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Hi Micky – did your neighbour notice her garden ? I read that post and thought why can’t MIcky be my neighbour? Lol.

I used to observe lent as a child- I haven’t for most of my grown up life – maybe I will for the rest of lent – I guess it is never too late to start.

I would love to do 4 long shifts and have six days off – sounds like a great way to work. So now I want your job too lol!

Keep going Micky – this gamble free life is great !

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Hi Laura .
Hope your health is improving – are you starting to feel some benefits from your surgery ?
Are the meds still making you sleepy or do you think you need some post op supplements ?

I admire how despite your health problems you are still on here giving support to so many people .
It really helps you know .
I had a very close call last night but today I am so grateful I didn’t gamble . This site is a life saver .

Take care Laura – I so miss you and Monica in the groups.

Take care xx
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Hi Alliesmum

Great post – day 3 is super .
I find it helpful to post here everyday or even a few times a day if I need to.
You are so right – none of us need this darkness in our lives –
It is such a great feeling to have stopped.

What are you studying ?

Keep strong

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Thank you Jaykay .

Miraculously still on the wagon -barriers stopped me .
For anyone who struggles – make it impossible to gamble.

When you can’t do it , make sure you can’t do it .

Feeling relieved today
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Could have been such a different day.

Got enough to worry about – woke up feeling anxious about something – is that why I wanted to escape ?

My old coping skills seem to have been replaced by anxiety.

Still gamble free despite all.

Onwards and upwards !!

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Wow Jonnhy
Great advice
Really well done on your gamble free time
Despite my total lack of self control I am free since 2018 started
I mean I tried but couldn’t gamble due to barriers

Keep strong – gonna follow ur advice

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Thank you Laura , Monica , Johnny and Rionagh
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Tonight strangely I am having very strong urges .
A plan is already half formed in my head- it of course included a win of several thousand .
I so want to gamble – but I so want to keep this sense of freedom and the feeling of having money in the bank.

Life can be such a struggle sometimes

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Hi Rionagh,
Stay strong Rionagh – it’s not easy – but just keep thinking about that holiday.
Think about all the lovely treats you and your family can have .
And keep remembering that once we have this addiction – we will never cash out and keep our money – so it pointless winning it .
You are doing great !

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I went and got a laptop – (dangerous I know ) and there doesn’t seem to be any way you can access your account to change your detail.
Let me know

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Monica I will try make the ten o clock – hope u make it

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Hank you Micky and Laura You know Laura you are right – I am trying to do too much too quickly and hen my mind gets boggled ! I have just queries if I could have ADD- my mind flits from project to project. Today a regular everyday occurrence brought home the difference in my “then and now ” life. I always knew the date the bank statement was due . If it hadn’t arrived by Saturday , I always had a plan to get my husband out of the way so that I could grab it and destroy it . Sometimes I insisted he get a lie in and I would ever so slowly make breakfast for him to have in bed . Sometimes I urgently needed something from a shop . Sometimes I sent him to the recycling centre . Sometimes I planned a weekend away just so I could drive way over a hundred mile round trip home to grab the post – I would the return and pretend I had spent the morning looking around the local shops . Sometimes I sent a friend to pick up the post so burglars wouldn’t see it lying by the front door. I was so crazy -and so creative in my attempts to hide the evidence . So this morning I was making everyone a cooked breakfast – because I wanted to ! – and the post came . The dog barked , and I realised it is no longer a huge event in my life . I no longer wait impatiently on the postman with my heart in my mouth, I no longer have to plan days in advance for his visit , I no longer have to rush home from work to make sure I get my hands on the statement . I no longer wake up in fear, planning how to manage huge event of the post dropping through the door . What a crazy way to live .

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Hi Problemgambler,
I don’t think this is the right place to get financial help. Almost everyone on here is either trying to stop gambling and is completely skint or has stopped and is trying to get their finances sorted after messing them up for years. Most of us have been where you are though , so we understand .

It sounds like you have hit rock bottom and the only way is up from here. You will survive this – can u let your bills slide for a month or ring them and ask for them to be spread over the rest of the year ?

Maybe you will find a job of some description to tide you over – many people on here have had to take on extra work (including me) . Try everything and everywhere and you might be pleasantly surprised .

Really well done on your gamble free time . It tAkes a while to get back on your feet but you will get there. Keep strong

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Thanks you Monica, Alliesmum and Lizbeth. I have just completed nine weeks gamble free. It is so much easier to control the urges now – they Are more like fleeting thoughts but still very frequent . I am kinda inspired by Monica today – somewhere along the way I have lost confidence in my abilities – I settle for safety – maybe it’s time to push myself to apply for new jobs with higher pay . What I once expected to achieve no problem now fills me with fear – I can’t quite explain when or how this happened. I watch people with half my training, experience and knowledge fill these posts without any self doubt . I think maybe I judge myself too harshly and focus on what I don’t know instead of all I do know . Anyway I am about to push myself out of my comfort zone – and start applying. Who knows what the next year will hold . Onwards and upwards .

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I got in – I think u have to sign in again to the site Laura

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Wow, what absolutely amazing news Monica.
Imagine that good wage without gambling –
You will get in your feet and never look back.
So pleased for you .
Also you will be back out in the world meeting people and having a purpose .
Look forward to meeting you in group to hear all about it .
Xx

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Hi Lizbeth
Plans and goals are great – I think volunteering is an excellent idea -I would love to volunteer in a charity shop – I would love to create nice displays on the shop floor.
What do you think you might do ?

It is niece to get away from you own house a there always seems to be things that need it be done .

No gambling is life changing – and we deserve it !

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