[gustav101]

Hey Cruising, I am here for a liability check!! I understand you don’t have any body to hand your finances to, but instead of handing over your finances, I would love to see a daily post till atleast the end of June 2024, thereafter I will relax a bit, but would love to hear your progress and let you know, you are not alone.

[gustav101]

Great to see that you have another day to add to your winning. To me it is far greater to go a day without gambling, than to win a Jackpot you have been stressing and wasting time for. The calmness of the mind is the greatest prize to win

[gustav101]

Day 7, I feel alright… Still a lot of fog, and unclear thinking. Pay is getting in tomorrow, and with my plan in place I am certain I will be OK. I find that I feel great in the mornings, but as the day progresses, I slip into a bit of depression, I keep on telling myself that this feeling will get better, and I am certain it will, I just have to work my plan and give it time. Time heals everything.

[gustav101]

Thanks Dark, that definitely helped and I agree, there is some underlying factors I have to work with. I have to establish a way to understand why I am the way I am, and that will greatly help the matter. Another day gambling free, I am struggling to focus on my work, as I feel depressed, and can’t focus. Let’s get through today and see if it will get better.

[gustav101]

Great to hear from you friend! I am glad to hear it is going the right way. You deserve so much better than all the constant stress and anxiety caused by all of this, we all deserve better. Keep up the hard and good work, it will pay off… It has to!! Keep in touch, and when the will power seems to fade, come chat on here, I am going to be on constantly for a while,as I have something to prove to myself. Goodluck old friend and may the Gambling thoughts die away one day!!

[gustav101]

Had a lovely weekend with the family. I still feel ashamed for my recent relapse, and not very proud. I constantly find myself and thinking about what I have done over the years. I need this to end, I am the only one that can make this work. It will get better and I will start to feel better, just work the program and you will be fine. I will be part of this community and make regular posts. If I feel like gambling or trading, I will join a GA meeting and make a journal entry…

[gustav101]

I’ve been good… Today just spending time with the family… Taking one day at a time…

[gustav101]

Hey Dark, see you haven’t posted for a while. If you get this message and I hope it comes through on your mail. How is it going? What are you up to these days?

[gustav101]

Hey Cruising… Good thing you came back to post, I hope we see a post where it is a month from now, and you didn’t gamble, but to be honest I would love to see a post of no gambling for 16 February 2024

[gustav101]

I’m back again, as I read through my prior journals, and realized. I need to be here, I need to attend GA meetings online when I feel alone. I wrote a journal entry in Oct 2022, feeling lost and alone, and as if I will never get out of this space. Alot has happened since then, I relapsed a couple of times in between, but I also managed to stay gamble free for free for up to 3 months. I had my last big relapse 25 January 2023, and from there 2 small relapses, yesterday was my final day. I read through the past Journals this morning, and realized, if I stopped trading then, I would have been so far by now. At that moment it just feels as if you are never getting out of this space. Today I realized, you will get out of that space, it takes time, practise and patiance, I feel so silly right now reading back to my past Journals. This time I am going to do it for real, I truelly feel that this time, I can pull through, and I need to stick to my plan, posting journals and joining GA meetings, whenever I feel like trading/gambling. Come on you SON OF GUN!! You’ve got this!! And to anybody struggling with this today, it will get better, you just have to make it work.

[gustav101]

Hey DE – Just want to say I am very proud of you for growing so much! I haven’t been on here for a while, and can say I’m in doing good, I always think of your story as our stories are so alike. Hope you are till doing good and keeping on growing!

[gustav101]

Hi Dark, thank, I will do some research around that, must say today is day 20, I am feeling better, back at the office, and just grinding, the feeling is a bit better, not sure how long it will last for. But for now I’m embracing it, and just taking it day by day, we don’t know what tomorrow has got in-store for us. Have a great day.

[gustav101]

Well done Dark!! This is inspirational! You are making moves into the right direction, you are showing a lot of us, that it is possible if you truly put your mind to it! Keep it up!

[gustav101]

Day 18 – Time feels as if it standing still, I am not in the mood to getup today, but I have to as I know once I start this day, it will get better. At this moment I need to get and stay motivated, in order to move forward. I was never like this, I feel broken and it feels like forever to heal again. One day at a time I suppose.

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Day 13 – not feeling to positive, but not feeling negative, its a in between. My mission is to live a honest and open life. So far, I am keeping it up and it feels great. Just knowing I got all my dirty laundry out there. Time just feels as-if it is going very slow, but I guess this is where the patience game needs to come in.

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