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Absolutely fantastic post Geordie – honest and real .

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Hi Tina ,
I think the GA guidelines are don’t tell people if it will cause them damage – and I think you have made the right decision with regards to your elderly parents .
I don’t tell people because I know how much it would damage my son. There is a thin line between relieving ourselves of our guilt and actually putting our pain and shame on to others.
You have really good insight and are not blindly following anyone else’s opinion. Well done on your decisiveness.

Hope today goes well with your partner ! Will be thinking of you .

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You should probably start your own thread – go to bottom
Of page and click new topic .
There is no cure but u can put barriers in place like gambling blocks on ur computer or phone .
Cut up all cards
But mostly I have to accept that what’s gone is gone
U will get lots of advice and suppprt on here

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I stopped counting my days of recovery when I had a lapse .
That was a silly thing to do as many have said abstinence and recovery are completely different things .
I am not aiming for abstinence -(although it would be good ) I’m aiming for recovery .
So I reckon I am about two months into my recovery now .
I am not competing with anyone .
I don’t need to remember a date of my last bet – I just need to know I am in recovery and working on my faults and my life .

If others wish to mark their recovery differently that’s entirely their business – as maverick puts it – what they think of me is entirely their own business also – I only need to worry about what I think of me .
I am not going to let one , two or even six errors of judgment effect my thinking so that I feel I have made no progress.

Some people need those day and dates- and that s great –
I need to know that I am being honest with myself -and my recovery is so much longer than the last bet I placed .
It is so much greater than the few weeks that represents .
I am so much happier with my life than weeks can change .

In truth I have been slowly embracing recovery for two years – I have never went back to the dark days of the past .

I have grown as a person , I have dramatically reduced debts , I have not gambled for almost all of it .
I know from friends on here it doesn’t work like this for everyone – some people gamble once and immediately thrown back into a full scale relapse .
I have never been without enough money in the past two years(more would have been nice ) . I have never felt the same unhappiness .

For me recovery is about learning, improving and moving forward – whAts the point in recovery otherwise ?

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Hi Laura ,
It’s great that you can crush those thoughts when they come. It so much better to look at the nice gifts you bought and remember your fun shopping trip than to have the guilt, self hatred and regret that gambling brings . Well done

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Hi Tina , I am no expert and have not been in this situation, but I think it is probably protocol and they are just making sure they have crossed all the t’s.
I am glad you are in no danger -hope your gamble free life is going great .

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I get little from posting here anymore – does anyone post on any other sites ? Are they helpful? Are they monitored ?
Just wondering …
Edit I am going to accept that the person who posted the very nasty post directed at me once again used very poor judgment and move on – like the title of this thread says! Lack of self awareness is just what it is .

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Hi Kin. What will power you must have – I tried keto diets a few times but I became so angry I had to stop. It had a huge effect on my mood.
This makes me wonder if all food we eat effects our mood .
I did lose some weight really fast .
Dieting is so hard – but it is horrible being over weight and breathless too- and clothes shopping is a nightmare.
Maybe I wil follow your lead and try to lose a few pounds before Christmas .
Keep strong !

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Hi Laura and P , the show was a comedy lol.

To be honest – a huge change for me is that I am content to sit in- I think I prefer that to a night out .
In the past I found it really hard to sit in.
Not sure if this is good , but I think it’s because I feel so much more content in myself – I have lost the restlessness I used to have
.rambling now .. time for bed

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Hi P ,hope things getting a little easier – the show was good but I’m tired now – getting old- but happy!
Keep strong

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Ps spoke to Sam in chat and he/ she listened – maybe that’s all it took! Several chats later ! Sometimes it’s nice to be heard !

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Laura thank you for your lovely post .
I am better at speaking out too but still if possible I prefer to keep the peace . My motto – live and let live. However looking back I can see I often don’t live up to this !
I am kinda secretly hoping Geordie will come back and write on my thread – ( what a confusion I am ).

Here’s the thing Laura – I am (like always ) afraid to buy a few cushions in case I run short – I feel I should be saving for Bigger things like the sofa I saw – but in the end the money sits until it is eventually gambled. This has been the pattern for years . There is something very amiss with my thinking. .

I’m afraid I won’t make it to group tonight because …drum roll… I am going to a show !!! And I probably will have a few wines .

Now the biggest change in me – I cannot stop laughing at stuff – happy laughter – hearty laughter -light and silly laughter .
Either I am completely losing my marbles or the old me is returning . I feel light and that nothing or no one in the world is dragging me down . Yeah relationships are hard at times but when u feel happy u deal with stuff in a happy way .

I’m kinda happy and I’m going to enjoy it !

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Thank you Kathryn,
It’s great to have closure on things which bother us .

So I went shopping – was stuff I would love for my house and the only way I could think to get them was gamble .
That’s despite building up quite a bit of gamble free time.
I didn’t – I am more aware of my thinking – but it never really goes away – unless I guess we totally replace the addiction with meetings or something else which will eat into family time .

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Think you made the right decision P- Netflix is a better option!
I hate mornings

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Hi Laura ,
Thanks for your very honest post .

I just read Geordie ‘ s very nice post on his thread- I must say that despite our recent disagreement he has been a wonderful help to me on here in the past .

Did u ever put your time and energy into one issue while trying to ignore the real reason you were upset ?

Life is too short to hold grudges – we are all a product of our lives to date – and those lives to date have led us all to a forum for people who have a gambling addiction.

And as Geordie rightly pointed out – we are all the very same distance from our next bet – even if our last one was a second ago .

Life is good – i have a lot of reasons to be happy .i have a lot of reasons to be grateful

Going now to say my novena for Monica – I have completely lost track of how many days I have done.- but extra prayers can’t hurt

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