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Thank you, P, Velvet, Sad, Lizbeth. Back from vacation and trying to regroup. It was a wonderful vacation. But, like my recovery journey, far from perfect. Monday, I threw my back out and was in pain for the rest of the week. Still hurting! Slowly but surely feeling better. Slowly but surely working on recovery! Moving forward one baby step at a time!
icandothisParticipantHi Cat, Thinking of you and sending prayers your way. Hope you are enjoying your family. My son and DIL were touring and camping in Scotland last week. So, of course, I thought of you. They loved it and thought it was absolutely beautiful. While camping, though, they discovered Midges. To use their words, they were eaten alive!
icandothisParticipantHi Liz, Good for you not giving in to those urges. Those ribs sound amazing. I hope your mother appreciates them. People think that I am a good cook. But, I don’t think there are very many meals that I actually cook by myself. My husband always does something…like make the pesto, grill, timing, etc. I think it would be a challenge for me to do a meal all by myself, especially if I had to grill. Just one more thing for me to admire you for. Your youngest daughter is in my prayers.
I am starting my vacation today. Need to rewire my brain so that when I think of being on vacation, I don’t think about gambling!icandothisParticipantYou are in my prayers today, Sam. Hang in there! I hope you find some comfort. As Sad said, we all have made mistakes. I have made many. We can recover from them. It is possible.
icandothisParticipantVera, I don’t think we’re “pregnant” in the pre-gamble stage…no new life, creation, nothing growing, nothing sacred or beautiful on the way. It’s more like filling ourselves with hot air, and when we “pop” we’re left with nothing.
However, I was looking at my stomach earlier today and I do believe there might be something growing in there!!! lol
My husband and I will be on vacation next week. I have talked to him tonight, and we have eliminated my “free” time, and therefore my opportunity to gamble. This eliminates the stress and worry. I do feel relief, but I have to admit, I also feel disappointment, too. I’ll get over it. This just might be the first “relaxing” vacation I have had in years.icandothisParticipantJack and Vera, A light bulb just went off in my head.
“Pre-gambling stress is the worst type, Jack”
That is exactly what I am going through now and have in the past. The opportunity is there in the future and I know I have no power to resist (at least that is what I believe). Part of me obsesses about the opportunity…looking forward to it. Part of me dreading it, knowing I do not have the power within to resist. That is what happened to me on the 4th of July weekend. The opportunity presented itself. I realize I have done this in the past. Thinking about an opportunity in the future where I know I cannot resist and even gambling that same day because I fear a future failure. Those are the times when I don’t post because I know I am going to gamble again and am planning to do so and even looking forward to it. I think because I am doing this, I am a phony, and I shouldn’t post about not gambling today, when I will in the future. PRE-GAMBLING STRESS AT ITS WORST!
There is a way out. We can alleviate the stress. You can do something else with that 5,000 before you have the opportunity to gamble with it. I can do something with the $400 I have in my drawer before I leave alone to the cottage. I do not have to drive by myself to the cottage. My biggest barrier is being with my husband…not such a hardship.
I still believe that someday I will hit it big at something…whatever it is, it will happen because it was meant to happen…and it will happen because it feels right. The stress and anxiety you are feeling right now about money you don’t even have yet speaks volumes. The Universe wants to give you an abundant life, Jack. I don’t think $5,000 or $42,000 or $30,000 or being $24,000 ahead is what the Universe considers abundance. There is so much more for you to enjoy! There has to be something you enjoy doing that doesn’t cause you stress and anxiety. Look around!icandothisParticipantHi all, I have wanted to post, but I just have a hard time with the words. Recovery is a puzzle, but the pieces seem to be falling into place. I haven’t gambled since the weekend of the 4th, but I just can’t seem to imagine myself gamble-free. In the meantime, I am enjoying life and trying to focus on other things that I can look forward to.
icandothisParticipantDon’t know if you ever come back and read posts, but I would love to hear how you are doing.
icandothisParticipantCat, Thanks for your post and all your support. I think you are right about the “empty nest” thing. But, I am working on creating this next stage of my life, and I am beginning to appreciate the advantages it has to offer. Also, we are planning on visiting my son and daughter-in-law next spring. Nothing definite yet. I haven’t let myself think too much about it because of the cost and also, I am scared of flying. But I think I should. It would be good to have something to look forward to, as Vera has said. I also could use a little brain work. So, maybe I will begin to study some history and important landmarks.
Have a great weekend. Ours will be busy. We are having friends to the cottage. My daughter texted this morning and said she was coming on Saturday morning. I have to admit, I am a little disappointed, as I was looking forward to just spending time with our friends. Maybe, I am more ok with this empty nest thing than I thought! lolicandothisParticipantJackWilson, Only you can stop this madness. Please stop and take stock of what it is you really want and desire and what really matters to you. You have a good job, so the money will come. Patience is not a virtue that comes to us CG’s naturally, but it serves us well if we can practice it. All good things will flow to you JackWilson…all in good time, all in good time!
icandothisParticipantHey Screwball…I hate calling you that. Welcome to GT. We are all in this together. You can’t get back those days when you were gambling instead of spending time with your family. Trust can be rebuilt. Your children love you. There are better days ahead. I love what you said, “Each day we do not gamble, we take another step forward.” I hope we all took a step forward today! If not, then tomorrow? Take care and glad to see you taking stock of what really matters.
icandothisParticipantCongratulations, Lizbeth! I think it is a very nice thing you are doing for your daughter and grandson. Hope everything works out well!
icandothisParticipantHope things are going well for you, Carole, and you are enjoying the warmer weather. Last winter was so brutal. I try to savor each day of summer, which is going by much too quickly!
icandothisParticipantLast night was so special. It seemed as though our DIL had never left. Just like old times, except my son wasn’t here. Friends of my DIL stopped by and then stayed all night. I think they really miss my son and DIL, too! Good thing I always cook lots of food. My DIL and I went out to lunch this afternoon and now she is gone. Feeling low. Having a hard time not thinking about gambling. I have to realize that it is only natural to feel like this. Her short visit makes me miss her and my son more than ever. We have been looking forward to seeing her for so long and now she is already gone again. I think I’ll just take it easy tonight. These low feelings will pass.
icandothisParticipantOur daughter-in-law is coming today for a visit!!! So excited to see her. She is here from London, as she was in a wedding this weekend in her hometown. She will be here later today and will spend the night with us. My daughter is coming home, also. I can’t write much. My husband is busy with preparations and I need to join him. I haven’t seen him work this hard around the house in a long time! Our little Queen of England is coming home!
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