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Segna che la frase "Non posso lasciare un altro pasticcio" è profonda e mostra che nonostante questa dipendenza e gli orribili pasticci in cui ci mette, stai pensando agli altri. Grande poesia.

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Tandai bahwa baris "Saya tidak bisa meninggalkan kekacauan lain" sangat dalam dan menunjukkan bahwa terlepas dari kecanduan ini dan kekacauan mengerikan yang kita alami, Anda memikirkan orang lain . Puisi yang bagus.

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Zaznacz, że wiersz „Nie mogę zostawić kolejnego bałaganu” jest głęboki i pokazuje, że pomimo tego uzależnienia i okropnego bałaganu, w który nas wpędza, myślisz o innych. Wielki wiersz.

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Merk op dat de regel "Ik kan niet nog een puinhoop achterlaten" diepgaand is en laat zien dat je, ondanks deze verslaving en de vreselijke rotzooi waar we in terechtkomen, aan anderen denkt. Geweldig gedicht.

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Marke, ta věta „Nemohu opustit další nepořádek“ je hluboká a ukazuje, že navzdory této závislosti a strašným nepořádkům, do kterých se dostáváme, myslíte na ostatní. Skvělá báseň.

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Marke that line “I can’t leave another mess” is profound and shows that despite this addiction and the horrible messes it gets us into, you are thinking of others .
Great poem.

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Marke that line “I can’t leave another mess” is profound and shows that despite this addiction and the horrible messes it gets us into, you are thinking of others .
Great poem.

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Marke cette ligne "Je ne peux pas laisser un autre gâchis" est profonde et montre que malgré cette dépendance et les horribles dégâts dans lesquels elle nous entraîne, vous pensez aux autres. Grand poème.

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मार्क कि लाइन "मैं एक और गड़बड़ नहीं छोड़ सकता" गहरा है और यह दर्शाता है कि इस लत और भयानक गड़बड़ी के बावजूद यह हमें ले जाता है, आप दूसरों के बारे में सोच रहे हैं। बढ़िया कविता।

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Đánh dấu dòng chữ “Tôi không thể để lại một mớ hỗn độn khác” rất sâu sắc và cho thấy rằng bất chấp chứng nghiện này và những mớ hỗn độn khủng khiếp mà nó cuốn chúng ta vào, bạn đang nghĩ đến người khác. Bài thơ hay.

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Thank you both for our posts .
For some reason my blocker is allowing me access to the journals – it is hit and miss – I guess it would be the same with gambling sites.

I agree with all you have written Monica – it isn’t ideal to rely on blockers – although Gamstop proved to be completely useless for me- in fact thinking I was safe and letting my other blockers go was the main factor in my relapse.

Interesting it has never occurred to me to deal with my triggers – I’m not sure I know what they are other than pay in the bank .

Lizbeth your road trip sounds great – yes I think travelling by car would be much more fun.

Payday on Friday -I am going to start Christmas shopping – I will have two pays before Christmas but I have wasted them for years . I am going to buy shoes and coats for the family.

I am going to pay a little extra off my cards and start my emergency fund. It will be in my husbands bank account so should be safe .
My first pay in months that won’t be gambled !

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Hi Lizbeth,
Hope you had a great thanksgiving. As I read about the trips you and Kathyrn have planned, i realised how different my plans are now that i have stopped gambling. I think first on my list is new windows followed by a new kitchen and bathroom.
Not as exciting as trip but fills me with huge excitement .

You are very brave to plan that trip alone- but why not? Could you purchase parts of the trip each payday? I am thinking maybe the bus /plane ticket to the first park and then the hotel ..that way gambling can’t steal this trip from you. Just an idea- I sometimes wish i could purchase small parts of my kitchen as i go along but then if the range was discontinued i would be left with half a kitchen.

keep strong Lisbeth and continue to focus on all those good things in your life.
xx

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Thank you Jen and Kathryn for your posts.

I can only access this part of the site occasionally as my phone blocker doesn’t allow access to it.

I am still gamble free. I think the urges are lessening. Today, however, I spent an hour trying to get around my blocker. I have set layers of barriers this time and it seems to be working .

Wifi is blocked at source so cannot gamble on any household devices.
Phone locked down so cannot share hotspot with household devices.
Got a limited browser on phone and appstore locked.
Bank cards no longer work online due textcode being blocked.

So today I intended spending £40 on gambling – I guess I could buy a new top instead.
The best thing so far about not gambling has to be that I present for the people in my life.

onwards and upwards….

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Hi Monica,
Yes living with your son must be a huge change. You have dilemma about which job to take- ask yourself which post makes you feel most valued – the one with the higher pay or the one with the great feedback? The one with the higher pay will also likely become comfortable and bring great feedback with time. I hope to catch you in chat as so much stuff is coming into my head about this. I am out tonight so perhaps tomorrow,

Monica I hope you don’t mind my saying but it sounds a little uneven that your son’s girlfriend can be there as often as he chooses but Pete must visit only when your son is out.
You deserve to have company whenever you wish, and anyone you choose regardless of how others feel. It is not always easy to meet people we are really comfortable with.

My phone no longer allows me to go to the journal part of the site but when i can i catch up on my son’s laptop. I am currently gamble free thanks to my barriers so I guess it’s worth missing out on some things.
xx

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Hi Jen, thank you for your post on my thread. yes of course i remember you.
I have found it really hard to build up gamble free time- I usually manage to scrape through so i understand how difficult it is, and how easily and quickly progress can be lost.

I guess we just need to accept we have to do those hard things- set up every barrier possible. i have never fully let go control of my money and even when i think i have closed every door another one will sneak in. I’m not sure how others do it -life for me is a constant battle, but they do it and we can too.

We deserve all this money to be spent on new carpets/cars/holidays as much as anyone else.
Why do you feel you are an introvert on the site? I don’t say very much on my journal but i do chat a lot in groups. Perhaps you could come to some- unfortunately they are a little for those trying to get a good nights sleep.

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