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Hi kin,
nThank you for sharing.
nReading your post I realise that when I stay up late the addiction also stirs within me. It is like a beast waiting for the cover of night and for the weakness of tiredness.
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nYou have shown great discipline in doing to right things at the right time. You show great self awareness and I find your posts very helpful – I read almost every day even though I post a lot leas than I used to.
nKeep strong Kin.

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Hi steev
nGreat post! I looked up the people you mentioned. Most interesting .
nIt’s a horrible time right now and lockdown has affected us all in one way or another. Having a bad tummy can’t help. Hope you are feeling better.
nThank God we don’t have to add gambling and being skint to the list of depressing stuff right now.
nTake care – talk soon!
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Hi Lizbeth
nOverwhelm is a huge trigger for many of us- what can you cut out or postpone? Can u order food in instead of cooking? How can you be kind to yourself and lighten your load.
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nYou have come so far, practice some mindfulness today and ride out the urges – remember gambling won’t help – it will just put off the feeling of overwhelm for a few hours and then it will return accompanied by a plethora of other negative feelings such as shame, guilt, regret…
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nYou can do this – stay strong. Feelings pass but money takes a long time to recoup. Replay the tape of your last loss in your head. You’ve got this Lizbeth.

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Ed I think that’s a really good question – I think what you are asking is are there others who have sank as far as you feel you have or are you completely out of control and beyond hope?
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nI often had big wins – most of us have- and one day I realised that I would never ‘win’ again because I had lost the ability to withdraw no matter how much I won. I would stay playing for hours and hours until the balance eventually reached zero.
nI would promise myself when I reached a certain amount I would withdraw only to ignore my promise once I reached that amount.
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nI also realised quite quickly that by not gambling those amounts built up in my bank anyway … ok a lot slower than with a win but the money is in my bank rather than in my dreams!
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nI needed a lot of support to stop gambling but I have been stopped for almost a year – it sometimes is a battle still and I guess I will have that temptation for a long time.
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nI would suggest you talk to your doctor or an organisation which offers support such as counselling. GA is a good start but many of us need more than that. I could have gambled for 24 hours until my money ran out but I managed to stop with the right support.
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nSo in answer to your question the answer is yes , there are people similar to you who could not withdraw no matter how big the win, who felt they could never stop but who are now living happy gamble free lives. You can do it too and you deserve to be free from this as much as anyone else.
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Hi James
I’m so sorry to read about your recent relapse .
When I hear gambling disorder and OCD in the same sentence I immediately wonder if the supplement NAC might help?
It might be worth your while googling it and checking with your doctor if you could take it.

It’s hard to admit to a relapse but you should feel proud of yourself for your honesty both on here and to your wife. Also well done for reaching out for support.

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Aw so sad. RIP dear Bettie x

…and thank you Kathryn for letting us know.

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Hi Sj
Delighted to hear your surgery went well.
Also delighted to hear you have no thought s of gambling.
Look forward to catching up with you in groups next week
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Hope all is good with you Vera.

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Bedankt Charles

Mijn kleine broeikas heeft het zwaar te verduren gehad in de storm. Het woelt en draait door babyplanten en heeft ze uit hun potten gegooid. Ik heb mijn best gedaan om ze te redden.

Ik was van plan te schrijven over hoe ik me niet langer van gokken onthoud. Ik bedoel niet dat ik heb gegokt, ik bedoel dat mijn focus nu ligt op meer gewone dingen zoals het behangen dat ik ga doen of mijn tuin.

Als ik naar de voedselwinkel ga, ben ik niet op zoek naar koopjes, ik zoek naar interessante nieuwe voedselwinkels om te proberen. Ik krijg zelfs een voorliefde voor biologisch vlees!

Als ik in een winkel rondsnuffel, ga ik niet voorbij aan de “frivole” dingen; Ik koop ze en geniet ervan. Wie had kunnen weten dat ik echt een hond nodig had met oplichtende ogen in mijn tuin? Het laat me lachen.

Gisteren was ik in m&s en de schoenen die een jaar geleden zo duur zouden zijn geweest, leken me een goede investering. Ik denk eerder aan 'sleutelstukken' dan aan kringloopwinkels.

Desondanks ben ik voorzichtiger met mijn geld dan ooit. Ik weet dat ik collegegeld moet kunnen betalen, mijn auto moet upgraden, mijn huis moet upgraden en misschien mij moet upgraden!

Het leven is geweldig in herstel. Als je dat nog niet hebt gedaan, kom dan aan boord.

