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Vera – azon kapom magam, hogy azt gondolom, nincs vége ennek a hölgynek a tehetségének. Ez egy elképesztő alkotás.

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Βέρα – Σκέφτομαι ότι δεν υπάρχει τέλος στα ταλέντα αυτής της κυρίας. Αυτό είναι ένα καταπληκτικό έργο.

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Vera – Ich denke, die Talente dieser Dame sind endlos. Dies ist eine erstaunliche Arbeit.

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Віра – я думаю, що талантам цієї жінки немає кінця. Це дивовижний твір.

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Vera – es domāju, ka šīs dāmas talantiem nav gala. Tas ir pārsteidzošs darbs.

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Vera – I find myself thinking is there no end to this lady’s talents . This is an amazing piece of work .

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ヴェラ-私はこの女性の才能に終わりはないと思っています。これは素晴らしい作品です。

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Vera – Eu me pego pensando que o talento dessa senhora não tem fim. Este é um trabalho incrível.

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Vera – Kendimi bu hanımın yeteneklerinin sonu yok mu diye düşünürken buluyorum. Bu harika bir eser.

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Vera – Mă gândesc că nu are sfârșit talentele acestei doamne. Aceasta este o lucrare uimitoare.

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Vera – Me encuentro pensando que los talentos de esta dama no tienen fin. Este es un trabajo asombroso.

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Thank you Sean.
I really appreciate your posts- you are most generous in how you take time to reply to so many people.

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Today I am 18 weeks gamble free.
I so enjoy checking my bank account and noting there is enough there.
Enough is a great feeling after a decade of uncertainty.

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Hi squirrel
As you move forward in life, you will learn to forgive yourself, to develop compassion for the person who never asked for but was nonetheless struck down with this addiction.

If I wrote the above post what would you reply to me ? Would you tell me I deserve the shame and the guilt or would you tell me that I am taking action to stop this horrible addiction in its tracks and I deserve to be commended for that?

Self-compassion is a huge part of recovery – because for all we have hurt other people, we have hurt ourselves more. We need to be kind to that person inside us (our inner child?) who became lost in addiction and who has struggled to break free from it.

Addiction is not a choice we make – recovery however is !

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Today as I start my fifth gamble free month -I ponder at the amount of space in my brain.

It used to be so full of everything to do with gambling with a tiny bit devoted to getting by – I guess if I wanted to label it I could say I was a functional “gambaholic” on the verge of no longer being functional!

It occurs to me that mind is quite empty – while others spent the last decade developing themselves in one way or another, I stood still . I can’t even say I was a passive observer- I was too engrossed in gambling to observe.

I now understand why Netflix has become a great friend since I stopped gambling – there is a void in my brain- like those children who cannot occupy themselves once gaming is removed. I also seem to spend a lot of time in online chats.

I have tried book club which I loved but cannot seem to discipline myself to actually read the books!

Now that I am aware I guess I can do something about it !

Perhaps I should learn a new instrument or a new language nor even revive an old one !

I guess an empty brain mean options – that can’t be a bad thing !

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