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  • in reply to: Taking the first step to getting my life back #35750
    i-did-it
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    Hi 3racer,

    I haven’t gambled since last year !

    It great to hear how much progress you have made and in a way I guess that fear is healthy . It is such a short journey down and yet takes such effort to climb back up again.

    It sounds like you are very self aware and. Have taken so many steps overcome this illness .

    Stay strong xx

    in reply to: Breaking the Shackles #42556
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Hi Nick
    Imagine this
    Imagine it’s your girlfriend’s birthday and you surprise her with a beautiful hotel stay – now that’s exciting too !
    How would you feel seeing her face and knowing you have done this for her ?

    Because this is exactly the life you are your way to by not gambling .
    Sure gambling for us is exciting and a great buzz – I get what you mean – when your deposit is accepted and you are ready to play the excitement is really felt throughout our bodies – but what about after- the depression hits like a mountain falling on our heads .

    You are doing brilliantly .
    You have got betfilter – which takes he immediacy out of gambling .
    And like u I feel that every shop clerk is counting how many scratch cards I buy ! Lol.

    Keep going – day 3 is really good – and keep posting !

    in reply to: I was here #36442
    i-did-it
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    Hi Laura ,
    Hope you are all packed and ready for your trip.
    It seems a lot of my friends on here are taking trips – with no one to talk to I might just have to do housework lol.
    Have you bought any new things for the trip?
    Are u super excited now ?
    Please post an update !

    in reply to: This Time #42511
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Day 18

    Was nice to chat to you Laura .

    Not much to report today except it feels like the past is catching up with me.
    Some times when i look back all I focus on is gambling – I lived a lot of life before , during and since gambling addiction became a feature of my life. My past is not all regrets and guilt .

    Today I am grateful for the efforts I made in the past which apparently still matter today.
    It’s that thing of throwing a stone in a pond – we never know who the ripples will reach .

    This sounds cryptic but without being specific I feel kinda rewarded for something so long ago I don’t even remember it.

    So another great day in recovery .

    in reply to: The second 100 days #40000
    i-did-it
    Participant

    What a great post to read Monica- you are coming out the other end determined and confident – you know you can get a job and have your old life back- or an even better one.

    its crazy when we think how low gambling can bring us -and when you really think about it -for what?

    We could just as easily escape into a good movie!

    Monica, the very best of luck in GMA. You deserve a prosperous recovery from this illness- free to rebuild a happy and supported life.
    Keep happy!

    in reply to: Circles #35069
    i-did-it
    Participant

    JayKay.
    I read through a lot of your thread today -a massive well done to you.
    I hope a year from now I am writing posts similar to yours-thank you for sharing.

    in reply to: I was here #36441
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Just missed u Laura !

    in reply to: This Time #42508
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Thank you Laura
    And again I had a really good day .

    I have had some new people come into my life in the past year or so – and it’s new for me – but they look out for me for no other reason than (I guess) they like me .
    I’m not sure why I am always surprised when people drop things for me or go that extra mile – I would do it for them- but surprised I am .
    I am blessed in so many ways – maybe when I’m gambling I’m too distracted to see it .

    Feeling grateful to have so many good friendships- old , new and developing!

    in reply to: The second 100 days #39997
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Hi Monica,
    A job would be fabulous – it would help you get back on your feet , and perhaps a lower paid job is just what you need for a while- it will probably be less stressful and a gentler transition back into work.

    I saw Laura ‘s post too – the human spirit is so much stronger than we think- Look at you – thinking about jobs and moving house – perhaps even country .
    Monica you are emerging from the cloud – lots of life still ahead of us . Keep strong my dear friend .

    in reply to: Just for today I will not gamble #31894
    i-did-it
    Participant

    On lunch break Mav so only have a minute .

    Wow!

    What a great result.
    In a few short days you will feel so much better.
    In a few short weeks you will be able to sort any money issues
    In a few short months you will feel richer
    In a few short years you will be debt free (sorry if ur not in debt)

    But right now today you will be able to look at your family and think I am making this huge effort for you – because you are worth it and your daddy is worth it .

    Well done my brave friend !

    in reply to: This Time #42505
    i-did-it
    Participant

    I just checked the date and realise today is day 17-
    This has been quite easy so far.
    Experience has taught me that phases of the journey can be easy and then suddenly – crazy urges come from nowhere.

    This time I have no access to money to gamble.
    When the urges comes, I have no way to act on them.
    I guess that good .

    I haven’t slept well again .
    Don’t want to get up again
    But the day calls…

    in reply to: I’m not giving up! #40379
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Hi Lizbeth
    Getting out and meeting people is a great tonic for a low mood.i hadn’t heard of PAWS before but it does make sense.
    I hope the application goes well. Being back in work may well give you a new lease of life . Hope your world feels a little brighter today.

    in reply to: The second 100 days #39993
    i-did-it
    Participant

    Come to group ???

    i-did-it
    Participant

    Those are the really important things – the unicorn swimsuit that she will tell her teacher and friends about .
    The new shoes that make Mum feel great and boost her confidence .
    In our world these things help .

    What kind of shoes? I haven’t bought new shoes since forever !

    i-did-it
    Participant

    Alliesmum

    I guess experience has taught me not to trust him with too much – sad by true.
    I learn slowly but I do learn .
    I couldn’t bear for him to use it against me in front of my son and I know he would .
    I want my son to always see me as his lovely mammy .
    Maybe that’s a lie , maybe it’s wrong , but that’s what I am to him despite all my faults – and I want it to stay like that .

    Does that make sense to you ?
    Often I feel
    I want to tell him all – but deep down I know I can’t .

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