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Terima kasih Charles

Rumah kaca kecilku telah dihantam badai. Itu dilemparkan dan dibalik oleh tanaman bayi dan telah melemparkannya dari pot mereka. Saya telah melakukan yang terbaik untuk menyelamatkan mereka.

Saya bermaksud menulis tentang bagaimana saya tidak lagi berpantang dari perjudian. Saya tidak bermaksud berjudi, maksud saya fokus saya sekarang adalah pada hal-hal yang lebih biasa seperti wallpapering yang akan saya lakukan atau kebun saya.

Ketika saya pergi berbelanja makanan, saya tidak mencari makanan murah, saya mencari toko makanan baru yang menarik untuk dicoba. Saya bahkan mengembangkan rasa untuk daging organik!

Ketika saya pergi untuk melihat-lihat toko, saya tidak mengabaikan hal-hal yang "sembrono"; Saya membelinya dan menikmatinya. Siapa yang tahu saya benar-benar membutuhkan seekor anjing dengan mata menyala tergantung di kebun saya? Membuatku tersenyum.

Kemarin saya berada di m&s dan sepatu yang seharusnya sangat mahal setahun yang lalu, tampak seperti investasi yang bagus. Saya berpikir tentang "potongan kunci" daripada potongan toko amal.

Meskipun demikian, saya lebih berhati-hati dengan uang saya daripada sebelumnya. Saya tahu saya harus mampu membayar biaya kuliah, mengupgrade mobil saya, mengupgrade rumah saya dan mungkin mengupgrade saya!

Hidup itu hebat dalam pemulihan. Jika Anda belum melakukannya, silakan bergabung.

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Благодаря ти Чарлз

Моята малка оранжерия е потрошена в бурята. Той се мяташе и обръщаше от бебешки растения и ги изхвърляше от саксиите им. Направих всичко възможно да ги спася.

Възнамерявах да пиша за това как вече не се въздържам от хазарт. Не искам да кажа, че съм залагал, искам да кажа, че сега се фокусирам върху по -обикновени неща, като тапети, които предстои да направя, или градината ми.

Когато отивам да пазарувам храни, не търся изгодна храна, търся интересен магазин за нови храни, който да опитам. Дори развивам вкус към био месо!

Когато обикалям магазин, не заобикалям „несериозните“ неща; Купувам ги и им се наслаждавам. Кой би могъл да знае, че наистина имам нужда от куче със светещи очи, висящо в градината ми? Кара ме да се усмихвам.

Вчера бях в m & s и обувките, които биха били толкова скъпи преди една година, изглеждаха като добра инвестиция. По-скоро мисля за „ключове“, отколкото за благотворителни магазини.

Въпреки това съм по -внимателен с парите си, отколкото някога съм бил. Знам, че трябва да мога да плащам такси за колеж, да надграждам колата си, да надграждам дома си и може би да ме надграждам!

Животът е чудесен за възстановяване. Ако все още не сте го направили, елате на борда.

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Merci Charles

Ma petite serre a pris un coup dans la tempête. Il a tourné et retourné par les jeunes plantes et les a jetés de leurs pots. J'ai fait de mon mieux pour les sauver.

J'avais l'intention d'écrire sur la façon dont je ne m'abstiens plus de jouer. Je ne veux pas dire que j'ai joué, je veux dire que je me concentre maintenant sur des choses plus ordinaires comme le papier peint que je m'apprête à faire ou mon jardin.

Quand je vais au magasin d'alimentation, je ne cherche pas de bonnes affaires, je cherche de nouveaux magasins d'alimentation intéressants à essayer. Je développe même un goût pour la viande bio !

Quand je vais faire un tour dans un magasin, je ne contourne pas les choses « frivoles » ; Je les achète et les apprécie. Qui aurait pu savoir que j'avais vraiment besoin d'un chien aux yeux brillants accroché dans mon jardin ? Cela me fait sourire.

Hier j'étais chez m&s et les chaussures qui auraient été si chères il y a un an, semblaient être un bon investissement. Je pense à des « pièces-clés » plutôt qu'à des pièces de magasin de charité.

Malgré cela, je fais plus attention à mon argent que je ne l'ai jamais été. Je sais que je dois être en mesure de payer les frais de scolarité, de moderniser ma voiture, de moderniser ma maison et peut-être de me mettre à niveau !

La vie est belle dans la récupération. Si vous ne l'avez pas déjà fait, n'hésitez pas à monter à bord.

