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Hey mate, the hardest part for me has been accepting that I can’t gambel anymore, I’m done anytime I think about casino’s it’s gonna be me telling them to go **** themselves. You get an urge, stop and think. my name is "I Won" I am a compusive gambler. I made my last bet Feb. 1. 2 days free, let someone else test the water’s next time.– 2/3/2013 7:21:05 PM: post edited by I won a new life.

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Thank you for your post’s neva, congradulations on your recovery, you are an inspiration. For me the first week has been very difficult. I looked back at my posts I have relapsed twice and both ***** were bad and left me miserable. I have to give myself time to recover, from what I read it may take 2 months for my brain to start to rewire. My name is "I Won" I am a CG, I made my last bet Feb. 1. I am 1 day free.

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Today has not been an easy day for me so far, I am absolutly accepting the reality of my addiction, my emotions are unstable, I don’t know if I’m happy or sad. Relapse is hard to deal with, I feel like I have a split pesonality. I know I can do this, Gambeling has been an escape for me for the past 2 years, in the last month I have truly hit my bottom as for now I just want to continue to be honest to myself and anyone who cares to read my posts. This is a truly horrible diease and I would never believe it, except to experiance it for myself. I have to be honest and have faith. I was excited all day yesterday because i was out of money and getting paid, when I got my check I knew I was going to gamble. I was so relieved to have money yet so willing to throw it away. I have another week to plan my recovery, to add more barrior’s. I feel sick-because I am. I struggled with ***** and alcohol, and have been clean from those for almost 3 years. I have a plan, I have support, I can not do this to myself or my family anymore. I am going to spend some time today cleaning the house as we have a massive snow storm outside. My name is "I Won" I am a compusive gambler, I made my last bet Feb. 1. I pledge not to make 1 bet.

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Hi Nick, I read your post, I feel your pain, In the short term you need to ask some friends or family for help so you don’t lose your job. I am also fighting this addiction, spend some time on this site reading post’s and start setting up barrior’s. I made my last bet on Feb. 1 2013 (yesterday) I have been a member here for just over a week. I also want to quit but I have reailized it is no easy feat. Try not to fool yourself into thinking you can gambel again, I have made that mistake too many *****. Hopefully we can take this journey together, have faith.

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Thank you all in the forum for the support i have been getting, I got paid today and at first I had control, the barrior’s were holding but I relapsed, I lost most of my money again, I don’t expect anyone to feel sorry for me because it was my choise the wrong choise, I am lucky because I haven’t got myself in any real debt. I made 1 bet, it was too many. I am tired I spent many hours reading. I choose to confess in my journal because I want to change and I need to know the truth. Some of the replies I got were correct. I hoped I could Gamble again, I’m not so upset this time but I want it to be the last time, it was not even entertaining. I want FEB. 1 2013 to be the day I made my last bet. — 2/2/2013 6:44:51 AM: post edited by I won a new life.

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Hi Ell, I read your story- I give you my thoughts as u have been openly willing to offer me support. I help u try to understand what your husband has done as a cg. For me it started innocent-looking for entertainment I assume for your husband the same but I can only speculate. After the first deposit and loss u accept and deposit again, after the second loss you don’t accept and want your money back. the only way to get it in a cg mind is to deposit more money, play higher stakes and chase your losses- this can quickly spiral out of control ($10,000 in 3 hours for me I chased to broke) When the demon took control the money didn’t seem real it was after the fact when my balance was at $0 reailty started to set in, I was done. I felt depressed/ashamed/guilty. I am sure your husband feel’s the same. It is not just his Gambeling to make him feel guilty but the loss of trust from you. Time heal’s all, and I hope your relationship/communication with your husband can be rebuilt to what u had before the gambling. Important for you to have control of the finances and make sure he pays his debts with any money u give him. I am divorced but my divorce was nothing to do with money or gambling, money did not matter my family did, but lack of trust and communication in my relationship with my x-wife led to diffrences we could not resolve without separation. You are a strong, caring, compastionate woman, with your strength and your husbands commitment I believe your family can be healed stronger, with more trust ,leaving this experiance as just a mear scare in the past.– 2/1/2013 2:14:53 AM: post edited by I won a new life.

