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I am walking the path to freedom. I don’t have money so I can’t gamble but I will again and this is where I will be tested by the devil on my shoulder.
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nThe path is clear and can not be tempted by the forbidden fruit.
nThis is pure insanity to make money give it away then be broke and desperate over and over and over again.
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nI have too much to live for and I deserve a happy life without the worries of money or gambling.

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Hi Rdy4Chng
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nThank you for posting on my thread.
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nI have read you new journal and hope we can do this together.
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nGambling has done nothng but made me feel miserable lately.
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nI used to at least get some play time or enteratainment for my money now it just goes, goes fast and I feel bad, defeated like god is telling me to stop.
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nThe next big win needs to come from a gamble free life one day at a time.

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Здравейте Rdy4Chng n nБлагодаря ви, че публикувахте в моята тема. n nПрочетох ви нов дневник и се надявам, че можем да направим това заедно. n nКазарът не е направил нищо, но ме накара да се чувствам нещастен напоследък. n nПонякога получавах поне време за игра или развлечения за парите си, сега просто върви, върви бързо и се чувствам зле, победен, като Бог ми казва да спра. n nСледващата голяма печалба трябва да дойде от живот без хазарт един ден наведнъж.

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Hallo Rdy4Chng n nBedankt voor het posten op mijn draad. n n Ik heb je nieuwe dagboek gelezen en hoop dat we dit samen kunnen doen. n nGokken heeft niets gedaan, maar ik voelde me de laatste tijd ellendig. n nVroeger kreeg ik op zijn minst wat speeltijd of entertainment voor mijn geld, nu gaat het gewoon, gaat snel en ik voel me slecht, verslagen alsof God me zegt te stoppen. n nDe volgende grote overwinning moet dag voor dag komen uit een gokvrij leven.

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Привет, Rdy4Chng n n Спасибо, что разместили в моей ветке. n n Я прочитал вам новый дневник и надеюсь, что мы сможем сделать это вместе. n Азартные игры ничего не сделали, но в последнее время заставили меня чувствовать себя несчастным. n n Я имел обыкновение хотя бы получать некоторое время для игр или развлечений за свои деньги, теперь это просто идет, идет быстро, и я чувствую себя плохо, побежденный, как будто Бог говорит мне остановиться. n nСледующий крупный выигрыш должен исходить от жизни, свободной от азартных игр, день за днем.

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I put blocking software on my laptop.
nGot my paycheck and decided to try to log into online casino to check if blocking software is working.
nThe blocking software failed I lost $780 gambling kept thinking my luck has to change but I need to change and stop gambling for good.
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nThank you for posting on my thread Rdy4Chng. If you can somhow limit you access to money that would help.
nI am taking baby steps so I can at least limit the damage.
nThe rate I’ve been going I just lose all money as soon as I get it. Luck has been horrible over last 2 months.
nAll I need to do is stop and life will be fine and go back to normal.
n One day at a time the fog has cleared I can see the path to freedom. I choose to stop and escape this madness for good.
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I needed money to survive
ngot a pay day loan-
nLost the money gambling.
nI needed money to survive
nsold anything I had of value-
nLost the money gambling.
nCourt, fraud, bannkrupt. Why-
nLost the money gambling.
nI had all the money I needed to survive but I
nLost the money gambling.
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nI don’t like gambling I am fine without it.
nI don’t understand why I do this to myself
nit makes me feel pathetic and worthless
njust a degenerate gambler with nothing left to lose.
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nI have been here before when things were not so bad
nI was in the beginning stages of what I now know is called patholigcal gambling it is an illness a progressive illness that has progressed to my new rock bottom.
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nI lost my last $70 yesterday I feel depressed and anxious and today I did not gamble.
nOne day at a time I am going to escape the fog.

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My story and my struggle.
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nI have been gambling for 10 years on and off.
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nOver the past year I have been gambling almost daily online playing slots and casino table games.
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nI have tried to stop. I was on a 3 month upswing.
nI have now lost everthing, I am bankrupt.
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nOnly when I run out of money do I have time to look back and see the trail of devastation.
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nI now see the only way to move forward is to stop gambling.
nI need to stop now and stop forever.
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nIts easy for me to say I only have a gambling problem when I lose, thats how I feel but here I am trying to claw my way out of the fog again.

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My suggestion to you is to set some barriors to protect your surplus income “the money you gamble away after you pay your bills”
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nIf you have a trusted person to handle your finaces this is the best option.
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nSelf exclude from where you gamble.
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nYou are not alone there are many of us on here in the same position. Most importantly block your access to money-
nif we don’t have money we can’t gamble which is where we are when we lose it anyway. Take care
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How have you been doing?
nBeen thinking of you, hope all is good.
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nGive us all an update if your back on the site.

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Been on a 3 month binge, found the trap door in rock bottom.
Hopefully I’ll stick around and can be supportive to other members. Got some serious therapy and financial things to figure out but I’m ok. Been on this coaster for 10 years just on a dip. Hopefully I’ll have a day one tomorrow.

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Keep going don’t give in to urges it will just add to the destruction.

Find something else to do to fill the time you used to spend gambling.

I’m working on this right now as I type gambling has set me back 10 years of my life and I want to have something to leave to my kids some day, not just debt.

One day at a time.

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Give it 21 days at least to break the cycle of addiction. We are on the wrong end, the casinos will get it all if we let them.
The house edge will always win.

One day at a time.

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I relapsed again and lost 2k on Sept. 11. I was just convinced I was going to win, so many dead spins.

Then it was like a switch went off in my head. Stop throwing money away and stop the bleeding. I tried really hard to win big and it wasn’t meant to be.

I have stopped the insanity now, just feeling a bit low on the financial loss but this can be recovered over time.

No more, I’m done.

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It’s about day 3 from my last bet on video slots. I suffered a heavy loss while I was lost in the fog again.

Blocks are in place, I still have access to large amounts of money on my line of credit, unfortunately I am living on this now after the juggling my finances.

Even feeling the gambling hang over. Was going to buy a new laptop so I could start gambling again. Thought I could play with a budget and know when I’m at my peak to make a cash out like I used to. Or take 10k put it on one hand of black jack or red or black on roulette. Walk away win or lose. Addiction will do this to me every day and I have a choice, today I made the right choice.

I can just stop gambling now and walk away a winner every day, looking for another job to help pass time and pay down some debts.

One day at at time.

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