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Hi Monica ,
Your posts are sounding so much more positive -you have a lot of options !! And you will have counselling to help you sift through those options
Life is on the up !

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Well done Tina .
I find it harder to resist food than to resist gambling so extra well done.
I am feeling quite envious that you have such lovely hot weather while I am so close to the electric heater I might just cook.

Keep going Tina – you are doing great

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Hi Mav ,
I hope all goes well with the scan.
It is a worry but please God you will get good news .
Glad to read you had good Christmas .

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I feel like a potato which has been mashed .

I survived being pulled from the ground
I survived being peeled
I survived being boiled
I can survive being mashed …
…so long as no one eats me !

Well I am Irish … it had to be spuds !

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Alliesmum
We never know how our words can affect others or how a simple post can influence another’s recovery.

After being advised to do so for years by the many good members and staff on here , I am giving up control of my money . Your thread had somehow inspired me and I have discussed with my husband and an writing tonight to have my wages paid into his account .

I have no idea how this has happened -but thank you !
Maybe that coin was meant for all of us on here .

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I think it’s only one thread Monica and I am grateful Charles has taken this step.
I don’t want to start it all up again so I will maybe catch you later in group .
Your post made me smile – Monica for the people lol!

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.. but I guess crying is better than gambling.

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…and now I just want to curl up and cry!
Feeling beaten down!

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Hey Charles –
I had just emailed Sam and the thank you was for him.
So thank you to you instead .i really appreciate it !

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Thank you !

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Kin I never knew there was that extra bit to the serenity prayer . I am going to recite to daily – it makes the serenity feel so much more powerful .
Thank you for sharing

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Thank you Monica
I feel issues sometimes come into my head – I guess I am quite an abstract thinker – and you have the ability to see exactly what I am talking about and develop it more- with such intelligence that I find myself in awe.

I was writing the post below when you were posting me – you see a similar trait – do you think the trait is naivety? Or maybe a softness which others see as weakness ?
Or maybe just a plain lack of assertiveness – does that come from a lack of self esteem orself value ?
I would be interested in your take on it .

I also am chuffed that you recognise a similarity in us – I would be proud to be like you any day !

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This post is not directed at anyone – it is a reflection of where I am at today and might help someone who can identity with it.
It is about my experience and my reflections on it –

I am posting a lot today .
I have had a monumental shift in my thinking .
My mother always told me, even as an adult , that I trust too easily. It has been such a hugely recurring theme in my life for the past six days I need to reflect on it. I have realised that maybe I am naive. That doesn’t mean I cannot battle when attacked , it’s just that I am caught completely off guard when attacks come. I don’t see them coming and I’m often not quite sure why they came.

I take people as they are . I believe in the basic good in people. Unless something is very obviously making me feel put down or inadequate I give people the benefit of doubt .

I kinda assume people do the same with me. This is an advantage in my particular line of work because no matter what mistakes are made , I am able to see the good in prople.I don’t hold grudges when things have been resolved – I trust naively that others are the same.

Currently it is like life is sending me huge sign posts -“STOP TRUSTING ” . Wake up and smell the coffee burning .

I have in the past week had an experience in my personal life which has shaken me to my very core – I was confused about somethings and it turned out that someone in my personal life was all the time listening to a manipulative person and assigning all kinds of motives to me .- I have had an experience on here where I genuinely felt I was helping someone and it feels like something similar has happened .

I had a similar experience with f and f some years ago where a person was texting and emailing me about f and f , generally winding me up and of course they came out smelling of roses while I jumped in with both feet.

I am naive – I lack something – I’m not sure what – some kind of awareness – maybe I’m on some kind of spectrum -maybe I’m not politically aware – I don’t know
But how can someone get so many knocks and still go back for more – trusting that people are like me and don’t hold grudges , have basically good motives and see me as a person with basically good motives?

I need barriers in my life – and they have nothing to do with gambling – I need to build a barrier around me to keep people out and to protect me inside !

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Wow that seems so long away .
Well done and please share the things again that helped you- some of us learn very slowly !
I have not gambled since 2017.
I am happy about that .
Keep posting !

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Hi Mav,
How is new year treating you ?
Hope it is being kind .

Looking forward to an update from you .

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