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8 days free.
 

I Quit

From our forum:

Gambling sucks. It takes all your money, wastes precious hours of life in this beautiful world, and leaves you feeling like ****. I’m sorry if this offends anyone but I hope all of you can find the strength to walk away and get your lives back. I know that not everyone loses lots of money and that some people keep strict limits on their gambling budgets, but I’m guessing that at least 90% of gamblers lose more money than they would like to lose, and to those people I wish you luck. If anyone has any kind words of encouragement I could really use them because I am feeling pretty ****py about myself right now.

This posting prompted many empathetic responses from our members who offered tips and advice to anyone who is in this ****py situation. If you (or someone you know) is having difficulties keeping their gambling behaviour in check, forward this page to them.
 

Gamblock is something you should install on your computer right away if you want to quit. I believe the software is free. Another way could be to enable your anti-whatever programs like McAfee or Norton which will block most of the ads – as well as Net Nanny or similar, which will also prevent you getting to the actual sites.

I think you will be surprised (well, I guess you’re already surprised) that there are a lot of people who sympathize with you – and many of us who have "been there, done that" as well. But you can also take heart in the fact that many of these people have also beaten their demons… better control of one’s emotions doesn’t happen overnight.

Believe it or not, there are ways to get around your emotions. After doing all those things above (disabling Instacash, etc.) find something – anything – that you like doing – and do it often if you can – especially sporting activities… I guarantee you will forget all about online gambling
 

Make a list of ten things you like to do besides gambling:
Here is a list of 10 things I like to do besides gamble (thanks for the diary space Casinomeister )

1. Golf! (too bad it’s winter lol)
2. Drive my car (Infiniti G35 coupe 6-speed )
3. Read books, like Carlos Castenada’s series or Timothy Leary type books
4. Play Xbox 360 (mostly just the racing games and Tiger Woods)
5. Think about my future, what do I want to learn and accomplish?
6. Listen to music
7. Do good in school (mechanical engineering right now, thinking about switching to a math major)
8. Buy weird lamps and other intriguing lighting apparatuses (I’ve always loved Vegas just because of the lights, not the gambling)
9. Eat french fries (my favorite food!)
10. Love my girlfriend and make my parents proud of me.

My only advise would be… if you can’t deposit, then you can’t lose money. Contact every banking establishment in the circle of online casinos, Neteller, Firepay, Citadel, etc., and have them cut you off from depositing. This is a surefire way to end your online career. If you have any land-based casinos nearby, then that’s a whole new battle you’re going to have to fight…

It may help to get a photo of the person/persons you love most in life, on the back write how you feel when you have lost all your money and how your gambling would effect them and your relationship with them.

Put it by your computer, or in your wallet when out, when you feel the urge coming have a good look and read what you have written.

…if you are looking for a pastime that gives a similar rush to online gambling, then take up one of the FPS games in multiplayer **** on your PC. I had several years doing this in a "clan" playing Quake/Q2 and Unreal Tournament and I can honestly say that it was fantastic fun and had a sense of community and competitiveness that really got you involved.

I’m a bit out of touch with the latest FPS games, but I would seriously consider looking into this as an alternative form of entertainment. The thing about gambling is the "rush" of a good win. You get this with FPS in team and deathmatch games online. Recommended

Everyone who participates with online casinos/poker rooms ***** to understand their own motivations and keep these impulses in check. Everyone ***** reminders that there is a real world out there.

If it’s money you’re into, disable your Insta Cash at Neteller.

Another tip, turn off your computer and go take a walk. Get into the real world. If you have a family at home, go play monopoly or some other game where money is involved. You can take care of that "money" fix this way.

If playing online ever affects your relationships or makes a serious dent in your bank account. Stop doing it – period. Thunderstruck or online poker is not worth ******** up your life.

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