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Brilliant poem Geordie
Thank God the gambling bubble has burst

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शानदार कविता जियोर्डी थैंक गॉड जुए का बुलबुला फूट चुका है

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Poème brillant Geordie Dieu merci, la bulle du jeu a éclaté

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Brilantní báseň Geordie Díky bohu bublina hazardu praskla

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Genialny wiersz Geordie Dzięki Bogu, bańka hazardowa pękła

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Brillante poesia Geordie Grazie a Dio la bolla del gioco d'azzardo è scoppiata

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Bài thơ tuyệt vời Geordie Cảm ơn Chúa bong bóng cờ bạc đã vỡ

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Блестящее стихотворение Джорди Слава богу, пузырь азартных игр лопнул

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Well done 3raser,
You have taken many positive steps to stay gamble free.
The counselling sounds really good.
Keep strong !

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Hehe- sorry to hear I have been affecting your sleep.
Your posts always lift me so much .
Thank u

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Thank you Vera , Geordie and Johnny .
When I am in the uk I am going to go to Morrisons .
90 days seems a long time when your mind is kind of made up but I will give it a go . 6 days gone.
I have been doing my secret trial Geordie and I like it .
A colleague of mine who was ousted in a hurtful way said the biggest regret he had looking back over his career was the amount of time spent at work.
At the end of the day each of us is just a number in a system – no matter how much we love our work or how fulfilling it is .
If we drop dead today someone will be in our place tomorrow .
Once we leave we are rarely mentioned past the first week or two.
Our families remember our input forever – they look back and laugh or cry over memories .
They remember how we made them feel forever .
My world just seems clearer now .
By the way I am not stepping down because have given up .
I am stepping down because I grasping. another dream that I never dared to dream.

90 days – the problem with that is sometimes when you have reached a decision you whole body and soul has moved oN.
You are no longer able to fulfil your function in that role because your mindset is too far away from
Where it needs to be .

Change is hard – but it is also exciting .
I have options now .
Day 27- a full month tomorrow (if it was February lol).
I will not gamble today.
I know I will not gamble again soon – the mind shift has been Catastrophic – nothing is the same – my whole world has shifted and I feel a little lost in it .

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Chat?

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Thank you Monica and p
I just wrote a post and it deleted .
Hate when that happens so write a summary .

1. I have not shared a Facebook post to win anything since I stopped gambling – I am sure the devil would send me my first win on there if he felt it would keep the addiction alive .
2. I have not given work long enough to see how it is without gambling in the picture .

It is so tempting to change everything at once .
I have so many pieces to pick up in my life .
Would I even see them if I was still gambling?

Tomorrow is day 27.

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Great to read you are feeling so much more upbeat .
It so good to get out of the house and you are so right not to let your standards drop .
Life is on the up Monica

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Thank you Laura – I saw you had posted and popped into group on the off chance you would be there-I think I fell asleep very fast after that . I would be really interested in reading that resource .
Geordie everything you say is so true .
I think I have two aces up my sleeve

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1. I know he money is gone and is never coming back and I accept that so it frees me to live a good life in recovery rather than punish myself for the past by depriving myself and my family with the new money which God will provide .i don’t need to get back to where I was – I need to live every day and be grateful for life .
2.I know the big win is never going to happen- because of the way I am . I totally understand why so many lottery winners end up destitute – as Laura describes it all to do with the chemical shifts in the brain- a normal relationship with money is no more .

I am having a “secret” trial run at a lower level- I am leaving work a few hours earlier. It is brilliant ! The evening stretches before me – there is no panic or rush – there is time for everyone to talk and be heard , to laugh and relax .

My mind is half made up but something is holding me back – it is that I am reminding myself not to be impulsive – think this through, give it time – the decision will still be there is a few weeks.

That’s it for this morning. Day 26 – not bad for someone who thought they could never stop .

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