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Thank you Charles
Day 41
Still have flu symptoms – this flu lasts a long time .
Trying to soldier on- so happy it’s the weekend .

I feel kinda left behind by life -like it’s all passed me by.
I guess I am starting to feel old. I think when we feel unwell it quickly drags us down.
I look back and wonder why I made the choices I did – in truth I went with the flow – I never made any real choices.

Maybe now there is still time to make those choices – to live a life I chose rather than one I drifted into .

Feeling pensive this morning – not exactly negative but not full of the joys ..
Tomorrow week 6 will be completed – I think maybe this is one of my best attempts .

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Hi Charles
I am just going to copy a post I wrote on my own thread :

Buying a lottery ticket isn’t really that big a deal except for me it kinda does there following

1. Keeps alive the idea of the big win which

2. Removes my motivation to look after my money and save which

3. Makes me feel flippant about money which

4. Makes me think a small gamble won’t matter which

5. Sends me back into a full blown relapse .

For me , I think about the lottery such a lot but I don’t want to do it because it’s the thin edge of the thin edge of the wedge for me

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Hi Laura
I see I just missed you in a group .
I hope all is good with you and the pain is subsiding .
Xx

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Hi Jaykay
That post echos my feelings ~ stress at work sends me straight to thinking about my lottery win.
Despite the huge odds I always think I will win.

It is hard to stay away from gambling but just look at how far you have come.
I like to read your posts – they are real- you get that it can be a struggle .
Keep strong

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Hi Jaykay
That post echos my feelings ~ stress at work sends me straight to thinking about my lottery win.
Despite the huge odds I always think I will win.

It is hard to stay away from gambling but just look at how far you have come.
I like to read your posts – they are real- you get that it can be a struggle .
Keep strong

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Hi Lisbeth , I hope it works out with the loan – well done on your determination to self ban. Continuing counselling seems like a really goood idea .stay strong !

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Hi Micky ,
I guess I do keep mentioning the lottery .
Buying a lottery ticket isn’t really that big a deal except for me it kinda does there following
1. Keeps alive the idea of the big win which
2. Removes my motivation to look after my money and save which
3. Makes me feel flippant about money which
4. Makes me think a small gamble won’t matter which
5. Sends me back into a full blown relapse .

For me , I think about the lottery such a lot but I don’t want to do it because it’s the thin edge of the thin edge of the wedge for me
. Does that make sense ?

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Well done DOofus ,
Seven days is fabulous .
I admire the action you have taken in closing accounts and self banning.
If you can do seven days you can do anything .

Keep strong and keep posting

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Micky
How right you are.
Waking up after a good nights sleep and tackling a to do list is way better than waking up with guilt , regret and self hatred .

Hey you n me are doing ok !
Think it’s our time Micky !

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Thank you Monica for your post .
I fell asleep on the sofa early last night and slept for hours .
Couldn’t get back to sleep but exhausted today .

Day 40- week six almost completed .

I am finding the urges are less strong although still present .
I don’t really have urges to play slots (I cannot believe how ridiculous they are) but to do the lottery.
It’s the big win urge !

I have a busy day ahead -small stirrings of anxiety – maybe that’s a permanent feature of my life now .

Looking forward to the weekend.

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Today the stress has lifted somewhat – a lot actually.
I worked very late and got on top on several work issues .
A minor miracle has happened in another area of my life .
I think I can do this . I think I can sustain a huge stress for a few months that I find myself burdened with (sorry to be cryptic).
I have so much to look forward to once this period is over.

Onward and upwards
Life is ok !

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Yippee Monica – you have been under such enormous stress added to the bug you had followed by courses of antibiotics – its little wonder it has taken things a longtime to settle .

I am feeling positive today too -a few small changes that have happened have lifted my spirits a bit .

Let’s do our plan and start living .
We deserve to have a great life .

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Hi CW
Well done on joining this site – you have recognised that you have a problem and are taking steps to recover from it . There is a great life to be had after gambling regardless of how shaky we feel at the start.
Keep posting and keep strong

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Monica ,
I think a nine o clock group would be so good on the nights f and f is on. Would that suit others ?

It would allow people who work to attend sometimes and still get to bed at a reasonable time.

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Monica, jeg tror, at en gruppe på ni ville være så gode om natten f og f er tændt. Ville det passe andre? Det ville give folk, der arbejder, mulighed for at deltage nogle gange og stadig komme i seng på et rimeligt tidspunkt.

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