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((((sg)))) its normal to feel sad early in recovery, I know I was. I was grieving that I could not continue gambling something that I loved doing. (regardless of what disaster followed in its footsteps).
It gets easier, hang in there your doing great.
You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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Hi Carol and sg, thanks for your support 🙂 today I woke up with no urges and in all things are going easier, much easier, my anxiety in the evening are dropping. Life is pretty **** good.
Carol, You can find information and pictures on Facebook, just search for “bust out for breast cancer” 🙂
I know the artist who has done the busts is amazing and has donated to much of her own time..
You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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(((razz))) thank you for your support and i didn’t gamble, and regardless of my urges it’s very little chance I would be able too as I have put so many restrictions on myself 🙂 today things are kinda peaceful again and yes you are right those machines are pesky things so lets stay away from them. Together we can make it.
You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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***** (((Carole))) not sure what was going on and as a matter a fact it matters little, bottom line is I cannot gamble, no matter how bad the urges get or how much I want it.
I have to surrender to that fact.
It makes it a lot easier actually.
I did not gamble yesterday and I will not gamble today.You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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Day 40, and I want to gamble, I want to feel that rush, my body is restless 🙁
Not going to gamble, the thought makes me frustrated, grumpy, ..let’s hope this pass soon.You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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Hey Razz, just checking in to see how your going, thinking of you xYou can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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I’m feeling sad today, really really sad and not in the **** for nothing. My **** has always been an issue it can go from top of the world to deepest dispair in a matter of minutes.
Think it has to do with the abuse I suffered as a child.
Going back to work today, don’t feel like it, not sure why, knows I deep in that i really do like my work.
On the upside my gambling urges seems to have almost **** down since that horrid testing time at Christmas, not that I think they will stay calm for long but any calm day is a +.
Guess bottom line is, I like to pull the doona over my head and hide from life for a bit, but since it doesn’t work that way I will get my sad *** up and deal with the day and all it hands me.
I pledge to not gamble today and to be kind to myself.
You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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Ohh Razz what a hard place to be in, well done for not going last night. Guess you got a choice to make yourself and your recovery or your partner :/
I do not envy you for being in that position. Sends you lots of prayers filled with courage and hope, let’s do this together one day at the time.You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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All the others here has basically said it all so I’m just going to leave you a big hug and say that you can do this, you reached out, today is a new day and let’s start again, one day at the time xYou can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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Hope you are feeling better is morning bettie, you did well going to the meeting even though you didn’t feel like it.
/Hetty You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

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