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Well done on your gamble free time amg. I could see you In group last night and read your messages but there seemed to be a disconnect.
Keep strong

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Hi superstar
My understanding is hat you can close your accounts straight away and your balance will be returned to you.
So often in the past I had the same idea about stopping but got sucked in by the dreaded “reverse withdrawal “ and ended up with nothing .

I think your little girl starting school is an excellent reason to stop. It will ensure she isn’t the little girl with the tatty home and the shabby uniform !
Well done – keep writing .

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Hi Jen
I saw your name in group last night but we didn’t seem able to connect.
Well done on your gamble free time .
Keep doing what’s working for you
Xx

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Hi Vera
I often feel quite relieved when the money is all gone – the chase can be exhausting and the wheels cause the brain to spin non -stop. We can start to focus on building ourselves up again .

You will come back from this and know that you have many on here to support you as you rebuild
Xx

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Hi badger ,
Well done on self exclusion get and it is kind of you to offer help to others .
You will fight this and never look back .

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Hi Freedom,
Well done on recognising that you have a problem and well done on seeking help.
Shame is part of this addiction and stops many of us from seeking the help we need .
Perhaps you will make it to some of the groups and you will ge roots of advice there .
You have taken the first step to freedom.

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Great post Meghna .
Well done on walking away from the horrible life gambling addiction brings us .
Keep strong xx

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Thank you for sharing this Steev.
When I first read your post I thought I am never bored – i have Netflix , cable TV but in truth I guess these are quite boring for those of us who crave a little excitement . Winning is exciting , losing is certainly not boring and keeps our minds very active.

I also realise reading your post that I have recreated my own childhood to an extent- I have recreated my mother’s life which she was never quite satisfied with.

Your post has been very illuminating.

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Obrigado por compartilhar este Steev. Quando li sua postagem pela primeira vez, pensei que nunca ficaria entediado – tenho Netflix, TV a cabo, mas na verdade acho que são muito chatos para aqueles de nós que anseiam por um pouco de emoção. Ganhar é emocionante, perder certamente não é entediante e mantém nossas mentes muito ativas. Também percebi ao ler sua postagem que recriei minha própria infância até certo ponto – recriei a vida de minha mãe, com a qual ela nunca ficou muito satisfeita. Sua postagem foi muito esclarecedora.

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hi Monica , a huge congratulations on reaching the two year milestone – u have been on quite a journey !
I compulsively watch episode after episode on Netflix so I understand the gaming .
Your granddaughter sounds like a star in the making – does she get her musical ability from you ?
I hope you are enjoying the security of being in permanent employment Monica .
Xx

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hi Monica , a huge congratulations on reaching the two year milestone – u have been on quite a journey !
I compulsively watch episode after episode on Netflix so I understand the gaming .
Your granddaughter sounds like a star in the making – does she get her musical ability from you ?
I hope you are enjoying the security of being in permanent employment Monica .
Xx

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Hi Jen , I hope you are feeling better . You sound so like me – I get so far, life is picking up, finances are a little better , I start to look forward and plan … and then I self destruct .

Now that I am one day four I feel I have it sussed and maybe I don’t need the residential place. It’s the way my brain works – I am thinking of several reason why I shouldn’t go , but like yourself , I have been on this merry- go- round so often that I know it is the addiction trying to deceive me.

Really well done on your determination to ge to meeting . They can’t do any harm and maybe they will do a lot of good .

Keep strong , keep battling my friend xx

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I am on day four .
Just starting but a little richer and less stressed just the same.

Yesterday I actually found myself doing a huge amount of decluttering with my son. We had such a laugh going through the stuff and so many funny memories resurfaced. I have a little more to go and then we are going to paint his room. Just a few days gamble free and my brain has space to think about other things .

I go away tonight for a short holiday (a very cheap holiday) with hubby and son. I am looking forward to being by the sea and having time to completely relax.

Life could be so good if I continue to be gamble free.

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Thank you Steev,
It really helps to read an inderstanding post .
Yes it is much easier to admit that in the past you had a problem rather than today I blew half my wages .
Someone who appears on a tv show and says he/she has been sober for a year gets huge applause , but someone who arrives for interview under the influence is slated and never allowed to forget it.
It is the same with gambling .

Every single person on this site , whatever stage their addciton is at – recovery, active , relapse, starting again – each one of us is trying to do our personal best to stop. It’s not easy but we keep trying and we will eventually pull down barriers to stopping .

This summer I have not visited my mother alone – I know she is disappointed and it has been a difficult choice to make, but I also know that she is a huge barrier to my stopping . She will gamble anyway and I can’t stop her but I find it incredibly difficult to say no to a trip to the casino when I visit – not because of her addiction but because of my own. I want to go and get my fix . It’s the only time I visit a land casino so by not visiting I don’t get tempted .

None of us choose this way to live and all of us deserve to better.

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Thank you everyone for your replies.

I think we are all agreed that honesty is not always the best policy. We live such a secret life when we gamble and face such judgement.

Despite my many faults , I feel a huge sense of duty towards my work and perhaps this is what has saved me from completely destroying my life. Of course this could also be something I gamble to escape.

I am onto day 3- this betfilter is helping so much. It gives me freedom that goes beyond counting days. Taking away the option to gamble has caused a huge reduction in urges .

That’s about it – feeling positive about the future.

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