[i_quit]

As you have replied on my message, I went seeking for your story. Thanks for sharing, and am happy to get in contact with you. My user name here is i_quit but let’s say that our motto is ‘we quit’. Take care and you can do it!

[i_quit]

Hi,

Thanks a lot for your time to read my message and write a long message back, I truly appreciate this and it gives me more confidence such as :’yes, I can quit this.’. Indeed, family is so important for me and they are the reason number 1 why I HAVE TO stop now. I tried many times earlier, constantly failed so jumping into this forum is a good and first step.

Thank you for all the valuable advices and I will consider installing something that blocks my access to online sites. You mentioned the sum of 60 dollars, which program do you use? bet filter? As for the credit card, I indeed have to stop using it as well and will find out soon how to do so. Actually, I am good in keeping an eye on my budget and am not that kind of person who easily spend lots of money on other things. Just important daily issues I need such as good food, transport, bills and other stuff for wife and children. The only thing I cannot control my money is gambling. I had so many times where I see I only have little money left in my account, yet I use it to gamble like my head became so empty; I do it so quickly and once I deposited in my gambling account, I have done it and now I play. Once I lose it, I regret of course.

Today is my 3rd day I didn’t gamble. Urges to gamble are still there, especially on moments when I do the bets. I mainly play live bets that gives a lot of adrenals such as tennis; who will win this set or soccer; will there be more than 0,5 goals in the first half. Always in short time and checking the results live with the hope I am right. Do I win, I put all that winning money again for the next game. Do I lose, I make bigger bet to win the money back. It drives me crazy with lots of happiness to win big and lots of regrets/sadness to lose big in a short time.

One analogy I try to make is having a baby: it takes 9 months to give birth to a baby but any second you can lose it. It takes long to win money, but you can lose it very quickly. Perhaps not the right analogy but if anyone know a better one, inform me. Children are so valuable, money too but it is not the most important thing in my life.

Maybe a messy message, I am emotional at the moment after receiving two lovely messages from you and someone earlier.

Thanks again and I will consider your advices when my mind is on its clearest.

[i_quit]

Hi Ryan,

Thank you so much for your reaction, and I will never forget how it feels to read this very first message responding my problem. I am happy you have reached one week and I will follow. Today it’s my 3rd day, it is difficult but I have to cope with it and thanks to the peer support I have here and believe I will have more in near future. Thanks for the hint to join online chat groups, am not skilled yet with this page but will find a way how to join a session and talk with the others.

Thanks again!

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