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Thank you Steev and Charles for your posts .
I can’t stop thinking about gambling for a second- this is about as bad as it has been. I am resisting mostly but I never seem to lose the urge to gamble.

I’m not sure if residential treatment can provide a miracle but it would be a very welcome miracle.

I want to go back to the days when I could walk into a car show room , pick a car I liked and just buy it … or the days when something breaking down wasn’t a crisis or the days when I valued myself enough to ensure I was beautifully groomed and well dressed.
I don’t know who this scruffy person is.

Somewhere along the way i have lost me –

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One more day to go before payday.
I have got by and thanks to a mini miracle I actually am having quite a good end to the month.
I feel the usual sense of relief. I know in a day and a bit my month’s wages will be in the bank.
My mind is doing its monthly spend on silver sparkly curtains, good quality grey paint and of course the savings towards the new kitchen. This is a monthly “mind-spend” which never materialises. The first day I buy nice groceries and even some clothes – by the end of the first week I am back to the usual struggle and unworn clothes are returned.

I have a telephone appointment to discuss the residential programme. Now that’s it is payday and I have survived, recovery has lost its urgency. Residential treatment doesn’t seem so necessary. I feel I can do it alone.

I guess I have a bad infection of stinkin’ thinkin’.

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Well done and keep strong Taz, one day at a time .

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Hi Austin,
You have made amazing progress and it strikes me you are doing some things which others could learn from. I have just read your thread from start to end.

1. You have been honest with your wife
2. You trust in God for the things you cannot control
3. You journal about your feelings
4. You prepare in advance for times you may be tempted
5. You try to see the good in others rather than blame them
when things go wrong.
6. You are so focused on family.
7. You are solution focused.

I am going to try practice these things also – thank you so much for sharing .

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Hi dev
The really good thing is you have recognised you have a problem while you still have money left.
We are all here because we all think we have a special winning streak .
Many of us started with a big win which reeled us in.
All of us think we can win back and none of us can walk away even if we do.
You have lost half your savings in a week.
The rest will go in less time than that.
Download a gambling blocker right now and look forward to having your funds restored in four months .
Order a new bank card and get someone to scratch off the numbers on the back with a coin so you cannot deposit .
Take the steps now or you will end up with no savings and in debt .
We all thought that wouldn’t happen to us.
Once we cross that line to addictive gambling we can never go back to normal gambling .

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Keep strong Taz !

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Hi Kolberg
I recommend you check out SMART recovery tools.
Go to the USA site – the U.K. one charges for everything!

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Didn’t stay too long up there!
Climbing back .
Great to have Vera to chat with tonight.
She “gets me”!
Onwards and upwards

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Nastavi! Nadam se da će biti lakše

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Continuă! Sper că devine mai ușor

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Продължавай! Дано стане все по -лесно

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बढ़ा चल! आशा है कि यह आसान हो रहा है

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Jätka! Loodetavasti läheb kergemaks

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Blijven gaan! Hoop dat het makkelijker wordt

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Continuer! J'espère que ça devient plus facile

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