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Thank you Micky- I hope things are going well for you.

Today is the start of week 5.
I have had quite a party weekend and am feeling it today. I have had such fun, spent a fortune but I feel happy.

I am a kinda shocked by how much I have spent – and yet the same amount would have lasted minutes if I was gambling – I wonder when will I stop comparing everything to gambling?

…and yes the buzz was much better than gambling

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Monica,
It’s so good to have you back- it sounds like you have gained so much from this experience. I agree with you about GA and all that telling us what we need to hear nonsense. As I read your posts I found myself wishing I could go.

You sound so renewed in spirit. It is great that you have made new connections with those ladies – i hope you all get to meet up often.
When do you get the test? Are you worried about it? I hope it helps resolve the issues you have been having .
I hope we meet in chat soon xx

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Thank you Nick an Lizbeth

I am about to head out for the night with my friend – i have no new clothes to wear but I have been out so little I’m sure none will notice .

When I get home I will be on day 28- that’s four full weeks!
It has been so much easier this time .
I have been getting really positive support and I hope I have been giving the same.

Looking forward to starting week 5!

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Great post Micky ,first few days the hardest .
Keep strong and make those changes .

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Hi Laura,
It wAs lovely to chat to you last night .
I hope you are having a fabulous day .xx

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Just think of the money Lizbeth – and ***** off the days .
I think most new jobs are horrible at the start until you find your feet , feel part of it and confident in the tasks.

When I have been in jobs I hated , I *****ed every fifteen minutes in cash lol- it kinda helped remind me why I was doing it.
Hang in there for as long as you can and get that cash together to give you a bit of relief from worry . Just keep thinking of pat day !!
It will pass – but I know it’s really hard to live through
Xx

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Just making sure you know we are thinking about u xx

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Menez,
You are right – it sound boring to our addicted brains but once we stop gambling our brains start to change – and we being to enjoy the things others enjoy .

For example, I know I have been quite miserable with grocery shopping . I would shop for bargains and then come home and gamble a grand.
Now I look for good quality produce that my family will enjoy- it was Monica on this site who helped me think differently about food- and I cannot believe the difference in taste … and yes I really enjoy eating it .

Our addicted brains consciously or subconsciously save all our money for gambling. Next time you get some cash, forget about saving or paying back – buy yourself something nice to wear and see how nice it feels to wear it .

For my recovery , treating myself is the most motivating thing-
A nice new outfit is better than a gambling hangover anyday .

Hope this helps

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Day 27
Having guests so up early before work to clean.
Really need to be more organised.
Still often had a quarter this much sleep when in action and survived.
Almost four weeks completed- so much more achievable with the right support .
Feeling grateful and happy.

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HI HMP,
I found k9 wasn’t helpful for exactly the reasons you describe .
I use a dedicated gambling blocker called Betfilter – I have it on my phone and my laptop.
It gives me freedom from the mindless gambling when I just start without thinking .
Think about buying a gambling blocker – I resiste s for years because I could not Afford to – now I know I can’t afford not to .
Hope this helps

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Hi Menez,
You say you don’t know if you can do it .
I can absolutely guarantee you that you can do it .
You can stop gambling .

I find it helps me to have a gambling blocker on my phone and on my laptop. I also have barriers in place like I don’t hold a bank card so I can’t gamble online.
I recommend you go to the group tonight for new members – you will get a lot of support and advice there
. Keep strong – you can do this !

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Hi Semaj,
No matter how hard I tried I could not Resist gambling.
No barrier could stop me .
Now I can resist mostly and the difference is I have learned to accept the money is gone – it is never coming back . I think that is what you are saying – I try to chalk it up to experience . Of course at times I still think about it but something has shifted in my brain and I know I will not see it ever again .

It’s really hard to do , but it sounds like you are focusing on all the positive things in your life – do everything possible to stop yourself gambling Srmaj. I remember being in groups and thinking others were so much worse than me – that I wasn’t a bad gambler – they had all stopped and I was still thinking that I went deeper into debt.
Once we cross that line into gambling addiction , he accusation will steal everything .
I would suggest you go to Charles groups and find it more about how to prevent gambling.
You are a good person – you deserve to be free of this horrible addiction .

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I am feeling very upbeat because I am delighted to see yourself and Slot junkie back . It is so good to have good people to share the journey with . Micky you know you can do this – we all can -keep strong and keep posting .

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Thank you Laura .
I am thinking about you too- and of course Monica .
You both are having such a huge week.
Hope you get good news at your appointment xx

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Micky it was another endless day of crisps and chocolate .
Lol!
I think like with stopping gambling I will have several false starts

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