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I’m trying to understand too. I have stopped now, I can pay off my debt by the end of this year and remain gamble free.

I just wanted to end it with a big win and pay off my debt like it never happened, now looking back I can see I’ve been in that position before and it just makes me greedy and reinforces the gambling behaviour then I lose more back over time.

I had this one casino I found that my blocking software missed. I liked it very much had good payouts and instant withdrawals with no verification. I’m about even on this one I will add it to my block list today. I as well disabled my payment system (crypto currency) by adding a 2FA code then deleting it off my list.

I can walk away now just a lesson learned, expensive but how many times do I need to do this.

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Any amount of money lost is a small price to pay for a gamble free life.

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I read your story and it makes sense getting out of debt and having money is a huge trigger for a relapse.

I never traded forex , but a similar type of margin trading don’t miss the days of seeing my account being liquidated, totally gambling.

I thing a long term investment in the SMP 500 would be a safer bet.

Congratulations on your gamble free time sound like life is getting better for you.

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Ho letto la tua storia e ha senso uscire dai debiti e avere soldi è un enorme fattore scatenante per una ricaduta. Non ho mai fatto trading sul forex, ma un tipo simile di trading a margine non perde i giorni in cui vedevo il mio conto essere liquidato, giocando totalmente. Penso che un investimento a lungo termine nell'SMP 500 sarebbe una scommessa più sicura. Congratulazioni per il tuo tempo libero dal gioco d'azzardo sembra che la vita stia migliorando per te.

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Ik heb je verhaal gelezen en het is logisch om uit de schulden te komen en geld hebben is een enorme trigger voor een terugval. Ik heb nooit in forex gehandeld, maar een soortgelijk type margehandel mis de dagen niet dat mijn account wordt geliquideerd, volledig gokken. Ik denk dat een langetermijninvestering in de SMP 500 een veiligere gok zou zijn. Gefeliciteerd met je vrije tijd, het klinkt alsof het leven beter voor je wordt.

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I know what needs to be done and I haven’t fully committed to stopping although I know that is what I need to do. I worked tirelessly to get around my barriers paying ludicrous fees and have played on some of the shadiest casinos on the market.

Years ago when I did manage a win and a cash out request it would get rejected do to having uncleared deposits at related casinos.

I have gambled all week obsessing and glued to my screen. I was chasing losses from last weekend. I was up 3k at one point but it wasn’t enough and I lost it all back and then some.

I used to stop and cash out after a big win, now I just raise my bets and continue spinning or switch up to black jack.

Slots are my crack cocaine they have given me an escape from reality for many years. My biggest win was 10k one night I did manage to cash it but lost it back over 2 weeks.

Since then about 7 years ago I have been hooked, some clean time in between, my lifetime losses are now well into 6 figures. Literately every penny I make is used for ammunition to feed the machines.

I am mathematically challenged but after being given that hit of “crack” I have been desensitized. When a bonus round hits, 4 scatters, 5 scatters. big line hits, and coin showers.

The money I lose doesn’t matter when I’m playing because surely I will win it back. I have never been able to hold a win. When I win big I usually lose twice the amount back before reality sets in.

Trouble coping feeling low and depressed and wanting to gamble to escape this. The money doesn’t matter anymore. I just need to survive.

This being said this last week has hurt bad was almost out of debt and now I’m about 10k deep.

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I have placed my last bet, tomorrow is a new day.

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I have continued to gamble. I am in a dark place.
I will post a more positive post when I get out of this.

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Day one accept for lotto tickets gotta have some hope.

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Been following your story as we know gambling can only make things worse at this point.

I just lost 5k and convinced myself I had fun and it was good entertainment.

Was going to walk when I was up 5k, never got close.

One day at a time

Keep up the good fight

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I am being honest as this is my safe place. I have accepted the money is gone. I’ve chased and recovered so many times, only leave with change in my pocket. I’m ok just need to find a hobby or something else to do with my time .

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Thanks for your comment Steev. I need to make some changes to limit my access to money. Difficult as I don’t have a trusted person to handle my finances for me.

Totally lost all self control. I couldn’t take the thought of not being able to gamble and my behaviour was way worse the last few days than it used to be.

Played black jack and slots, the slots killed me. Hit a jackpot hand pay but that was quickly lost back.

Put myself in about 5k of debt and had a nervous breakdown.

In hangover mode now hope this is the bottom.

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I slipped, Day 1.
One day at a time.

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