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Hi Geordie ,
I think I never remember having 25 days without a gamble.
Even as a child I used play cards for pennies

Yes this is new and this is good .
It is changing me too – maybe my character isn’t improving much – but my priorities seem to be rearranging themselves.

I am thinking of letting go management responsibilities at work and putting the time into family .
I am thinking I will lose a little pay but then I remember I have been using only a small fraction of my pay for living expenses .
I want to have the time to explore other things which I never could in the past.
Maybe I am simply losing my marbles – who asks to be demoted ?

Speaking wasn’t all that pleasant – I think i didn’t know where to start and there were so many people to talk. I ran out of steam very fast – maybe because I have lived like a saint !!

I think for me I have to accept that I cannot change – or I will never be cured
.i like other things that are happening in my life tho – I am getting my son back -we had been less close of late – little wonder when I have spent the Last eight years of his young life trying to get him to go and amuse himself – so mummy could amuse herself –
I have a quiet contentment growing inside me – it’s growing slowly and it’s partner is sadness –
Tonight I felt so deeply sad over my daddy – I felt like my guts were being pulled from deep inside me – and he died a decade ago .

I think maybe I am a little crazy and the gambling masked it . My moods are changing like never before – but then I am a lady of a certain agen so maybe that’s it .

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Day 25- I have just left my GA meeting .

Less scary this time and I actually spoke .
Think I sounded silly .

The man who gambled this week looked at me in disgust I think but maybe the disgust was at himself . Maybe it’s ok for men to be sneaky and gamble but a woman should be better than that ? Not sure .

Knew I had it go tonight cos I got a very familiar feeling.

I felt I was cured !

Been cured so often it’s beyond funny .

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Hi dotty – well done on seeking help for this horrible addiction.
Try to get to the groups later on – just go up to the tab on top of this page and check out support groups .

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Keep writing on here all day Eraser- go to the groups which are on tonight- distract yourself all night long and go to bed with another gamble free day under ur belt

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Hi Laura ,
Thats a great post.
I am on day 25 and just realised I had forgotten my morning post today .
It’s so easy to let things slip and become complacent.
Gambling didn’t enter my head today so I guess not gambling didn’t either .
Thank you for reminding us all.

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Thank you Vera .
Day 25
No time to write but will do later

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Lol!
I stand corrected !

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Does every woman have a huffing , puffing grump in their life or are we just the lucky ones ? Lol.

Monica – I physically couldn’t do lots of jobs nowadays – so I get it !

I am wondering if you could see someone like a job coach at the job centre who could maybe point you in the direction of jobs where your skills are transferable .
But that’s probably me reading too many internet solutions and such a person most likely doesn’t exist .
Actually I think they might have someone like that at good recruitment agencies .

Get well – enjoy the walnut whirl moments in life and give yourself a break from the pressure of the future .

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What a loving gesture .
Wish someone would throw chocolate at me – we fight over who ate the last bar lol.
– and he cooked you a roast dinner .
Not a bad Sunday !

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One day at a time .
Great poem Samarks!

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One day at a time .
Great poem Samarks!

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Hi James ,
Well done on your honesty –
Buy a gambling blocker for your laptop or phone .
Betfilter or gamblock .
It will mean that even if you are tempted you will have time to think things through

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You want to gamble but you haven’t you have posted on here instead.
You can decide not to gamble for the rest of today.
That’s all any of us can do on here .
We are all as close to our next bet as you are . Every single one of us no matter how much free time we have clocked up .
We are all the same – and we all have the same ability to put it off for today
Check out the GA site – there is lots of literature (top right corner of page) which U can read – I never tire of reading it and get something new from it each time
. Hope this helps .

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GOd has your back Monica – and mine!

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Great honesty Monica.
It kinda reminds me of when I was gambling – if you don’t mind me making the connection .
I simply could not bear to play small money – but at the end of the session when I was desperate to stay in the action I would be thrilled to find a pound in my account and play 10p spins . Then I would ask myself if I can play 10p spins now why did I not do so all night instead of leaving myself broke?

I’m actually not sure how that relates to what you have written but it just reminded me of it .

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