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Hi Lisaann
It was nice to meet you in chat.
Keep resisting those urges and watch how good your life can be .
You deserve freedom from this addiction and deserve to spend your money on nice things for you !
Keep strong xx

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Thank you maverick – I use bad language a lot so my vocabulary must be very limited .
I am sooo tired this evening – I have a huge workload and currently seem to be working very long hours – hence I have been too tired to post much . I also have been too busy to think about gambling.

Life is generally good and I am looking forward to payday .
This will be another month I haven’t dipped into my savings which feels good .
Not much to report – family life trundling along – no major excitement right now
.i guess that’s good !

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Hi lisann – well done on recognising hat you have a problem with gambling and on joining this site .
I find he link between gambling and anxiety somewhat confusing – I gambled to escape my anxiety and then had anxiety about the consequences of my gambling. I look forward to reading more from you.
Xx

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Lizbeth of course you are a good person – you are a devoted mother and grandmother and a friend to many on here – I want to applaud when I read that you refuse to let this horrible addiction define you. Keep strong and keep enjoying the important things in your life xx

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Hi Mav,
Thank you for your post on my thread. It must be such a relief to you that your wife is recovering from such a serious illness . It has taken its toll on you all.
I admire your honesty and courage in coming back here and posting . You really do work on recovery .
It’s hard – very hard . I have just got to month four but find it is a constant battle .
Keeps strong Mav- you deserve to have one less thing to worry about .

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Hi Monica – I had written you a reply and it disappeared – so annoyed !

I hope you you are feeling better ! I am glad you have no t lost your bravery in speaking up when things are wrong .
I feel both of the above scenarios are caused by greed – the greed of the landlord and the greed of the healer .
It is good your sister had found somewhere but losing her cats seems a huge price to pay .

It occurs to me that your bravery and directness in speaking up when things are wrong is balanced by your empathy and lack of need to lambast others when they make a mistake (as I have found during my relapses ).

You are a great person with so much to offer – hope you are feeling good today !

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Hi Monica
That is good news – a diagnosis means treatment and treatment will restore your health- itis hard to feel on top of the world when your health is below par.
Hopefully this is the start to things moving forward in your life – you are right – the health service has too many people going through the motions . We all deserve better .
Hope to see you in a group soon.

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Thank you Sara for your post .

Checked the bank yesterday – it’s starting to look quite healthy. Perhaps if I work at it I can have all the things I want . Quite healthy means I am not skint trying to stretch out my last few pounds until payday.
Got to run to work – which seems less of a burden now that I am actually starting to see some results from it .
I am blessed to have a well paid job and blessed to have the health to go to it .
Onwards and upwards !

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Thank you Sara and Laura for your posts. I see it has been a week and a half since I posted here . I seem to have been incredibly busy. I managed to write a few posts and then ran out of time. Also I am on a new supplement and I now get tired in the nights rather than being the night owl I have always been surviving on five hours sleep.

Today I am thinking about my meagre savings . There are things I definitely need . I need a new kitchen and I need a new car. Howver I want a holiday- not for me so much but for my son and husband who deserve it .

Now how do I choose?

I am hoping my car will not give up the ghost for another year- then I will buy something smaller and cheaper ( yes my car was big and flashy once – so no big shot mentality there !)

The kitchen is no longer going to be the dream, glossy magazine affair I have been imagining. Or it might be but it will be done in stages. So this year it will be a new fitted kitchen and later I will knock walls and move doors. I have never been in a house with a worse kitchen so this is really a priority.

As usual I am impatient .

On the positive side I have been doing a lot of catching up with friends . It is clear that some friends bring nothing positive to my life and others makes me feel wanted and “at home”. It is a good time to prioritise who I want to spend my time with . I no longer want to waste my time on people who bring me down and are always on their own agenda .

My life is plodding along fine. It is hugely improved by not gambling and even better now that I am no longer tortured by urges all the time. My mind is free to concentrate on other things .

I guess I’m kinda happy !

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Hi Monica ,
You do sound low right now . I know how much you hate taking pills but ladies in my work have talked about how much anti depressants have helped lift them out of a low mood.

I have started a new supplement called well woman max and I feel so much better . I must definitely have been lacking something -perhaps iodine . There is the added bonus that they contain NAC which stops gambling urges.

I hope you have been out in that sunshine since you wrote your last post and I hope it has lifted your spirits.

Dale Winton’s passing was so sad and there seems to be a famous person passing every day right now. I always think I would be happy if I had more money but it doesn’t seem to be the case.

I hope you are feeling much better and life is looking brighter.
Xx

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Hi Kin, it is good to read that you are recognising your successes and improvements . It might be helpful to write about them. You have come such a long way .

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Hi Laura ,
So great to read your back is improving and that you are getting out and about in your new car and spending time with friends.
Maybe it’s time for a date night with hubby?
A little bit of special time to remind you of why you got together in the first place?
As we change and grow through different phases of our lives we are sometimes out of sync with our partners. Of course sometimes they are just downright annoying !!!

Keep enjoying your improved health and finances .xx

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Thank you Sara and Laura
I will definitely check out those links – seem to be really busy right now .
Today my son has exams and is so nervous – I wish I could take the difficult things in his life from him – but I know he will survive it! I find myself feeling really anxious about him . It is hard to let go and let him walk his own path .
So once again I find myself reaching to God in prayer – I seem to only pray when I want something . I prayed a lot when I was gambling – I prayed for a cure .
Must rush – work is calling

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Thank you Sara for your reply. I would appreciate if you could post details of the cd.

I find myself surprised that people are taking my idea of applying for a much more senior post so seriously and offering me real help. This is new for me and just goes to show what happens when we value ourselves more . While I don’t think his will be my time it is so encouraging to see that others have no problem seeing me in this post … I kinda find myself asking – why not me ?

I bought a new multi vitamin and mineral and have just realised I have stopped nail biting and also that the urges have gone . I chose a supplement with iodine because I felt I might be low in it . After googling to see if this could have made a difference (no research at all to support this ) I went and rechecked the ingredients in my supplement – yes it has NAC. I have found NAC to be a miracle supplement in taking away urges but after a few days my tummy gets very ill. In this formula I am not having urges but neither am I feeling ill- I feel really great and energetic actually .

Got to go – dinner almost cooked !!

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Just wrote you a long post and it just logged me out and is gone-so frustrating.
Hope the appointment goes well.
I had written in length that sitting on a committee ( a very well paid one) might be good while you recover your health.
Hope to meet you soon in group

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