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That was lovely, Laura. Thinking of you as you renovate and rebuild your home. There is hope for the new year. 2014…we can renovate, reinvent, and rebuild our lives one day at a time!

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Happy Holidays and Happy New Year, Cat! I hope you had a Merry Christmas with your grandchildren. Looking forward to hearing all about it. I would like to add my thanks to Carole’s. You are a blessing to this site!

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Hey Sherry, Happy Holidays and a Happy New Year! I hope you read this and know you are not forgotten. Take care my friend.

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Trinity, I have written and deleted so many times. Relationships are very complicated, so I think at this time, it is best I don’t say anything. I am just glad that you are alright. Please continue to keep recovery your priority. One day at a time.

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Thinking of you this holiday season. I understand how difficult this time of year must be for you. May you find comfort this holiday season and much joy in the new year!

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Larry, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Hope you are doing well. I have been thinking about you for a while now. Maybe just a quick post?

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Trinitysky, Sending you hugs and prayers. You have been through so much. You have been through so much. You have shown such honesty, strength, and courage in your recovery. You have an addiction that you did not ask for and it brought you down to rock bottom, but you are bringing yourself back up again. It is obvious to all of us what an incredible young woman you are. You are not alone. We are all here for you!

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Thank you, Carole and Vera. So nice to hear from you! Very strange Christmas. We celebrated Christmas with kids on Saturday and we were hit with a huge ice storm. We lost power and didn’t get it back until Christmas day! Christmas miracle. We did ok…gas fireplace, lots of candles, grilling food outside. Mere inconvenience. For my 97 1/2 year-old MIL it was another story. Her assisted living facility had to be evacuated. She had to be moved by ambulance to a nearby nursing home. Maybe it was the stress of the move, but she seems to have had a stroke and doesn’t recognize anyone. Very stressful holiday, especially for my husband. We are having a snowstorm this morning. the ice is still on the trees! now the snow is adding even more weight to the branches. So many trees and branches down already! I hope a tree doesn’t fall on our house and we keep our electricity! The urges have been incredible during all of this. thinking there would be lots of lights and warmth you know where! I have thought many times…what kind of recovery is this when I know I will gamble again? I have been planning on it. Sorry, just being honest. But, today, I will not. I will cherish this day and treat is as a gift. Enjoy the warmth, my Christmas lights, my family, and my HOT cup of coffee!

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Hi Carole, I can certainly understand why you are finding it difficult to find the motivation to go out and Christmas shop for Danny.
Thank you for your kind words on my thread. I didn’t expect to be congratulated for my gamble-free days after choosing to gamble. It has really made me think about focusing on the positive side of recovery. I admire how you own your recovery. No apologies. Progress is the name of the game, but also I think expansion. You are showing by example that maybe we don’t need to reclaim our old selves, but instead work to reinvent ourselves anew…and, maybe it’s not work, but simply a labor of love. You have made some huge life changes this year. Christmas can be difficult with all the emphasis on tradition. Stay strong, Carole. Give yourself a little extra loving this Christmas. I’ll send some extra your way too!

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Hello, Thank you all for your support. I am doing ok. It’s amazing how 3 hours of gambling can really wreak havoc on our lives. 3 hours out of 3 months. I have been so busy. I make Christmas gifts to sell. I have also been training for a part-time job that begins in January. My daughter is doing great. She loves her job and has even been out on a date or two. The kids are coming tomorrow and we will celebrate Christmas early, as my son will be with the in-laws Christmas day and Christmas Eve. Hubby and I have been on shaky ground. Lots of stress. I don’t know…maybe the empty nest thing just doesn’t work very well for us. We’ll see. Today, I want to make the best of today. Grocery shopping, maybe a little more gift shopping, solstice party…if I don’t get back here, may the spirit of the season be with you all.

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Hi, P
Thank you so much for your support. I am doing ok. My daughter has a new job and has moved an hour away.
Our cottage is on the market. Will always be in recovery…no matter what it may look like. So happy things are going well for you in recovery. You are such a rock on this site…progress…recovery is possible…hope…

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Just wanted to say hello.

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time for me, means gambling and drinking.

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Thanks so much, Cat, Carole, and P. Quite a busy weekend. Thanksgiving, football, tree hunting and decorating the house, packing up my daughters things and moving her to her new apartment. She now lives one hour away and will start her new job tomorrow. Her apartment is great, and with the help of my son and DIL, she is quite settled in. Pictures on the walls and everything. Hubby and I are home, just finished eating more Thanksgiving leftovers and are exhausted from the long weekend.
Remember I was upset that she quit her last job. On the ride home, my DIL told me that my daughter had to call her previous boss and wake him up each morning. Also, that shortly before she quit, he had asked her to cut up his lunch for him. That just disgusts me and makes me so angry. Why doesn’t she tell me these things? We would have so supported her decision to quit. Also, we entertained a friend she met on this job this weekend. She was also young and very nice looking. I asked my daughter if most of his employees were young, good-looking females. She said yes. As it is we ended up supporting her decision. But we didn’t understand it. I also feel a little guilty that, even though we didn’t know the details, we didn’t trust her judgment. This really has been a lesson on trust and letting go!
I pray she likes this new job and that she is treated with the respect she deserves. I hope she is ok tonight all alone in her new apartment.

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Last day of the month. Since I am in bed and my husband and daughter are watching football in the next room, I think it is safe to say…I will not gamble today and November has been a gamble-free month.

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