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Vera – I find myself thinking is there no end to this lady’s talents . This is an amazing piece of work .

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Vera – Tôi tự nghĩ rằng tài năng của người phụ nữ này là không có hồi kết. Đây là một tác phẩm tuyệt vời.

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Vera – Saya menemukan diri saya berpikir bahwa bakat wanita ini tidak ada habisnya. Ini adalah karya yang luar biasa.

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Vera – jeg tænker, er der ingen ende på denne dames talenter. Dette er et fantastisk stykke arbejde.

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Vera – ma avastan end mõttelt, et kas selle daami annetel pole lõppu. See on hämmastav töö.

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Vera – Mi ritrovo a pensare che non ci sia fine ai talenti di questa signora. Questo è un lavoro straordinario.

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Vera – aš galvoju, ar šios ponios talentai nesibaigia. Tai nuostabus kūrinys.

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Вера – Замислям се как няма край на талантите на тази дама. Това е невероятно произведение.

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वेरा – मैं खुद सोचती हूँ कि क्या इस महिला की प्रतिभा का कोई अंत नहीं है। यह एक अद्भुत कृति है।

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Vera – Huomaan miettiväni, ettei tämän naisen kyvyillä ole loppua. Tämä on hämmästyttävä teos.

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Vera – jag tror att det finns inget slut på den här damens talanger. Det här är ett fantastiskt arbete.

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Thank you Sean.
I really appreciate your posts- you are most generous in how you take time to reply to so many people.

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Today I am 18 weeks gamble free.
I so enjoy checking my bank account and noting there is enough there.
Enough is a great feeling after a decade of uncertainty.

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Hi squirrel
As you move forward in life, you will learn to forgive yourself, to develop compassion for the person who never asked for but was nonetheless struck down with this addiction.

If I wrote the above post what would you reply to me ? Would you tell me I deserve the shame and the guilt or would you tell me that I am taking action to stop this horrible addiction in its tracks and I deserve to be commended for that?

Self-compassion is a huge part of recovery – because for all we have hurt other people, we have hurt ourselves more. We need to be kind to that person inside us (our inner child?) who became lost in addiction and who has struggled to break free from it.

Addiction is not a choice we make – recovery however is !

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Today as I start my fifth gamble free month -I ponder at the amount of space in my brain.

It used to be so full of everything to do with gambling with a tiny bit devoted to getting by – I guess if I wanted to label it I could say I was a functional “gambaholic” on the verge of no longer being functional!

It occurs to me that mind is quite empty – while others spent the last decade developing themselves in one way or another, I stood still . I can’t even say I was a passive observer- I was too engrossed in gambling to observe.

I now understand why Netflix has become a great friend since I stopped gambling – there is a void in my brain- like those children who cannot occupy themselves once gaming is removed. I also seem to spend a lot of time in online chats.

I have tried book club which I loved but cannot seem to discipline myself to actually read the books!

Now that I am aware I guess I can do something about it !

Perhaps I should learn a new instrument or a new language nor even revive an old one !

I guess an empty brain mean options – that can’t be a bad thing !

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