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धन्यवाद चार्ल्स

मेरे छोटे से ग्रीनहाउस ने तूफान में दस्तक दी है। यह बच्चों के पौधों द्वारा उछाला और घुमाया गया और उन्हें उनके बर्तनों से फेंक दिया गया। मैंने उन्हें बचाने की पूरी कोशिश की है।

मेरा इरादा इस बारे में लिखने का था कि कैसे मैं अब जुए से दूर नहीं रह रहा हूँ। मेरा मतलब यह नहीं है कि मैंने जुआ खेला है, मेरा मतलब है कि मेरा ध्यान अब अधिक सामान्य चीजों पर है जैसे कि मैं जो वॉलपैरिंग करने वाला हूं या मेरा बगीचा।

जब मैं भोजन की खरीदारी के लिए जाता हूं तो मैं सस्ते भोजन की तलाश नहीं कर रहा हूं, मैं कोशिश करने के लिए दिलचस्प नए खाद्य पदार्थों की दुकान की तलाश करता हूं। मैं भी जैविक मांस के लिए एक स्वाद विकसित कर रहा हूँ!

जब मैं एक दुकान के आसपास ब्राउज़ करने के लिए जाता हूं, तो मैं "तुच्छ" चीजों को दरकिनार नहीं कर रहा हूं; मैं उन्हें खरीद रहा हूं और उनका आनंद ले रहा हूं। कौन जान सकता था कि मुझे वास्तव में अपने बगीचे में लटकी आँखों वाले कुत्ते की ज़रूरत है? इससे मुझे हंसी आती है।

कल मैं एम एंड एस में था और जो जूते एक साल पहले इतने महंगे होते थे, वे एक अच्छे निवेश की तरह लग रहे थे। मैं चैरिटी शॉप पीस के बजाय "की-पीस" सोच रहा हूं।

इसके बावजूद मैं अपने पैसे को लेकर पहले से कहीं ज्यादा सावधान हूं। मुझे पता है कि मुझे कॉलेज की फीस का भुगतान करने, अपनी कार को अपग्रेड करने, अपने घर को अपग्रेड करने और शायद मुझे अपग्रेड करने में सक्षम होने की आवश्यकता है!

वसूली में जीवन महान है। यदि आपने पहले से ऐसा नहीं किया है, तो कृपया ऑन-बोर्ड आएं।

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Hvala Charles

Moj mali staklenik pretrpio je udare u oluji. Bacale su ga mlade biljke i bacale ih iz lonaca. Dao sam sve od sebe da ih spasim.

Namjeravao sam pisati o tome kako se više ne suzdržavam od kockanja. Ne mislim na to da sam se kockao, mislim da mi je sada fokus na običnijim stvarima poput tapetiranja koje ću napraviti ili na svom vrtu.

Kad idem u kupovinu hrane, ne tražim jeftinu hranu, tražim zanimljivu novu trgovinu s hranom koju mogu isprobati. Čak i razvijam ukus za organsko meso!

Kad pregledavam dućan, ne zaobilazim "neozbiljne" stvari; Kupujem ih i uživam. Tko je mogao znati da mi u mom vrtu zaista treba pas sa svijetlim očima? Izmami mi osmijeh.

Jučer sam bila u m & s -u, a cipele koje bi prije godinu dana bile toliko skupe činile su se kao dobra investicija. Mislim prije na "ključeve", nego na komade u humanitarne svrhe.

Unatoč tome, s novcem sam oprezniji nego što sam ikada bio. Znam da moram moći platiti fakultetske pristojbe, nadograditi automobil, nadograditi svoj dom i možda nadograditi mene!

Život je sjajan u oporavku. Molimo vas da uđete ako to već niste učinili.

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Thank you Charles

My little greenhouse has taken a battering in the storm. It tossed and turned by baby plants and has thrown them from their pots. I have done my best to rescue them.

I intended writing about how I am no longer abstaining from gambling. I don’t mean I have gambled, I mean my focus is now on more ordinary things like the wallpapering I am about to do or my garden.

When I go to the food shopping I am not searching for bargain food, I look for interesting new foods shop to try. I even am developing a taste for organic meat!

When I go for a browse around a shop, I am not bypassing the “frivolous” things; I am buying them and enjoying them. Who could have know I really needed a dog with light up eyes hanging in my garden ? It makes me smile.

Yesterday I was in m&s and the shoes which would have been so expensive a year ago, seemed like a good investment. I am thinking “key- pieces” rather than charity shop pieces.

Despite this I am more careful with my money than I have ever been. I know I need to be able to pay college fees, upgrade my car, upgrade my home and maybe upgrade me!

Life is great in recovery. If you haven’t already done so, please come on-board.

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