad…devastated, miserable, sorry (and I am really sick of feeling sorry), and I am really sick of feeling sick!!! We can choose to want to feel better, and then we can choose activities that will help us feel better. Little things can make a big difference. Slow and steady progress wins the race…one day at a time!

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Congratulations, Cat! What an accomplishment. That’s a lot of ODAAT’s! Looking forward to continuing the journey with you and so many others.

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I’m in it to win it! Vera said something on someone’s thread…ok, I don’t remember anything these days…You weren’t very lucky at gambling…hope you are more lucky in recovery. I know that wasn’t it exactly. It stuck with me though. One of those Vera statements that makes you ponder.

I wish everyone good luck and good fortune in their life in recovery…

This is all we have right now. Whatever cards we have been dealt. So many different cards, but we can all be winners. We can win at recovery, and unlike so many other things in our lives, we have a choice. Let’s choose recovery for the next 30 days…One Day At a Time.

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Wondering how you are doing, Sherry. I am sure I am not the only one who would love to hear from you.

Sending you good thoughts and well wishes.

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The update: Daughter called in sick to work on Monday. We thought, ok, we’ll let her take the day off. Monday night we told her she needed to go to work on Tuesday. She agreed and off to work she went Tuesday morning. She called me Tuesday afternoon and told me she was on her way home and that she had quit her job!!! That girl is going to be the death of me.

Last night was a nice Halloween. Family and friends for dinner. Trick-or-treaters. Husband and I and the kids dressed up and handed out candy.

We put the cottage up for sale yesterday. We simply cannot afford to keep it any longer and have not been able to for a long time. Such a wonderful piece of lakefront property. Beautiful woods and a river. Been in our family since I was 16. It has a beautiful stone archway built in the late 1800’s . I enjoy driving through it every time. So hard to give it up. My husband was very upset after talking to the realtor.

I am looking forward to better days ahead.

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Happy Halloween, everyone! October was a gamble free month for me. I won’t gamble today. What a weird month!! Filled with extreme highs and extreme lows. You never know what each day will bring. See you, Cat, and every one else who wants to join in on November’s pledge. One Day at a Time!

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I wrote an update, but it was lost. I’ll write later. Things have gone from bad to worse. Wanted to gamble so bad today. I didn’t, so that is one good thing I can say about today. Also, it was a beautiful fall day, and I took a nice walk. Now. I’m going to make chili for tomorrow and then go to book club. Times like these I really need to be with my girlfriends. I wish my daughter had girlfriends close by. She is really in a bad way. And a mother can only do so much.

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Hello and welcome, It is funny you said…is this the place to be? This is the place to be. But, also, when I am gambling I feel like I am never in the place I am suppose to be. I should have been anywhere but at the casino is always the feeling I have as I leave. Today was anything but a good day. But the only comfort I have is that I was here…present for my life and here to support those I love because I wasn’t gambling…and believe me, I wanted to be gambling. Keep posting because this is a much better place to be than at any casino. We will listen, respond and support your journey of recovery no matter what!

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I don’t know where to start describing this weekend. Last week was tough. A let down after the wedding and then a busy week that followed. We had friends come to visit from out of town Friday night. We went to our cottage Saturday. Worked to close things up and were at the trailer Saturday planning to stay Sunday night also. Had a nice dinner with my brother and SIL. Point…much needed time with husband. Feeling good about things in general. Then..Sunday AM .. text from my daughter..her boyfriend of three years has broken up with her. We packed things up and headed home. She is devastated. Our new DIL spent the day with her. What a blessing ! Her brother loves her, but he can not provide the comfort that her new sister was able to provide. I made her a nice dinner. She hardly ate any of it. she then asked me to rub her back. She laid in front of the fire and I rubbed her back. I was thinking as I was rubbing her back that I was rubbing away her broken heart. I wish it were that easy. I can’t say I am devastated because he never gave much to our family. I never felt that he was devoted or totally in love with our daughter. And, now, I guess, he has provend that to be true.

My wish has always been that she would meet someone who gets her and who appreciates her like we do. Who thinks she is as amazing as we do..no, someone who thinks she is more amazing than we do. He was not that someone.

I was lucky enough to find that someone. I want that for my daughter. I know my son is that man for his new wife. If I could bottle up the look on my son’s face as his bride walked down the isle, I would send it to every woman in the world…especially to my daughter!

Relationships are complicated, and he is not a bad guy. I am just saying that my daughter deserves someone who thinks she is the stars and the moon because, well, that is what she is…

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Trying to join the community group. Don’t see the green join button!

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Finally, beginning to believe that I can make it through October without gambling. One week left! I can’t say this has been my best week, but at least I didn’t gamble. I can’t help but think about how I would feel today if I had given in to the urges I have had the last couple of days. Instead, today is just another day. Like each day…a fresh start. I have been in a bit of a fog, but today it seems to be clearing just a little. If someone could send me just a little motivation across the airwaves, I would appreciate it! Recently, I was on a downward spiral and it seemed impossible to me that I could make it through an entire month without gambling. This thread has helped me stay focused. Thanks, Cat. Recovery…One Day at a Time!

I love Halloween. I will be celebrating Halloween with family and friends. Gambling would ruin the celebration for me. But, also, I want to celebrate October as my first gamble-free month!

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Thank you for your kind words on my thread, Lizbeth. I like what you said about reinventing ourselves and finding our own path. You are living that right now. Getting ready for your new life in your new house! I admire you, Lizbeth! A lot of change for you, but don’t give in to those gambling urges. You are a strong woman.

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Happy belated birthday, Debbie! What a difference a year makes!

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