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Thank you for your post Jen – it’s pretty horrible right now .
Maybe catch u in group.

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Hi Jen
So sorry to read about your relapse .
I’m afraid I gambled too over the break and I currently feel I will never beat this so I’m not much help to you except to say I’m here .
Xx

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How was Christmas Vera?

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Hi Angel – you are not alone – you have a community here which will support you. Perhaps you would like to share a little about yourself ?

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Thank you Charles.
I had the best Christmas Day.
My gifts were so well received , dinner was delicious and we played a great board game in the evening before our favourite tv specials !
I was exhausted and had a snooze on the sofa.
I felt blessed all day long . I didn’t have to scrimp on any part of the day- but neither did I feel the need to go overboard .
I don’t know why but Christmas always feels so special.

Payday is 36 days away – I can stay gamble free for 36 days !

Looking forward to the best New Year !

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Hi Jen ,
I’m so sorry to hear that things are difficult between you and your mum. It must be very difficult to think you two will never speak again – I too will pray for God’s divine intervention in this situation.
Perhaps we will meet in chat and you can share more openly the things you mention in your post – a problem shared is a problem halved.
I hope you enjoy the rest of your holiday xx

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Thank you Laura for such a lovely post.
It is almost 3am and I am just getting to bed – I have everything done and ready for the morning . I am looking forward to a peaceful Christmas Day .

I have spent so much on Christmas that I am a little shocked with myself . The strange thing is I have spent less than I normally would spend gambling over a month .
Instead of feeling miserable and worried sick , I know I can dip into my savings so I won’t run out if money. (I will try not to use my savings),
I know that I have given really thoughtful gifts to everyone and I also have been able to be generous with those less fortunate than I am. I can’t wait until the morning when family will open their gifts
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My mum asked me to go to the casino with her today – I said no I won’t be going – I plan to spend money on myself and my son in the January sales. If I go I will lose that money and also feel so guilty about it I will end up getting no new clothes.
So that’s it – I said no .
However my resolve is weakening as it always does when I visit home – plans are starting to formulate in my head – I need to stop them straight away. .i need to remember my payday target !38 days – I can do this!

Happy Christmas everyone
Xx

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Hi Monica
Hope you have a beautiful Christmas xx

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Monica ,
It has made me smile to read about your happy Christmas – you put in the work and you are reaping the rewards.

You are very definite that God is at the centre of your recovery and you never fail to give Him thanks for the miracles He has worked in your life .

Your Christmas sounds pretty perfect – time with kids , grandkids , your mum and Pete , and deservedly so .
Hope you have the most peaceful Christmas Monica xx.

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Thank you Monica – I look forward to catching up – you have inspired me more than you know and I have made a career move !

Laura I am sorry – my phone rang and I ended up missing the rest of group .

39 days until payday.
I am looking forward to the January Sales – I have avoided them for years ! I intend being very generous with myself !

I keep thinking about the lottery and what I would do with a significant win – it’s always the kitchen.
Today i looked at it through new eyes and realised that rather than trying to hide its roughness – I could make a real statement out of it- perhaps I will paint it in a delicious purple or crazy orange! I need to stop fantasising about things I cannot afford and learn to make the most of all that I have – many people would swap their lot for mine !

That’s about it – the frantic Christmas cleanup is underway – it’s all hands on deck – I have decided my days or martyrdom are over – I am running this like a military operation – and it’s a whole family effort . Haha.

That’s about it – I will be travelling tonight so won’t make it to group. Talk soon.

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Hi Sean Tomas
Welcome to the site and well done on seeking help.
You have a very interesting style of writing and that is a great introduction.
I hope you keep posting – you will get lots of support on here .

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Happy Christmas Lizbeth and belated happy birthday !
The dog sitting sounds like a great idea – and you will save on electricity in your own house.
Life is much sweeter without gambling and it really is all about mindset . Sounds like you will be busy over the next few days so enjoy every minute of it.
Xx

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Ps vera – ta hubby ag imirt le tine!

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Thank you Vera and Laura ,

Vera .I get it- I feel too ashamed to post about relapses on here anonymously never mind sit in front of a whole roomful of people and talk about it . Although is that not denying others the experience they have selflessly provided for us ? Is that not the sin of pride? – I think I will have to rethink this – I think I have just hit ont he real reason I dislike GA- pride !

You are right about comparing although it is difficult not to think about where we would be now without gambling.

However I have already started a plan of action to get back there – I remember how successful your plan was – perhaps that is why we stumbled into gambling – perhaps we never planned our lives !
I certainly didn’t – I could hardly plan a meal a day in advance – yet when I had limited resources after gambling I could meal plan for a month !

I went shopping and bought beautiful presents for everyone – for my mum I could afford to accessorise the very nice outfit I bought for her – it felt nice – and back to comparing – I got her lovely gloves – the kind prominent women in the village wear !! Haha. My mum has always gambled too much to have gloves like these – I can’t wait to take her to the place where the ladies lunch wearing her fancy gloves ! Perhaps on St Stephen’s day ! OMG there has been a snob hidden inside me all these years !

Laura thank you for this link – it is really helpful to know the emotional roller coaster is normal .

Onward and upwards everyone !

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As an animal lover I feel her pain.
Must they be sold ?
Is there another way ?

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