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I said I did actually enjoy playing the slots. How can I so quickly forget that towards the end I was shaking, anxious and sick!!! Must keep that in mind.

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Day 8 of no gambling and I’m feeling OK. Worked all weekend so kept me out of trouble. Made about £100 on ebay this week. Gonna give myself a weekly target of at least £50 so I can put that all to paying off my cards. I miss gambling. I know I shouldn’t but I did actually enjoy playing the slots. Don’t enjoy the aftermath but such is life. You live and learn. Getting a buzz from not spending at the moment. Chef sometimes makes me something so I don’t have to spend my own money at work. None of them know my shame ful secret. Be kind to yourselves people. We are all worthy humans, we just have a horrible addiction. We can beat it xx

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Thanks Steve. I’m finding this forum very helpful as I have no one to confide in in real life. I keep trying to ficus on the future but I feel I’ve already messed up the future. The next couple of years are going to be so difficult all for the sake of a slot game.
Day 4 is over though and I am still here.

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That’s inspirational. Just what I need to hear right now on day 4. I hope I will be writing a similar post in a few years time. We’ll done x

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Felt OK this morning even after an email from my banks debt management department. However this afternoon its hit me like a tonne of bricks. Maybe it’s the lack of dopamine from the online slots but I hit a low. Thinking I’d be better off dead than living this nightmare. Funny how in less than 5 minutes I went from VIP to person non grata.

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Found out this morning I’m £900 more in debt than I thought. I’ve gone over my credit limit on one card. Went into bank and deposited £250 of tips I had been squirreling away. Cash is so much safer for me as I only gamble on line. Money in the bank never stays in the bank. Thankfully day 3 now and I haven’t gambled. I will take even longer to pay it all off now. Its going to be a long slow process. I’ve never been this much in debt in my life. Its funny as I’m actually quite frugal a lot of the time so to blow that amount on gambling seems absurd. I’m feeling OK. A few fleeting thoughts of gambling but pushing them away. Stay strong everyone x

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Thank you for your kind comments. I’m not so young. I’m 43 this year and have been gambling on and off for about 5 years. Only the past few months it’s got out of control. I know eventually I can be debt free but it’s going to take a long time realistically. Gambling is a horrible problem. Its so much fun at the start and by the end you are left a nervous wreck getting no enjoyment from it whatsoever. I’m actually relieved that I have no funds available to continue as it was makibg me feel sick by the end.

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Well done for coming here and taking steps in recovering. How long have you been gamble free? I’m new to this journey also. Day 2 here but feeling optimistic like yourself. I’m sure this journey will be an emotional roller coaster but hopefully with support from like minded people we can get through the tough times.

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