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The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and there is no reason I can think of not to enjoy this fourth day in May without gambling.

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Thanks Geordie. You’re right about crossroads. What direction I take is my choice. Different choices could mean new possibilities. This crossroads could be “Possibility Junction”!
It’s been one week since my big fall. These last few months, winning made it so easy to lie to myself. Things have been going well in general and I have been happy…or maybe that was just another lie I was telling myself. I think I have held myself apart from this site and recovery because I know that deep down I really don’t want to quit. I have tried to get to that place this week because I know that would be a good place to start, but I just can’t get there. Then, I think that I am just a big fake because I can say I won’t gamble today, but in three months when I get away with my girlfriends, I am thinking about and planning to do just that. So, what do I do now? I look at the past. Face it honestly. Don’t want to keep repeating something that isn’t working. Stop thinking ahead to where an opportunity will lend itself (and it always will), and I believe that I will not be able to stop myself.
I have to stop looking at my past failures and stop looking at the future as a time when I will eventually fail again.
Today I will make the right choice because it doesn’t matter whether I want to go or I don’t or whether I would win or lose, or I’ll just gamble sometime in the future. Today is what matters, and today, I CAN DO IT. Today, you can, too! Enjoy!

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Just got back from a Kentucky Derby Party. Close friends, good food, Mint Juleps, lots of laughter. I wore a floppy hat decorated with pink tulle. Also, wrapped myself in pink tulle. Lots and lots of pink tulle. lol

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A good day in May…gamble free!

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Second day of May…Gamble Free!

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Great post, Cat. First day of May…gamble free!

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Everyone loved the lamb! Skyped my son and DIL in London. Warmth and sunshine. Biking. Drinking beer at an Outdoor café. Did not go out for Easter brunch as planned, but, no worries…lots of leftovers!

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Happy Birthday, Cat! Enjoy your special day and Easter, too!

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Easter cookies are baked and ready to be decorated. Easter eggs are boiled and ready to be colored. Daughter is home. My brother and SIL will be over shortly. Lamb for supper. Easter brunch out tomorrow, so no cooking for me Easter Sunday!

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Country line dancing
My little white dog is so cute!

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Crockpot Beef Stroganoff
Finished cleaning the house…at least good enough
Enjoyed watching Modern Family on TV

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Hi Carole, You are right about the “old timers”. Temporary insanity? Spring fever? I am glad you could regroup and begin again. I was talking to a friend today about diet and exercise. She said that the good thing was the fact that we can always start over…every day was a new opportunity to start over. Speaking of starting over, I wish the best for you and Danny. I agree with Bettie that every thing happens for a reason. I am sure both of you have learned a lot about yourselves and each other as well. I am thinking that now you will be able to take your relationship to a new level. Both of you will be in my prayers. Also, relationships in general. My husband and I have been struggling lately, also. I think that when the structure of your life changes, as ours has in the last 5 years, it is hard to find your bearings again as a couple. And for me, in particular, find my way as an individual when, in the past my life revolved around every one else. One day at a time. I am finding my way. In fact, I am finding that I like the freedom, and I kind of resent the fact that people expect me to do things I used to do just because I have always done them. One day at a time, and trying not to take it all (especially myself) so seriously. Speaking of that, I think going to a comedy club is a great idea. Laughter is great medicine. Take care.

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Exciting weekends are soooo over rated!!!

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BBQ Ribs! A clean kitchen. Easter decorations.

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(((Vera))), (((Cat))) not too much to tell. Took care of my daughter’s dog last week. Very disappointed that I couldn’t go anywhere. I really felt that I just had to get out of the house. Not much an excuse, is it? Financially, things have not been devastating. I am very grateful for that, even though I couldn’t let myself end up a winner. Just couldn’t do that. I find it very disturbing that the last two times I have gambled, I didn’t come home until the wee hours of the night. I just couldn’t walk out. It is so damaging.

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