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Monica
It sounds like you are dealing with a reasonable man. It
Really is not in anyone’s interest for you to file for bankruptcy – God has performed many miracles in your life – just sit back and trust – I know there will be a much better outcome than you expected. I believe God puts the right people in our path. In truth you have already contributed greatly to tax and gambling is taxed heavily .

I’m not sure whether you are mostly annoyed or relieved about your mum’s operation – I know it was worrying you but also that it would improve her quality of life. It does seem strange that the doctor got that wrong – so maybe it’s a blessing in disguise .

Life’s not too bad with me – I am ‘dabbling’ again which I find so stupid but somehow manage to get myself out of messes !
I think God saves me a lot of the time – maybe in his eyes my life isn’t all about whether I have gambled or not – maybe He focuses more on the good ?

It would be lovely to catch you in group – it’s been so long.
Hope u have a really lovely weekend xx

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Vera
I’m sorry u feel I am rebuking you but I won’t be labelled – I’m
Not sure why you think that’s Personal to you when half the people on here attend ga and use the same terminology .

I do feel a bit disappointed that you saw his as an opportunity to point score however !
Over and out !

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Hi vera
I go to a few groups
Cut out a lot of them- I am a lost cause – so doesn’t matter much what I do .
Just focus on your recovery and attend GA as
often as you need to .

Stay strong my friend !
Meet u in group soon and am
Grateful for anything which would help me .

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Thank you Monica and Jen

Yes I have a lot of hundreds to some dodgy foreign site .
Last night I slept well – had probably seven hours sleep – this is the first good sleep I have had in weeks and I feel better for it today.

What driving it ? I don’t know but I do know I have let myself go in every way possible – lack of sleep , exercise , eating junk, becoming overweight .
I hope that if I continue to make a simple choice to go to bed earlier that I will have the stamina to resist gambling .

I have just woken however , and my thoughts are consumed by the lottery and bingo – I can’t even remember what I used to think about it in the past.

Somewhere along the way my brain has lost the ability to think straight .

That’s about it .

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Delighted to read this Vera .
Well done and I hope you go Thursday night .
GA has really helped you in the past and I know it will again .
Keep strong xx

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Wok .
I have just discovered there is no way to block or restrict what I need to restrict so I guess it’s bye bye iPhone .

Gonna check out new phone- I use many apps to stay in touch wit family and friends around the world so it will need to be a smart phone with Greater parental restrictions .

Thanks for this Laura

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thanks Jen.

I had another night wasted on gambling .
The good thing is my barriers held up most annoyingly .
Even while I was trying to get around them I kept thinking I am about to throw away this big trip my son is looking forward to. I have no way of getting the money back for it . I have exhausted all avenues . He will be devastated and I have no idea what I will do – and yet I still felt compelled to gamble – I still do…

God I have the worst mind .

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Hi Monica , that is so incredibly dishonest . Could you knock their door and ask them if any of them noticed anything? I live on a street of very old people and never have any trouble- but that could all change.

Monica , have you been checked for “women’s” illnesses. I think feeling full quickly and bloating can indicate that here may be a problem in this area. Although I guess if its slow digestion – that’s somethings different . An Irish firm have invented a hand held breath tester which you link to an app on your phone and it will let you know exactly what is going on with your digestion during the day – I think this way you can monitor what you eat and remove any trigger foods.

Trivial thought it sounds – I am dying to know what you wore going out ? Did you wear some of your new clothes ?

Looking forward threading an update xx

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Hi Laura ,
It’s been a while since you posted – I hope this means you are too busy living a great life. Thinking of you xx

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Hi Laura ,
It’s been a while since you posted – I hope this means you are too busy living a great life. Thinking of you xx

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Hi Laura ,
It’s been a while since you posted – I hope this means you are too busy living a great life. Thinking of you xx

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Hi Laura ,
It’s been a while since you posted – I hope this means you are too busy living a great life. Thinking of you xx

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So I have had a few gamble free days . I have clawed back some of the money I had lost. life is looking considerably brighter. I need my hair done , the dog needs to be groomed and I have some very big expenses this month.(nice weekend away with family and friends – can’t wait !).

. So I am thinking dry cut for me which is cheap and the dog’s grooming will come out of the money I save on a full hair styling and colour . Just for this month I need to save money!

Today I don’t feel the need to stay in bed for half of Saturday as usual. It is bright outside and the birds are singing -I am seriously considering whether I might have a touch of SAD. The brightness of the day is calling to me and I feel super motivated.
i am also wondering if this new energy comes from a decrease in screen time as I haven’t been in groups although I joined one of two where I noticed specific people had just posted.
Everything in moderation I guess.
It is too easy to live our lives in a virtual bubble nowadays as life passes us by. Even support can become detrimental when over done – I guess that could apply counselling , GA or anything which takes up so much time that we are not actually making the changes we need to in our lives.

I feel God is smiling on me ! I know he is !

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Hi Jezi,
My understanding that with any condition of the mind, nowadays the first priority is to sort out sleep- ie, to make sure the person is getting adequate sleep. In the past antidepressants etc were handed out like smarties. I think perhaps one tablet might break the cycle of not sleeping – but if you need more nights perhaps consider halving the tablets.

12 hours is a long time to sleep but you may have had a huge sleep deficit . It is also a great opportunity for brain healing .

Gambling addiction is a strange one as we don’t stuff chemicals into ourselves – we stuff money into machines etc.

It sounds like the counselling is right up your street- go for it.

A massive well done on your gamble free time !

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Sherrie
I am reading
Over-thinking
Skin picking
Gambling addiction

And I am thinking you absolutely should google a supplement called NAC.

If you forgive my straight talking – your mum is completely at fault.
As mums we have an absolute duty to make our children feel not only loved – but also likeable . Feeling liked by our parents is part of building well-being, self esteem and self value in our children.

You are very likeable – I like you lots – and no one on here is going to think any less of you because you exercise your absolute right to express your opinion – whether that opinion is about GA or anything else. In fact many of us love a good debate.

Finally I wish I had the magic words so that you could put down that bag of self doubt which your mother has wrongfully filled on your behalf.
Think about all the things you would want to fill a bag with for a child you are raising.
Better still – draw that bag so you can look at it often. Pick it up and let this be your new bag which you carry through life.

You are special and wonderful.xx

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