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Ah Sherrie – the best thing about arguing is making up . So glad u feeling happier xx

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Hi Lizbeth
Isn’t it great that you are not counting the days u til payday- that is progress indeed !
It is good to feel peaceful and well done to your daughter !
Xx

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Hi Nick
I haven’t been posting so much recently so it is a delight to read of your progress .
I like your insights which are real and not some regurgitated cliches !well done on making good choices and thank you for your always kind encouragement on my thread !

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Hi Lizbeth Thank you for your reply .

I am still not gamble free – small amounts but they add up- a twenty here , a twenty there , an account closed, a new account opened.

Gamstop is absolutely of no use and I have let other barriers go because I thought it was a solution.

In a actual fact since joining Gamstop I seem to be able to access a lot more sites – I wonder if the existence of Gamstop is allowing gambling sites to be less stringent with their own “in house” checks and procedures?

Anyway now that I know Gamstop doesn’t work it’s up to me to get back to the things that did work. I am counting the pennies until payday and feeling quite miserable about it .

I have more than many ( with or without addcitons) but it still feels like such a struggle. I feel the solution would be a win – of which I have had several ,but have been unable to stop and cash out – same old same old. My stinking thinking is still thinking stinking !

I have so much I want to do but similar to the last week before payday every month, my mind is consumed with addding and subtracting money – what’s different is my options are fewer – far fewer than they were even five years ago.

Everyday I think the madness has stopped -I I can handle this – and every day it doesn’t and I can’t .

Usually I hate to write about my gambling  on here because I have had so many counterproductive cliches and bible misquote replies.

That’s about it – not a very upbeat post but I’m not feeling terribly upbeat.

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My battery is about to go.
I get it – others have had the same experiences .
Men tend to get more support whether from their mums / partners etc.
Just stay strong – rem u are the bread winner! And let no one put u down !
Sorry gonna get cut off

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We were in chat – cud see ur name

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I honestly don’t find writing on an online journal terribly motivating – yet when I write in pen on paper it triggers something in my brain – perhaps more senses are being used and the brain gets the message in a variety of ways .

Today I did a similar plan to the one Monica described.
I put headings and a target end point for several areas of my life ( finances , home , career , looks etc ) and although I don’t know all the steps to get me there I wrote one tiny step I can do today to get me on my way. I realised that all these things are do not exist as isolated silos but are all interconnected and success happens when all are working together.

I also realise that finances are only one part of this – so trying to gamble my way to financial success while ignoring the other areas of my life is unlikely to bring me any kind of happiness, even if I managed to get that elusive win and hold on to it.

So that’s the theory – I now need to go back to the action part.
I am motivated and busy today !

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Monica
It is good to hear from some of the old crew ! Support has been scarce – I wish the open groups were earlier – and I’m not sure it’s even worth posting on my journal anymore!
But it is lovely to reconnect xx

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Hi Monica
I’m sorry to read you are feeling burnt out – I often feel that my work takes too much of me too so I get that feeling of “burn out”.
The fact fact they have given you an office means that they do appreciate you. Vera is right – no one really remembers or cares about our efforts we have left, and someone take s our places – but I guess that work is fulfilling some need on some level as you chose to stay – perhaps a need for security which was absent during the gambling years ?

I hope you feel lots better and I guess we need to remember to put ourselves first – whether that is in the work we chose or other parts of our lives .

Xx

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It’s not a gambling site 

It‘s a site to “protect  “people  with gambling addiction but  I’m not sure how many people have been let  down in the way I have !

They should not be above doing their jobs correctly .

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Thank you everyone for your posts

I have always valued my privacy so much.
I am afraid to write about the most trivial parts of my life on here in case I am recognised .
So I am not sure what has changed but I am considering taking legal action against an organisation (which is meant to protect people who are addicted to gambling ) for carelessly recording my details incorrectly and therefore denying me the protection I understood I had . ( not a support site)
Why can I not tell anyone I am addicted to gambling and yet feel I can face a very public case?
I think people get away with shabby work become they think we will never challenge ! We are too ashamed to draw attention to ourselves . We feel so low we want to hide and this means we are easy to exploit – how many of us have felt ripped off by casinos , bookies etc- but our shame stopped us from taking action .

I am going to contact some solicitors tomorrow I think! We know casinos benefit from our addciton.
Why should organisations which claim to help us ?

I might “come out”with a blast !

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Thank you Lizbeth and Vera

Plan has succeeded .

I am finding Kin’s prayer so amazing . It‘s hard to thank God for his grace which has stopped me from gambling and then gamble .

I used to have a gambling addciton but by the grace of God I no longer gamble .

Praise God

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If my solution doesn’t work out – I am planning another solution and I realise this is as low as I am going to go. I can’t believe the plan which is formulating in my previously honest mind. When did I become this person?

Please if you are reading this say a prayer things work out for me .

“I used to have a gambling addiction but by the grace of God I no longer gamble”

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Sorry I missed your group tonight Charles because the answer to your question is in the group title “shame and guilt “.

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Hi Steev
I want to tell you that you are wonderful support to others on here – because you are .
It is amazing sometimes the disconnect between how we see ourselves and how others see us .

It has made me think !

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