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Well it didn’t stop there. I got an email from lottery saying the jackpot must be won tonight so obviously I had to buy a ticket because winning the lottery is the answer to all my problems. Couldn’t just deposit the £2 required for a ticket though. Deposited £20 and spent the other £18 on instant wins. Lost it all of course. I should put my urges to better use and get on with sorting out all my ebay stuff.
There’s a chance I will win the lottery tonight though isn’t there? And pigs might fly!!!!

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Thank you Berta and Steve for taking the time to reply. I get stregnth from hearing from other compulsive gamblers on the road to recovery.
My financial situation is dire. At the rate I’m paying off my cards it’ll be 3-4 years. That’s why any slip no matter how small is just unaffordable.
My daily thoughts are consumed with how I can juggle my money about to cover repayments. Then I think what will I do to cover birthdays and Christmas. I’m going to have to sell more of my bongings.

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Well I Just Lost £200. Doesn’t Sound Like A Lot compared to my past but I really can’t afford to gamble. it all started with an email from Mr green saying I had money iny account. I logged in and found I had £10. I gambled last night at small 10p spins but today I kept putting it up and adding more money. Why have I no self control over this. I’m sad now.

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Exactly my thoughts. When your depositing your life savings then some they treat you like a VIP. When you’re up to your eyes in debt and can’t even afford a 10p spin you suddenly become person non grata. I hate the sites that are preying on vulnerable addicts. They are no better than drug dealers and they shouldn’t get away with it.

Hope you find support here useful. I find reading the forum daily really does help. Wishing you all the best for recovery ♥

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I’m happy for you. I was so worried. 40 days is amazing. You are on such a different wavelength to last month. Well done for staying away from the slots. Xxx

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I’m nearing the end of my second day gf. I had another slip up on Sunday and my cards are maxed out again so I’m starting once again from the bottom. I want to remain gf and fix all the damage I have done to my finances.

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2 months was going well with no gambling. Had a very very stressful month due to ongoing relationship issues and today I gambled. £1500 gone…… I’m so depressed right now. I have enough to cover my minimum payments on my credit cards but I’m basically no further forward. I am due to go away for a few nights as from tonight but now I have this big black cloud over my head. I can’t confide in my partner as my relationship has been abusive and he’s not the most understanding sort. Last time I openened up about gambling he basically said its your problem I’m not helping you. I wasn’t allowed to go to gamblers anon as he said it was ridiculous and I should just stop doing it. If only!!!!! Well how am I going to get out of this mess. There’s no quick fix. On minimum payments I’m looking at probably at least 3 years of being skint.
I’m ashamed. I’m a mother of 6 and instead of buying nice things for my kids or putting it towards their future I’ve squandered thousands on slots. I feel pathetic and useless. Saving grace is that they are well provided for by their father, even if he is an abusive b**t**d and he’s now had to leave the family home because of his aggression. No wonder I don’t confide in him.
Hope you are all well. I’ll keep you all updated.

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I can relate to your story. I always had one favourite slot game too and only near the end I started playing one other which I got hooked on too. Sounds like you had a lot to deal with and the trauma of losing your partner must have been tough. Please keep posting here. It really does help to read other people’s stories when you have an urge to gamble xx

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Well done on making it to day 5. That’s a wonderful achievement and you should feel so proud. The first week is so tough as youre having to find ways to fill the void. Keep strong. Keep thinking of your future as a happy family. I’m trying to focus on how bad it felt to lose rather than the big wins as inevitably even the big wins ended up as a loss. I couldn’t quit while I was ahead.

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Well thank you all for your words of support. I appreciate it so much and it really helps to keep me focused. I’ve managed 2weeks. When I’m busy I don’t think much about gambling but when I have a free moment like now I really do. I’ve been so tempted this morning to go to the lottery website and buy scratch cards. I came here instead as I thought spending the time writing down whats happening will deter me from actually going along with these cravings. I have money in my account but not much. Its enough to cover my minimum credit payments this month and a tiny bit over for any other things that crop up. I’d be very silly to spend that on scratch cards. I have more ebay stuff to do this morning and try to keep the momentum going with that. Also if I keep busy cleaning the house that should keep me out of trouble. I have school sports day in the afternoon if it’s not rained off.
How is everyone else? I hope it’s been a calm weekend for all of you xx

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Well I’ve made it through day10. Had a couple of strong urges today. Out of nowhere. My phone seems to be full of gambling adds offering 100% bonuses and free spins etc. I had a brief feeling that I could just use free spins but then I remembered how well I’ve done this week. I just keep looking for inspiration through stories of recovered gamblers when I’m having an urge.

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Please self exclude. Stop now while you have money. Tell your husband about your temptations and get him to put the money in a safer account where you can’t access it. I have stopped but probably mostly due to having no money left. I’m sure that in your position I’d be tempted also. My partner and I have seperate accounts and one joint account for bills so I haven’t had access to any of his hard earned money. He’s not an understanding man though and would be very angry if he knew what I had done.
My daughter and I have been downloading a lot of logo quizzes. It’s something to do other than gambling and it’s free.
Please keep coming here. It’s helping me a lot in these early days X

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Пожалуйста, исключите себя. Остановись сейчас, пока у тебя есть деньги. Расскажите мужу о своих искушениях и попросите его положить деньги на более безопасный счет, где у вас нет доступа к ним. Я остановился, но, вероятно, в основном из-за того, что у меня не осталось денег. Я уверен, что на вашем месте меня тоже соблазнит. У меня и моего партнера есть отдельные счета и один общий счет для счетов, поэтому у меня не было доступа ни к каким из его с трудом заработанных денег. Однако он не понимающий человек и был бы очень зол, если бы узнал, что я сделал. Моя дочь и я скачивали много викторин по логотипам. Это чем-то, кроме азартных игр, и это бесплатно. Пожалуйста, продолжай идти сюда. Это очень помогает мне в эти первые дни X

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Just checking how you are getting on? ☓

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Просто проверяю, как у вас дела? ☓

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