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Thank you Micky for your post.

There is so much I want to write about today but those of you who have been following my thread will understand this is no longer possible for me .

So I guess all I can write is that the time has come to put myself first (well after my son because that’s what parenting is!) and make some life changing decisions .
I have been inspired by Monica, Sara and Laura today .
There are things that tie us to our lives and make us feel stuck – things like Permanent jobs and mortgages .
I am questioning could I survive if I just abandoned these ?.
Could I scale back my life and work less?

I need to make a lot of decisions- I need to understand that I deserve happiness as much as anyone .

Gambling didn’t steal my happiness – gambling masked my unhappiness .

So much I want to write but another “controller” has taken that from me !

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Hi Monica ,
That’s a great positive post .
It is uplifting to get your hair done by I feel I need to find the right hairdresser- maybe it’s just getting older but now when I leave the hairdresser I think “thats tidier ” rather than feeling I look great! Lol.
It’s great to be able to do the simple things like buy food – and cook it. Even going to the supermarket gives us a purpose.
Money is definitely the root of all evil – well the lack of it is.

Do you think you and Pete get along better now that you have voiced how you feel about living together ?
Enjoy today Monica and the feeling of having a little money .
Perhaps it’s a good time to get that business going ?

It was good to chat last night !

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Hi Micky
That’s good that you will spend Easter with you partner . Will you you out for Easter dinner. Are you getting a long break from work ? Time for a good update methinks !

Keep strong and keep posting
Xx

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Hi Lizbeth
It kinda amazes me how many people on here play video games-
I think I missed the whole gaming movement as I was busy with my “habit “. It sounds like it could be fun .
I am going to take on board what you and Sara have said about worrying – there is no point in us getting ourselves all worked up when we can’t change things – question though – how do we actually stop worrying? How do we stop the thoughts going around and around in our heads ?

I hope you enjoy your video games – I am addicted to Netflix right now but it is a lot cheaper than gambling. .

Onwards and upwards !
Xx

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Thank you Monica and Lizbeth .
It is weird about my posts .
This can happen when they have been edited but would have to be done by me unless someone else has access .
This site gets more and more weird !

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I have just made a major and necessary purchase of bedroom furniture – it is not new but was a great second hand bargain – not gambling has meant I had the funds to take advantage of an opportunity which presented itself.
That’s what money give us – the ability to avail of opportunities.

It won’t be delivered until next week so I could have the room decorated before then. I am feeling positive and motivated – it will be a frugal month after all this – but it will be a frugal month in a beautiful room lol!

Never thought I would see the day when second hand furniture would excite me – how gambling has changed me!

Onwards and upwards !

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A lot of my old posts have come up marked as new – is that strange ? Makes me feel someone has been editing them?
I will have to read back over them. Has this happened to anyone else – they are from early March ?

I decided yesterday that I am going to force myself to go out more – and visited my local pub with hubby . It is good to get cleaned up and see a few people . I have somehow changed from being a part animal into someone who sits in all weekend – it has kinda crept up on me but no more .

I think Sara’s post about how she lives has really inspired me to get more out of my life . We don’t have to live to anyone else’s standards and sometimes the people who impose the most restrictive standards on us are ourselves .

Life is for living !

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Monica
We are so alike in many ways . We both jumped on Sarah’s lifestyle ! Lol .
In truth material possessions have never interested me much – don’t get me wrong I love clothes , hair and makeup even though nowadays I look like a I sleep rough .
My mortgage will take forever to pay and will ensure I cannot retire for an least a decade – although once again I dabbled in eBay .
Bought a dress in a charity shop and sold it for over thirty pounds profit – I know I could have a great instinct for business but feel trapped/ restricted by my salary ! I guess it’s a complaint many would love to have . Sara seems to have it sussed in terms of having a good life rather than possessions .

Hope we all meet in group soon xx

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Hi Laura ,
I want a shiny car with fancy gadgets – my car still has a tape deck ! Can u believe that ? Haha – I don’t even know where to buy a tape. But I still feel so privileged to have a car !

Two or the groups have moved to 11. I agree that the times are really bad now – I think 24 hour and people using the meeting place would work. It seems silly that the meeting place forum was only created after there were hardly any times to meet ! Who knows how people’s minds work ??

Hope your back is healing nicely !
Talk soon
Xx

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Happy belated Birthday Micky – I hope you had a great time – you are five years older than me – we are getting on !

Hope you have a lovely Easter too

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Hi Laura ,
I guess it’s a good time to thank you for your ongoing support to me , even when you have been in so much pain.
I missed the groups because I keep falling asleep on the sofa ! I am getting old – I used never do this !

I agree with your comments about Sara ! Sara has been offering support to many on here !

About feeling suicidal – but Im not sure why but practically every time I gambled I had thoughts of suicide – not a plan just invasive thoughts – I am so glad we are all here today !

I have a great picture of you whizzing around in your new car Laura – Life can be so good !

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Sorry Lilly ! Typo!

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Hi Lily
Well done on recognising that you have a problem
With gambling and on seeking help.

It is really hard to stop without support – a solution for you could be to self ban from the casino . I am not sure where you are from by most countries have this facility . This would mean that when the urges come to visit this casino you simply can’t .
Perhaps your husband would go with you to do this ? Ten minutes embarrassment for the next four months of freedom? It would give you great peace .

I have been gambling for a little longer than you and it is a constant battle but life is so much better without it and the shame , guilt and regret gambling brings .

Onwards and upwards Sara.

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Great post Daniel
I could not bear to think of never gambling again – I just love it too much – it is my very favourite activity .

So I just try not to gamble “for today ”

Maybe this would work with trading too ?

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Hi Sara
I didn’t pick up on any safety issues – I just try to post most active members and give them support – a i know I love to get replies on my thread and I find it really encourages me
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You are most kind to be so considerate of another member – and to be honest if I had picked up any safety issues I would probably have responded differently .
This site works best when we all offer each other positive support . We all bring a different way to looking at things and none of us know the effects of a genuinely supportive post in anyone’s life .
. Gambling addiction is such a lonely illness – people often don’t get it – we can hardly Figure it out ourselves !

Thank you Sara for your very kind post – it has really lifted me tonight. I hope all is good with you xx

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